It’s heeeeeere!!!! Wrote this novel (and two sequels) during the first year I lost the ability to eat. ANE cosmos meets Tolkien—meets all the characters and stories in my head.
Unfortunately I won’t be going home today. That was hard news, but the harpist brought the chaplain in to see me and I had a good cry with her, then we all sang hymns to the harp. Talked about how God knitted together my body, fearfully and wonderfully, knitting in this disease.
IM GOING HOME TODAY!
The right balance of meds and things have got me swallowing enough food and water to go home! With a set of guidelines for when to come back, I’m free to recover with my family. I couldn’t be more excited!!! My doctor was literally beaming when he told me 😃
Asking for prayer. All the while that I was hospitalized, my beloved nephew was too. He still is. I finally got to see him last night and do a prayer service from BCP with my husband, brother and his wife. Their son is not well and I won’t say any more than that. Please pray
Back in the hospital for a little while. We are having to come to terms with the fact that a liquid diet just isn’t working. I might have to stop relying on my GI tract for my main sustenance. We are pursuing an IV port for my nutrition. I’d love prayer for my family. ♥️
I’m going home!!!!!!
This pic is from yesterday. I only got to see my kids for a few mins before I fell asleep. Now I get to go home and get as many cuddles as I want!!
Thank you Lord!
Looked up while sitting in my prayerea and saw Jesus holding communion over me, with his angels guarding me. Moments like these I remember what’s keeping me alive. It’s not “by bread alone” that keeps me alive in a world where I can no longer eat solid food. It is his word.
Still here. Not sure when I’m going home at this rate. A lot of sobbing today… because I can’t find a way to drink anything without purging and pain.
There is a way through the maze; and I think my hope isn’t in solving it. It is in sitting in it—waiting for Christs rescue.
Back in hospital for a few days.
Lord help me learn new dependency and contentment in you as I discover just how satisfying you truly are.
I want to be home, but you are enough.
I want the pain taken away, but you are enough.
When I think I know what I need—you are enough.
It’s the paradox of our brokenness. This illness is part of the beauty in what Christ has for me. Just like the cross brought about our resurrection, this pain will bring about newness that could never have come if not for the trial.
Got a really special visitor in the hospital today. She plays songs and hymns for patients here.
This clip here was from Scarborough Fair. I wish I had caught her playing “Be Still My Soul” on vid, but I was too busy crying.
It’s been a hard week—but also so beautiful.
ET phone home!
Yeah back in hospital for a stroke scare. Don’t think it will be as long of a stay as last time. Would love prayer that I could go home today. I’m so ready to be home
Ok I had the best surprise visit EVER from
@garonnevik
who happened to be flying through seattle. Your compassionate presence and kind words were like water to my weary soul. Thank you for visiting, friend! The Lord be with you!
I’m on the floor with a lot of cancer patients, and even today there was a death next door. There’s a book spot where other patients go to find something to read. I told nurses I’m donating some signed FatCats to the floor and they are all excited and taking turns reading.
Just found a super old artwork I did (back before my iPad lol) for a class on Leviticus. The artwork portrayed the structure of the book of Leviticus in the form of a chiasm. It was super fun to come up with this one.
Well, it’s happening. I’m officially going to be a
@LexhamPress
author!
Stay tuned for a book about fasting, and allowing Jesus to fill the void made by our suffering.
A huge thank you to
@racheljwelcher
for being so supportive and helping make this happen!
Holy Saturday — a victorious day!
A portion of the second artwork I did this week, meditating on Christ’s death and resurrection. I based the descent to hell off the traditional iconography of Jesus rescuing Adam and Eve, married with the triumphant procession in psalm 68.
Ok this was too awesome not to share. We do morning and evening family prayer from BCP. Tonight the kids didn’t want to do it without me, so they FaceTimed and put me up on the screen. When we were all praying Lord’s Prayer section, a nurse walked in and said it with us. Wow.
📚 🐱 GIVEAWAY! 🐱 📚
I’m doing a giveaway of the new FatCat Ten Commandments! You’ll get a signed copy o’the book early (before 🎄!) along with “DoorCat” (made and painted by me). DoorCat can hide in ur 🏠, somewhere new each day! RT and following me each get you in!
My brother sent me this prayer today:
Heavenly Father, giver of life and health: Comfort and relieve your sick servant Tasha, and give your power of healing to those who minister to his needs, that she may be strengthened in her weakness; through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.
A spread from the King of Easter that just released yesterday. Peter sees his risen Lord!
Another book where characters join along each spread. By the end, I was drawing a lot of people 😂
Where’s FatCat?
