It’s happening!!!
We got stuck at my parents’ house for over two years.
The plan was to stay for 2 months max but I lost my job and started falling back into the darkness of depression.
A lot happened during this time…
Now I have a job with a contract until the end of the
I'm 43 and I have no friends.
It's not that I chose not to have friends.
I tried to fit in, but somehow I was always the one standing out.
And I really didn't have friends for real, just people who knew me and I knew them and we were in contact because of where we lived,
If you sent me a DM or posted a comment hoping I'd reply, I apologize for not answering but what's been going on since yesterday is mind-blowing. 🤯
When I posted it, I had this little voice telling me that I'd get a few comments to stop crying in public and get my shit
I'm 43 and I have no friends.
It's not that I chose not to have friends.
I tried to fit in, but somehow I was always the one standing out.
And I really didn't have friends for real, just people who knew me and I knew them and we were in contact because of where we lived,
My coming out "no friends" post has 4.4M views...
I was expecting that maybe a few supportive indie makers would leave some comments, a bunch more likes, maybe a few new people would show up and that's it.
In my wildest dreams, I hadn't expected these numbers of views,
I'm 43 and I have no friends.
It's not that I chose not to have friends.
I tried to fit in, but somehow I was always the one standing out.
And I really didn't have friends for real, just people who knew me and I knew them and we were in contact because of where we lived,
Hi, I'm Szymon and for the last 9 years, I've been recovering from burnout, depression and debts.
I turned huge online success into years of struggle and dragging the burden of my wrong decisions every day.
But I realized that I have to prioritize getting out of debt as it's
This is a very embarrassing fact about me.
I’m turning 44 soon and my wife and I, along with our two kids are living in two rooms with a tiny bathroom at my parents' house. We moved in with the intention of staying for just up to two months but financial struggles turned it into
I wanted to keep it private, just my own experience I'll hold in my heart forever but I just can't.
Something tells me that there's someone who needs to read this.
Cynical people will comment I'm doing this for self-promotion, they know better about everything, so I'll let them
Day 9: indie hacking until debt-free
📊 Numbers:
• 💰 Debt: $42,903 (•$0)
• 💼 Active projects: 1
• 𝕏 Followers: 11,144 (↑7,113)
• 📧 Newsletter subs: 235 (↑134)
Craziest ride of my life... so far!
I thought that being hit by a car or having a near-death accident on a
Just accepted a new job offer. What a relief!!!! 🫠
You have no idea how stressed I was the past few days.
Do you remember how a month ago I posted that I was rejected after an interview? I was hoping to get back into the wind industry after I lost my remote job at the end of
@levelsio
You're talking about an answer to the bullshit we sell ourselves and then try to sell to other people. And this is what I'm missing out on. Someone reaching out, I say this pretty story and then it is crushed by brutally honest feedback.
@KrissBergTweets
Thanks, Kriss. I read the first few points and it's not the case for me. I don't have people I've met so far that I'd like to stay in contact with. I don't smoke, I don't drink, I don't send kids to school, I don't work until retirement, I don't watch news and the list goes on.
I don't know if Twitter is ready for this kind of real, not sugarcoated life posts... but "fake it till you make it" almost killed me, so I can only be my authentic self with you!
This is me crying this morning... 43 year old guy going through the hell of failing as an online
Hi, I'm Szymon 👋 I used to be a video creator who turned big success into big failure and now wants to get back to my indie hacking roots.
I've decided to document each step of trying to grow Nifty Mac Apps from 0 to 100K visitors.
I don't have a strict plan, and I'm afraid
I'm 43.
Today I got an official ADHD diagnosis.
It's a relief helping me to connect all the dots but at the same time it's shocking how I could live all those years without knowing it.
My entire life I was building systems on how to function on a daily basis, some worked
Day 2: indie hacking until debt-free
From 165M+ YouTube views to burnout, now rebuilding in public. Tracking my journey from $43k debt to freedom through indie hacking. Join my daily adventure of learning to build with code, growth and not giving up.
📊 Numbers:
• 💰 Debt:
Yesterday, I was rejected from the job I hoped would fix my situation.
