You know what, I think being exposed to extremely violent pornography at age 10 did fuck up how I view intimacy fundamentally, bc why was I in elementary school thinking about gangrape and dyke conversion instead of learning how to do fractions? Whodve thunk! Huge rant ahead:
That time my dad went to jail and the only way my poor mom found to cheer me up was to sit me down and say "We're gonna hire a lawyer. It's gonna be like Ace Attorney" and it actually worked
My mother died today. Her medical history is comically unlucky. She had 3 major cancers (lungs, kidney, urethra) all of which she fully recovered from, only to get one so rare only 7k cases exist in France- with 1k only manifesting in people under 60, like her. 4 cancers,
in the span of about 5 years. It makes you wonder what the Hell she did to deserve all this- I don't believe in God, but those who do may think that's a sign she was meant to die regardless. It just wasn't meant to be or something.
It's been a rough few years for me and my family. The constant ups and downs, the constant hospital visits, her throwing up, her pain and depression, and the slow decline of her body, until she became unrecognizable. At her 3rd cancer, my mom had had enough. She wanted to die.
also should mention that tbh it's better like this. She wasn't living a good life anymore and wanted to die..At least since she was in a coma near the end, she died without pain. I'm just happy it's over and I'm happy she was ever my mother at all. Anyways good night now
But she was born strong and resistant, so against all odds, she healed again. The doctors said it was miraculous, but all she did was catch a fourth one and die regardless. Even though it's been 5 years, even though her odds became worse each time, it was still unexpected.
if I said more. I wanted to be strong for her. I wanted to smile and tell her I'd be okay even without a mama. I didn't want her to worry for me anymore than she needed to. I'm not strong at all though. I'm crying so hard and I don't want her to be dead
I feel robbed of a mother. I always told myself I'd get a good job and lots of money when I grow up so I could buy my mom anything she wanted. My mom has suffered a lot, and I always clung onto the hope that one day, I would manage to make it all better, that we'd forget it all
I'm 17. The beginning of my childhood was spent despising both my parents for always yelling at each other. We had drugs and money related problems, and my mom was too busy with those to pay attention to me. And then, the moment it finally gets better, she gets cancer.
so that's what I talked about. We told each other I love you, and it felt like a goodbye. I didn't know this would be our last conversation together. I should've told her more back then, but the words caught in my throat, and I knew I'd cry
Just last week, I could still communicate with her normally; aside from the pain and the slight morphine induced delirium, she was still alive. And then suddenly, in one week, she lost her ability to communicate at all, and four days later she was gone.
We had a phone call just a week ago, before the doctors decided she was better off sedated until death. She spoke urgently, like in a hurry, and asked me to speak to her. So I spoke to her. Anything that crossed my mind- I was playing Don't Starve at the time
I love my mom so much and she was the most amazing woman I ever met. I wish I could've loved her more before she left. I wish I wasn't so immature and didn't constantly run away from her because I'd rather ignore it until it went away than watch her be in pain
that's never going to happen now and I just have to accept that.
I'll be okay guys, but I'm just so tired of feeling alone with this. Yeah I'm breaking my mysterious internet persona but my world is too bleak right now to care. Take this vent and go to Hell with it
anyways...guys. Life sucks. Your loved ones will die regardless. But that's okay because now I get to say "I can't, my mom's dead" every time I don't feel like doing something and it's my joker for the next 6 months. It's what she would've wanted me to do :3
This is really sad because tonight I'm really sad. But just writing this out made me feel a little better. I'll make a happy post about my mom later so that the last trace of her on the internet isn't this sob story, but something as fun and as beautiful as she was.
I'm feeling way better already, at least I stopped crying. I love my mom a lot no matter what or where she is 🩷 might delete this later though blergh this is worse than doxxing yourself
@buhlake04
Not embarrassing if it worked!! I was in middle school walking around with a stick pretending I was frisk Undertale, these other kids wish they had half as much fun as I did put there
Tbh his backstory is probably that someone in middle school called him gay and the whole class laughed and since his parents didn't own guns he instead vowed to ruin the life of other gay people
Just finished reading this. It was ass ! Not comically bad but far from good. This is y'all's peak?
Will write more thoughts below later but yeah, very disappointed.