Well—the verdict is in. Finally saw the esophageal specialist. I won’t eat again. Next is diagnosing the sinister life-threatening disease which haunts me.
And wow… suddenly it matters that the resurrection is in my future. Thank you Lord!!!
One thing that I think makes FatCat stand out amongst other children’s Jesus books? We have the cross (and resurrection) in every book. Here is where our salvation comes from! We don’t pull punches.
Every time I draw the cross, I’m moved differently.
I illustrated this during an ER trip for not being able to swallow. Little did I know that this very scene would be my constant comfort as I lost the ability to eat. Man does not live by bread alone—it is God’s word that keeps me alive. This will be forever one of my fav spreads.
If I can keep enough water down, I might be able to go home today! They said taking walks after I drink can help me not purge it. So I’m off! Pray this works and I go to be with my family today!!!
Kids came to see me to do Morning Prayer together. Man—I kind of love how they keep bringing Jesus to me! My own kids. Wow.
They also tried to fold themselves up into my hospital bed. And yes—they are all my jello
Got this nice frame I wanted for Christmas.
Was going to put in nice photo of me and husband…
And somehow I can’t seem to be able to bring myself to change out this stock photo…
Beginning concept on the newest FatCat book. I am ridiculously excited about this book.
Recent disease development has meant shaking and twitching hands. All this artwork feels like a gift. Every moment God gives me of steady hands makes art like this. What a gift.
Just turned in the final artwork for the FatCat baby board book. Once again I am smiling with pride at the realisation that every FatCat book has the Crucifixion and Resurrection illustrated, and that includes the baby book and Christmas book.
GOING HOME!
Looks like Isa is starting a tradition of always walking with me to the car after a hospital trip. I sure love my kiddos.
Well; we ruled out a stroke. Thank the Lord! Looks like migraines can cause an entire side of your body to go numb like that. Phew!
ET phone home!
Yeah back in hospital for a stroke scare. Don’t think it will be as long of a stay as last time. Would love prayer that I could go home today. I’m so ready to be home
Esophageal widening procedure was a success. I’m able to eat some avocado now! Man—seeing the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living! My life is avocados now. 🥑 life is so good!!!
Well! Here is the book I’ve been working on for
@LexhamPress
with
@_BenMyers_
and
@hains_todd
. It’s been so awesome be a part of something that I think will bless families all over the world.
Announcing our first children's book: The Apostles's Creed: For All God's Children written by Ben Myers, illustrated by Natasha Kennedy.
This full-color illustrated book inspires children to understand and delight in the Apostles' Creed.
Coming February 2022.
The harpist came to play for me again at hospital—she played music by O’Carolan: a blind harpist from long ago.
She had no idea that 1) I loved this song, or 2) my dad is blind.
His courage after losing his sight has been a huge inspiration In this time for me. This was special
2/4 kids visited today. And what a special time it was. They got to trick or treat from the nurses! That was special for everyone. It was hard not to go home with them… hopefully not too long now. Man, I hate being away from them.
Today my Aussie husband told me about that one time he and his family visited Sydney and went to a novelty American restaurant called “Outback Steakhouse”.
From my visit to the
@LexhamPress
office yesterday. It still feels so weird seeing my art in the faithlife building—when back in 2016 I toured the building thinking “it would be so cool to work here!”
I still can’t believe I got to do a FatCat book with
@hlsenkbeil
— I love your writing and pastor’s heart so much. It gives me so much joy to use artwork to bring the words in this book to children. I’m so excited for our book, Hal!!!!!
The Lord’s Prayer is coming!
Well right when I sent that last tweet, my dad and mom walked through the door. I hadn’t seen dad for ages, so I made him stay very close the whole time. No better place to cry than your father’s sleeve.
I can’t even begin to say how exciting it was to do this book with
@hlsenkbeil
! We pray this prayer every night with our kids—so it was such an honor to be able to illustrate these beautiful words with the life of Christ.
It releases on Wednesday!
This book is by far the most beautifully illustrated and theologically simple-but-sublime catechism for children in the English language. Buy it, buy it by the bundle and give them to every Christian family with small children you know.
@LexhamPress
@_BenMyers_
Me and my walking buddy “Potassio” going for a stroll. Making friends with all the staff, and getting the transport guys to name drinks after me at the local bar. I’d say it doesn’t get better than that for a hospital stay.
Home and happy to be home! After meeting with many doctors and trying various medications, we’ve made a good plan for nutrition so I won’t have to rely on IV.
Thankful to my awesome nursing team who served me this past week, but I feel a little bad about leaving them a “typo”.