Today, I failed to finish my product on time.
It seems that I haven't yet hit rock bottom in my life... so I'm adding a publicly made lost bet with myself to the collection.
However, I refuse to give up and
Perfectionism is a terrible condition!
To rediscover the joy of creating and stop feeling like I’m navigating a minefield, I’m starting this challenge to beat that crap out of me.
Now the question is, are you on Team Wishing Me Luck ✨ or Team Eager for That $100 💸?? 😂
Day 8: indie hacking until debt-free
📊 Numbers:
• 💰 Debt: $42,903 (↓$97)
• 💼 Active projects: 1
• 𝕏 Followers: 3832 (↑660)
• 📧 Newsletter subs: 101 (↑20)
Today I felt like my body didn't have enough power to keep holding the tension I've been in for the past week.
Hi, I'm Szymon and I'm going through a terrible crisis in my life but I refuse to give up. I'm failing and getting up again and again because I have a dream to live a life free from financial and childhood trauma struggles.
The idea I have might sound crazy or silly to many, but
The post is closer to 5M views now and the amount of messages is growing all the time.
I need to brainstorm ideas. Some suggested making a community for people seeking friends.
I don't have a clear idea what it could be to make it a safe, supportive place.
Any thoughts?
My coming out "no friends" post has 4.4M views...
I was expecting that maybe a few supportive indie makers would leave some comments, a bunch more likes, maybe a few new people would show up and that's it.
In my wildest dreams, I hadn't expected these numbers of views,
Just deleted my Hetzner server prepared for Coolify...
After 10 hours figuring out Docker and other things around the local environment...
I asked myself: what am I doing? Trying to save relatively small money but having more on my mind!
Instantly decided to pay for Laravel
I had an audience counted in millions, and I lost it all. I want to launch my blog to share radically honest insights on how it is to re-build in public. So, my question is:
Build a blog from scratch?
or
Build from a template?
Day 12: Indie Hacking Until Debt-Free
📊 Numbers:
• 💰 Debt: $42,903 (•$0)
• 💼 Active projects: 2 (↑1)
• 𝕏 Followers: 12,762 (↓9)
• 📧 Newsletter subs: 293 (↑7)
Hi 𝕏 friends,
I'm happy to announce that I got the domain FriendshipBoard .com and started working on a
Perfectionism is a terrible condition!
To rediscover the joy of creating and stop feeling like I’m navigating a minefield, I’m starting this challenge to beat that crap out of me.
Now the question is, are you on Team Wishing Me Luck ✨ or Team Eager for That $100 💸?? 😂
You asked for more positive posts...
Here you go:
“I love riding my bike, daddy!”
- my little girl who, thanks to the effort of my amazing wife, learned to ride a bicycle all on her own yesterday 🥹
Yes, and it was working well with one person who had the potential for a mutual friendship but I encountered one problem...
...not from my perspective but from the mainstream world.
I enjoy my health and the idea of poisoning my body doesn't feel appealing to me.
So if someone
@screenfluent
“No one tries to contact me unexpectedly, asking how I am doing, how I really feel or what's going on in my life for real.” Do you do that for others?
I feel the pain of abandonment right now.
How ironic it is...
Hundreds want to talk with me, but one doesn't and my whole world is focusing only on this experience.
But that's fine.
Pain is a blessing.
If you choose to listen to its message.
I choose to listen.
I open my
Good news - I finally got approved! 🎉
Bad news - they waited until views completely dropped.
I have no idea how much someone like me can earn from this, but if you care about a silly dude trying to rebuild his life last 9 years, you can help free by commenting under my posts.
If I stay in Poland, I have 35 years of life left and will die at 78.
Moving to Spain would give me an extra 6 years of life.
• Portugal: 82
• France: 83
• Italy: 83
• Sweden: 83
Where should I move? But please, no Hungary as I will die at 76! 😅
What do you use for managing your tasks? Todoist, Apple Reminders, Things, Notion... or something else?
I use something different - an analog task manager inspired by an old video from
@levelsio
with my own invention added to get maximum satisfaction when I accomplish something.