Lesson learned: never believe the hype
@cuteblkgrl
why are people acting like you said "you need to be able to listen to me cry 24/7" you just said in general you can't be close friends with people who won't help you out w your problems and everyone got in their feels abt it, Twitter is exhausting
@AustinDahu
Yeah she's really cool, she knows because its the only video games I talk about since 2020. She doesn't know their names but she knows I really like "the red one" bwahaha
Thank you for all your support. I'm overwhelmed with thoughtful messages and I'm happy that some found comfort in relating to my experience. I wish to answer you all but it's just a lot right now, regardless know I appreciate with all my heart 🩷🩷🩷
My mother died today. Her medical history is comically unlucky. She had 3 major cancers (lungs, kidney, urethra) all of which she fully recovered from, only to get one so rare only 7k cases exist in France- with 1k only manifesting in people under 60, like her. 4 cancers,
Worst results ever aside, it's so fucking funny how this image has everyone looking cool as hell with a new render/doing a nice pose with their hands, and then it's just. klavierstanding.jpeg
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@dollieganger
This genuinely depresses me bc I dislike seeing characters I really like get dumbed down as "femcels" (shit doesnt even exist) by people who aren't even interested in the game beyond it's aesthetic. Ame is so far away from being a femcel and much more than that
@lynchiandoll
Girl currently on her phone who spent 2 hours putting on makeup to look good making tiktoks makes fun of others for spending too much time on their phone and caring about their looks
Visual Novel fans can't win.
You tell a reader you're a reader, they'll say "no, you're a gamer!"
You tell a gamer you're a gamer and they'll say "no, you're a reader!"
Both think you're retarded.
You can't win this.
After finishing episode 5, I really wanted to draw Satoko and Shion happy together, so here they are taking a nap together.
I tried something with the lightning.. you know, light through tree leaves? Its late so I rushed a little bit, but I think the result is decent enough haha
Beach day ! Satoko refused to put on sunscreen and burned as a result. Rena's head exploded. The wind blew away Shion's pareo. Everyone almost drowned. It was a good day !
Will never forget that 40 yrs old schizo woman who grabbed me as I was omw to school to say that I was different from the other sheeples my age for wearing colorful clothing and who then proceeded to spend 10 minutes accusing the Jews of making my generation retarded
IM NEVER COMFORTING ANYONE AGAIN.
got a message from my friend saying "i cant breathe" thought the bitch was crying so I send 5 paragraphs trying to reassure her, tell me why this girl texted back "oh no, I wasn't crying just deepthroating" HELLOOOOOOOOO??????!! NEVER AGAIN.
@mildlyaware
draw mion in a Minecraft hoodie (preferably creeper)
draw shion in a Minecraft hoodie (preferably a slime, minecraft steve, or zombie).
Maybe Shion looks annoyed while Mion is all for it.
Maybe Satoshi blushing or Keiichi laughing. Tomitake taking a picture.
Quick drawing note, I drew Wendy bc her character always touched me even before I shared her grief. Now I feel for her even more
again thank you all for caring, friends and strangers alike. Being able to share my burden with so many makes it feel lighter. Take care everyone
@mrnastynodrama
I can understand disliking/being weirded out by the graphic design and "thirsty for the talk" catchphrase, but overall it's a non-issue. Your teenager who's been watching porn ever since middle school will be fine seeing this.
If the creator doesn't like it, people should respect it, but saying every author finds it disrespectful when that's the furthest from the truth- and acting like the author was justified in being this disrespectful to a well-meaning fan is crazy levels of dick sucking
I don’t think people who color manga realize that 99.9% of manga creators actually hate it and consider it super disrespectful (which it is!)
And now annoying ppl are harassing this mangaka for being “mean and unfair”, please stop being so embarrassing
NO FUCKING WAY!!!! AFTER MONTHS OF LIVING AS A FRAUD, NOT KNOWING WHO TO OWE MY USERNAME TO, I FINALLY FOUND THEM AGAIN...I FOUND THR TWEET THAT BIRTHED ME.. WITHOUT CHUCK IT CANT BE SNEED...I FOUND YOU....THANK YOU...THANK YOU FOR CREATING ME!!
@feligamiyuri
Yeah, they think it's more feminist or some shit ig everytime I see posts about yaoi/yuri rivalry it just sounds like kindergarten "boys vs girls!!!!" arguing to my ears