So it's happening. Final diagnosis of Lymphoma and I received a call asking me to come in immediately. Blood tests, ECG and now on a liquid drip. Not sure if I'll have steroids or straight to chemo/radio/immune mixture. Pleased to be in good hands, but also terrified ❤️
So today has been the worst day since being told I have cancer. Had a good old weep, not because I have cancer but because it has robbed me of every ounce of energy I ever had. Just managed to brush teeth for the first time today 💪 I don't even know who I am anymore 😭
Wasn't expecting this after 1 round of chemo but there you go. Helps that I've always had short hair but wanted to take ownership of it. Yes, heavy filter applied to picture but please be kind xx
6 out of 6 routine chemo sessions completed 💪 Never had any intentions of ringing the bell, but my mum's voice was so insistent in my head that I felt had no choice. Rang it 3 times very quietly, I was alone and I cried but she'll know I did it ❤️
Broke the news to my daughter (28) today that I have cancer and it is early days so we don't know the full picture yet. She was so solid, steady and positive my heart broke in two 💔
Guess who is finally sitting up in a chair after 1st 12 hour chemo on Friday? Two days of vomiting (now just wretching). Praying 🙏 it gets easier ❤️ Picture for reality not pity.
@susiesbookrevs
Great idea. On my daughters 21st I bought her favourites as a child, including the ones we used to read night after night at bedtime. We both cried 😢❤️
@DonnaDlm71
Someone once said to me "Don't do it, they'll only buy alcohol". I replied "Yes but I think I'd drink to excess if I lived on the streets too".
Cancer update: The consultant rang and said my kidney tumour has attached itself to my spleen and possibly my bowels. The plan will be to shrink it and then to a London hospital to remove what they need to remove. Praying my chest CT comes back clear 🙏
An unexpected upside to cancer. When you tell your adult daughter you are tired and need an afternoon a lay-down and she comes with you to keep you company ❤️ Took me right back to when she was a baby, when she napped, I napped with her in our double bed 🩷
Consultant appointment today. Every twinge, ache, pain or odd sensation I now experience makes me question my body. Each chemo session is more manageable than the last so I'm anxious for some reassurance that it is still working and that fighting chemo isn't my superpower 🙏
@Liberator_hen
You can definitely be in my tribe ... much rather have pals who are honest about themselves than these fake fannies with "perfect" lives who pretend to be something they are not.
Today is a good day ❤️ binge watching The Gathering (C4) in bed, fed myself and put a cardboard box in the recycling 💪 I am aware tomorrow could be different but taking these little wins 🏆
@jackp593
What a beautiful pair they make 😍 But yes, if they are happy then we are happy 😊 someone once told me "you are only as happy as your unhappiest child" if that makes sense.
@MartinSLewis
@bbc5live
Move money you plan to save to another account of payday rather than wait to see how much you've got left at the end of the month. If it stays in your account you will spend it. Once moved you can always transfer some back if necessary.
My goodness - never underestimate the incredible kindness of Twitter folk ❤️ I realise I am one of the lucky ones to be receiving chemo with the end goal of being able to "cure" me. Many aren't so lucky 💔
Sitting in bed on Day 2 waiting for cancer consultant to call. Could vomit with nerves 🤢 I know its got my left kidney, spleen, part of my colon & diaphragm but not had news about my chest yet. I just need a plan 🙏
@committee_1922
I don't give a fig what size it is or who owns it ... yet the sheer sense of achievement that radiates from the original tweet has lifted my spirits and cheered me up no end. Keep going
@BootstrapCook
Popped into work so make up was needed 🤣 It was so lovely to see my colleagues/friends. Hoping to return next week on reduced hours to try to get some normality back into my life 🩷
@Parsnip66
I don't know what it looked like before but it looks amazing now! I created a gallery wall - pictures were either what I had, sampls of wallpaper, printouts from Internet and I bought cheap frames from supermarket.