@levelsio
Maybe that's the virus from the fake world I have in my mind. I was always the one giving real feedback and in return people were disappearing. So I have no idea how it actually works.
210 lines later, I have recreated it as my wallpaper, but while finishing it a question sparked in my mind:
how many people will actually understand what they see? 🤔
Breakthrough is real!
No scrolling through feed
No notifications
No messages
No cheap online entertainment
Just me, unplugged with my family around.
I can’t believe how lost I’ve been my entire life, carrying so much pain that I couldn’t see anyone or anything beyond it.
After trying Roam, Obsidian, Logseq, Notion and Tana, I learned it's better to use a small fraction of the available possibilities on a daily basis, rather than aiming for a perfect setup at the start and ultimately failing due to the subconscious pain and friction it generates.
My account is growing like bamboo! 🎋😊
I wanted to give a warm welcome to all new followers, and for the first time in my life, post an Ask Me Anything.
Here are some highlights from my life:
1️⃣9️⃣9️⃣7️⃣ - Got an internet connection at home
1️⃣9️⃣9️⃣8️⃣ - Built my first website
Day 3: indie hacking until debt-free
From 165M+ YouTube views to burnout, now rebuilding in public. Tracking my journey from $43k debt to freedom through indie hacking. Join my daily adventure of learning to build with code, growth and not giving up.
📊 Numbers:
• 💰 Debt:
I'm turning 44 this year, and in my 8th month of
@crossfit
I just hit a new PR in Sumo Deadlifts: 110 kg/242 lb 🏋️♂️
My entire life I had this excuse, that I need to sort out my finances first and then I will start working out. But I finally realized that it's not going to happen
That's the book I couldn't put down when I read it for the first time a few months ago.
Changed my approach to everyday life challenges.
I feel it's a good time to read it again and dive into the state of being surrendered and grateful for what the universe is giving me.
Last
Just had my second coffee and something hit me...
I think I'm a broken model. My projects? They never go straight from A to B. It's always like I have to go through the whole alphabet to get something done! 🥵
Build in Public friends, do you also struggle because you want
23 years ago, I connected to the internet for the first time. The second most important event in my life is happening right now! I discovered
@RoamResearch
and it is slowly becoming a permanent part of my digital life.
#roamcult
I don't know if it's because of capitalism, social media or what...
Sometimes when I'm reading some comments, I have a feeling that some people think that burnout, depression or debts are a list of features behind a brand called Szymon Rączka.
This is the essence of my life,
@Brainflux117
Hahaha I'm loving the collective creativity I'm experiencing through comments like that. You're bringing me fresh thoughts I wouldn't think about by myself. That's a good one! LOL 🤣
It's crazy I had to let 2 years of my life pass, living at my parents' house, go from "not a big deal" to "I'm not gonna survive this" for the pain to grow so high that I finally started the real change...
This is a magical day!
Today was my first day of my new job after 8 months of being unemployed. It's a huge life change for me and my family!
But at the same time, in complete surprising synchronicity, I hit the mark of 365 days streak on
@wip
today!
I can't believe all of
@dbxdigital
I remember sitting with my friend, chanting a mantra while waiting for a game to load to overcome an error: "it has to load, it has to load..." 😂
can't start?! read this:
The most dangerous way we sabotage ourselves is by waiting for the perfect moment to begin.
Nothing works perfectly the first time, or the first fifty times.
Everything has a learning curve.
The beginning is just that – a beginning.
Surrender your
Just got my first weekly payout in the bank 🙏
It's my first time ever receiving a paycheck every week!
It's so much better for my mental health knowing that every Friday I will get paid. Even though I'd prefer to be an indie hacker again, it's much easier to work for a
I went to clear my mind on a 10 km bike ride and just came back to be shocked... 😳
1. I suddenly got 2,000 companions on my journey...
2. Some generous stranger from the Internet bought me 100 coffees!!!
What a day! I am speechless...
Say hello to Manuela! 🥰
Past months she had no idea about my posts over here. I just asked her to take pictures of me.
She never asked, I never told and it was like that until I felt that I wish I had some friend who I could share my struggle building my own things online.
It
Hello new world!
✌🏻🫶🏻
I set up X mainly to see in real time how Szymon
@screenfluent
is doing here after his amazing personal post…but as I am all about exploring and experimenting with new, who knows how it turns out for me 💥☺️
Today marks the 300th day of my everyday todos posting on
@wip
Am I happy or proud? Nope... I actually feel like crap.
Most of them are just morning walks, meditation, breathwork or CrossFit. Those related to my project are missing. The crisis I'm going through is paralyzing
Exactly 20 years ago, the toughest hours of my life began...
I wasn’t thinking about if I would die, just how.
Would it be an avalanche? A fall into the abyss? Or freezing to death?
But first, let me tell you how I ended up in this situation. The short answer: big internet
Inspired by BuildInPublic, I'm starting WalkInPublic - a daily practice for feeling better and thinking clearer.
How it works:
1️⃣ Take your morning walk
2️⃣ Take a pic
3️⃣ Repost this with your photo
Sharing format:
"Morning walk (streak: X)
[Your location or insight]"
Why join?
Devs, which IDE is your favorite for coding out of these?
1 : VSCode
2 : IntelliJ
3 : Notepad++
4 : Sublime
5 : Vim
6 : NeoVim
7 : Visual Studio
Did I miss anything? 🤔
Since 2009, when my wife Manuela and I have been together, she’s basically worked as my personal cleaner.
We never planned for it to be that way.
Neither of us wanted it, but I just followed this subconscious patriarchal pattern that men should bring money, and women should
My entire life, I struggled with the "not being good enough" virus in my mind.
For the first time in 43 years, I made contact with that malicious software this year.
All birthdays, all big wins, all small wins – you’re not good enough, so you don’t deserve celebration.
In
I don't know about you, but my main problem is not knowing how to improve my life, but rather forgetting about the ideas I come up with. To overcome this, I've designed a workflow in my journal to track my thoughts when they occur and keep them in front of my eyes.
@tana_inc
Following my gut feelings to stop investing in temporary solutions like WordPress, and lay the foundations of PHP to dive into Laravel.
I tried to follow the hype around modern javascript frameworks everyone was talking about but as someone skilled only in design I was
Building own project without steady income is tough, so I started freelancing on Upwork yesterday.
So far? Landed 4 jobs and made $105.
How did I do it?
1. Thursday evening joined a "Make $500 on Upwork by Monday" session with
@SeanODowd15
in
@dvassallo
's Small Bets community.
It's been 9 years since my body broke down and I started to sink into the depths of burnout.
My business collapsed, I had to let employees go, I had energy barely to breathe and lay down all day long.
During this time from summer 2015, my depressive states were hitting me from
The reality of my life, which I think you should know about, is that on September 25th 2015, I started my medical treatments to recover from the horrible state I ended up in while trying to save my online business. It involved weekly sessions for a year and cost a fortune. So, on
Very interesting thread
Nice guy
@screenfluent
is TOO nice to ask for money when people want to buy his products
Very common psychology with new entrepreneurs
Day 5: indie hacking until debt-free
📊 Numbers:
• 💰 Debt: $43,000 (•$0)
• 💼 Active projects: 1
• 𝕏 Followers: 3,145 (↓2)
• 📧 Newsletter subs: 80 (↑1)
💡Today's eureka moment:
I realized I'm burning precious time investing in the wrong place. I don't need to be an
Ok, the idea is validated and 140+ people left their info on the Friendship Google sheet! 🎉
Let's take it one step further and choose the official name before I move to a better solution than the sheet.
I came up with OpenFriends name myself but it turned out that some dating
Inspired by BuildInPublic, I'm starting WalkInPublic - a daily practice for feeling better and thinking clearer.
How it works:
1️⃣ Take your morning walk
2️⃣ Take a pic
3️⃣ Repost this with your photo
Sharing format:
"Morning walk (streak: X)
[Your location or insight]"
Why join?
@levelsio
@marckohlbrugge
Selling opens up all these insecurities that have been holding me back for months. Questions will pile up... What price? What to include? When is it ready to sell? Is it good enough to sell? What if I could sell more but the price was wrong? This is the nightmare of my situation