Tomorrow is my last routine chemo ... its been a tough six months of my life that I never expected. One year ago today it was the last day of our holiday in Sussex and I was enjoying a gin and cake after going for a swim in the sea with my partner and three dogs ❤️
@michellegus
I took my lovely Lola to the vets today knowing I wouldn't be bringing her home. It was heartbreaking and I wished things could have been different but I'm 100% sure I did the right thing. She was my princess but in return she showered me with love ❤️
On a positive note, look what today bought in order of joy:
1. Beautiful crochet blanket in the post from a friend of 40 years. We met when our fathers were serving in N.Ireland during the 80s. She also sent ginger sweets for sickness, ginger tea and a cup to keep my tea warm ❤️
Can I just say how overwhelmed I have been at the responses I've had on Twitter ❤️ I've always been a bit of a casual user from afar but will make more effort going forward. It won't all be about cancer, I have three dogs who are arseholes too 😀
Today I turn 54 🥳 Had a lay in, cooked breakfast is on the go. We will take the dogs for a long walk then take a drive to a coastal town where I will browse some quirky shops, find a massive dirty burger, sink a few gins then spend the evening on the sofa. Life is good ❤️
SOME GOOD NEWS 🥳 Chest CT scan came back clear 👏 Now to have a biopsy on my "mass" to determine if it's Renal Cell Carcinoma or Lymphoma. I knew today was a good day as I managed 4 hours at work and a trip to
@Tesco
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Two days after 4th chemo (only 7 hours in the blue chair) and I've been for a beautiful coastal town in Kent for a walk by the sea, a mooch in the shops and a Morelli's ice-cream and cup of tea. Life's not all bad ❤️
@UnaMcIlvenna
I hadca work colleague who was frequently told by her husband thst she needed to "tone it down" as she was "too much". After she divorced him she went on to meet and marry man who positively encouraged her to "dial it up" and "be more" ❤️
@HelenAshby72
These replies break my heart. I couldn't even begin to comprehend bringing a child into this world and not wanting to give them the happiest life possible. My own mum was full of laughter, happiness and positivity and I miss her every day x
The body gets stronger and the effects of chemo wear off enough for some normal service to resume. Pre-chemo check this morning, little trip to TKMaxx then an hour with work colleagues ❤️ Payback is an afternoon weeping uncontrollably. Body 1 Mind 0 😬
Partner in bed with heatstroke. I've moved to spare room due to my tumour and the inability for my body to regulate it's own temperature 🥵 Fan on "freeze" mode. Oh but the sweet sound of rain battering the extension roof is so welcome despite having left washing on the line 😁
@AddictsMum62
I feel the same about my cat. From a kindness point of view, I know her time is running out. From an emotional point of view, she helped me through a very odd time in my life and I feel we have a special connection. Sending you strength ♥️
@silverpebble
I love a succulent ❤️ Not sure if this is classified as one (ceropegia woodii - hanging hearts) but I get hours of satisfaction in separating the tangled stems (mine doesn't look as good as this)
@SarahDuggers
Not my taste (confident they'd hate my house if asked) but at least they loved it and looked after it. I wouldn't put a stray dog in some of the properties I've seen for sale.
Arrived in work this morning after pre-chemo checks (chemo Friday) to find some thoughtful person (unknown) had left this on my desk for me ❤️ (post-it note is on a case containing 8 boxes of chocolates). Kindness is everything x
Big day ... made it into work for a couple of hours. Beyond exhausted physically (now in bed) but mentally one of the best things I could have done for my headspace ❤️
#fuckcancer
2 of 2: will continue for 2 more treatments, PET scan, then 2 extra chemo for my brain. This will mean a 3-4 day stay in hospital for both. All being well (bed availability) I could be done by the end of October. Celebrated with steak pie and a pint of coke in pub 🥳🥳🥳
Advanced Cancer. Will await another CT scan to see if it has spread. I wasn't expecting it - assumed they'd cut me open take the lump away and leave me with a big old scar and I'd just feel better. 🧵
Normally, I love the heat but having spent the whole day horizontal, with a fan on my balding head I can honestly say that chemo and heat/sunshine do not mix 🥵
Update 1 of 2: Lymph nodes, bloods, kidney & liver function are excellent. My cancer is not aggressive, consultant couldn't even feel my tumour but 10 weeks ago you could visibly see it. She was amazed (and pleased) that I'd put on weight, looked so well & was back at work ...
@mand_brun
I don't want to make light of it but as someone with IBD (not IBS) I have been told it is supposed to be one of the more treatable cancers. I'd imagine I will be in your shoes one day. Of course your son will be devastated, that's testament to how much he loves his mum 💔
@JustMissEmma
So sorry and hope it doesn't set you back too much. Last night when I was feeling grumpy about leaving work late, I caught this out of the corner of my eye and thought of you.
@samjay94
Most parents just want their children to be happy so won't really give a fig about your choice of partner, just your happiness. Sometimes we don't say the right words - not because we are disappointed but simply because we are frightened of saying the wrong ones. ❤❤️❤️
@MissEmmaTurner
Lovely to read. My friend had twin girls naturally after her full term baby boy was sleeping. We joked that he'd sent her double trouble 💙🩷🩷
I am feeling so good this week I forgot it was my pre-chemo check today. Mad rush but I'm here on time 😁 It's heaven to feel so normal - energy, mood, friends, keeping busy but a slap in the face when you have forgetten for a moment.
Since developing the cancer I can no longer tolerate the heat ... and we all waited so long for it. Hung washing out yesterday then had to go for a lay down in a cool dark room with a fan on me. I hope this is the first symptom that disappears when treatment starts 🤞
@CancerFinalGirl
@ThanksCancer
A stool with adjustable legs to sit on in the shower during the early days of weakness - now use it as a seat to dry myself, brush teeth and rub mousturiser into my dry dehydrated chemo skin. £25 from Arg*s but priceless ❤️
@IL0VEthe80s
Oh I haven't thought about them in years. For some bizarre reason the memory has cheered me up no end (didn't realise I needed cheering up 😂)
@TashP351
I have just been told I have cancer (still need to determine which type or if it has spread). I have berm blown away with the messages of love and offers of support. Just tell her you are there for her x
@snufflewort
I couldn't have put this better Jean 💜 I am not the woman I was 3 months ago and I mourn her and the life she had deeply. Grateful to be receiving treatment but still processing the shock and adapting to my new life.
@CherryMorrello
I did a spot of dogsitting this afternoon ... 9 in total but never managed to get them all in the same picture but they all send you a big woof ❤️ (fragments of two dogs bottom left & right!)
101 jobs to catch up with today during my "good" chemo week. Stayed in bed until 2pm then gave the big dog a well overdue haircut/groom/clipper/pamper in the sunshine. Time well spent, the chores will wait 😀
@saramikaila
@ThanksCancer
Love this 🤣 I've yet to start treatment (radiotherapy, surgery, chemo) and yesterday's triumph was brushing my teeth. How do you explain to people that the exhaustion is real?
@HDE_Sheraby
Until I met my partner 6 years ago I was all for a hotel abroad in the sun. He has a motor home and it has changed my life! I've fallen in love with the UK all over again, revisited all my childhood family holiday haunts and discovered many new beautiful places too ...
@Kittenhotel1
Tilly is a fighter 😍 Here's hoping she learns to trust you in time. My Lola took 2 years to come round (kept for breeding before rescue) and now she doesn't leave my side. I've never known such devotion 🥰
@Wendy_Wason
My daughter was 10 when "made" to go on a walk when visiting grandparents 15 years ago. Grandfather pointed out something feathery and her retort was "I didn't realise I was birdwatching with Bill Oddie". He says it still stings even now 😂🤣
@snufflewort
I'd imagine it because I got no daytime sleep at the hospital yesterday. We were up at 6.30am and not come until 7pm. Do you think they could hurry you through bloods due to circumstances? ❤️
@sophiearumble
At 54 I'm still good on the underwire (small-medium sized) but only when I leave go out but how I mourn the ability to wear heels. I can manage a low-ish cowboy boot but that's my limit. I have kept a pair of 6" black high heels which I get out and look at every now and then 😢
@snufflewort
This is lovely 😍 I rarely wear anything and it makes me feel strong. I still have some fuzz (I think it's growing) but I get annoyed when I have to wear a sun-hat (although not as annoyed as I'd be if I got sun-burn or heat stroke!).
@credland_nicki
Having sat with my own mum (in her 50s) while she received ICU end of life care I can only use the words respectful and dignified. "Not all angels have wings" springs to mind. The staff were beyond professional, compassionate and caring 💔❤
@WelliesIn
@Mr_H1978
Snap! It helps that it was the first card I was ever issued... way before bank cards etc. Know without a shadow of a doubt that if it had arrived on a scrappy bit of paper I'd have lost it within the first week.
@Ginger_Tucci
This makes my piss boil. If they can't behave then don't go out. They are your children so please make them sit at a table and engage with them.
@Grant_Colgate
I love reading stuff like this 👏 I'm on a chemo (eat everything in sight) and my torso resembles a well plumped duvet. Love eating clean but not possible with an insatiable appetite at the moment for which I am grateful for ❤️ P.S: for the record I have never had abs 🤣