I don’t know how I could fully describe it… but looking at the first prints of these for the first time while In the hospital was really special. The Lord’s Prayer has kept me alive and thriving while not eating for two months now. More on that later—but you guys… these r gold!
G tube coming out in a week? I didn’t think this day would come. It may be a lifelong disease; but who knew a liquid diet would be the best news of my life? My daughter (9) yesterday said “I prayed that Jesus would let you swallow again.” It may not be solids, but this is huge.
My daughter: Mama, I’m sorry I used your iPad without asking. I saw something so cute I had to take a video. You can delete it if you want to.
Then I find this:
When good friends come and bring you twinkle lights for your hospital room, suddenly a dim sterile room becomes a sanctuary—a safe haven and warm, delightful escape from the storm of the trial.
Still unable to swallow even water. But somehow, I feel so full. Full of contentment
Well—I wasn’t the first person to illustrate the Lord’s Prayer; the Apostles Creed; and the Ten Commandments. Heading back to Luther’s small catechism for some inspiration as I start on Ten Com!
You know your husband loves you when you tell him you’re coming home from hospital, and he sends you this.
And you know it’s a good marriage when you’re actually excited by the text.
FatCat book for babies? What do you put in that? It’s simple: Jesus’ birth, life, death, resurrection, and love for us his children—oh—and a whole lot of animals.
Thank you! It was so intimidating drawing this page first. I drew this with fear and trembling and tried to pull from as many bible passages as possible. We really wanted the trinity prominent on every “I believe” spread.
Lotta theology packed into the images alone on the first page of this catechism:
- God is first of all the Father
- the Father is known *only* in the Son
- Christ is the chief worshipper of the Father
Great work by
@_BenMyers_
and
@natashakennedu
I honestly can’t imagine the OG FatCat iPad going to a better or more suited artist. May God bless the art you make on it, and multiply your output because of it.
Within DAYS, my new friend
@natashakennedu
messaged me and said she’d seen my questions about digital art and that she had been trying to decide what to do with her old iPad. The one she created all the FatCat illustrations on for
@LexhamPress
! Hallowed art ground, I’d say…
Working on making some church calendars for our family and had inspiration for an “inner wheel” for the days of the week based on creation. This came out.
My first but def not my last post about “A Quiet Mind to Suffer With” book.
I can’t begin to say what this book has meant to me. As someone who has had to learn to deal with chronic pain and the suffering of not being able to eat anymore, this book is like an oasis. 👀4 this 📚
A friend died early this morning after battling Covid for weeks. It was not an easy end, and she was young and healthy.
Her last words to me were: “He [Jesus] has never failed us!” —right before she got Covid. To the end, she was praising God.
Be at peace now, friend.
@LynseyStepan
Thank you so much Lynsey! While he didn’t answer your prayer in the way I was expecting, I felt like he really met me by sending the chaplain. She spoke so deeply and tenderly into my situation. It was a true gift
Posts like this make me so happy. I’m back in hospital this week, and posts like this being me so much comfort. Even while I’m feeling completely empty here, my work is still out there, bringing beauty to my brothers and sisters in Christ.
Just got the new
@LexhamPress
FatCat “10 Commandments” book and it is FANTASTIC. Moving, beautiful artwork from
@natashakennedu
. Careful, erudite, and rich prose from
@hlsenkbeil
. Our family loves the FatCat books and this is the best one yet. Full review soon.
I might have to do two posts
#PortfolioDay
since I kind of have my feet in two different art worlds. Anyway, heres some artwork from working in Biblical children’s books.
I had such a great time With
@kelsiklembara
discussing biblical art, and my experience with being transformed by what I draw and ponder as we create the FatCat books.
I had the opportunity to chat with illustrator
@natashakennedu
for the latest episode of Outside Ourselves. I loved learning about her process for the FatCat book series (
@LexhamPress
) and her thoughts on why art is important for the church.
Several of the prayers from last night were really beautiful, but this one stood out the most. Thinking of my brother waking up every morning at hospital and having to go to work and bravely wait for news of his son as he goes about his day. “To do nothing gallantly”. Wow.
“Walking in the way of the cross”. What a beautiful and fitting collect this morning. Even in the darkest times, He is here. Where can I go from his presence?
He prepares a table for me in the presence of my enemies.
I was floored by this one the second I saw it. There were so many great submissions in this age group, but this one just called out to me. Well done Madeline! Very impressed!
@natashakennedu
WINNER 7-12 YEARS OLD: Madeline N.
@natashakennedu
: “The colors are astounding! Remarkable shading on the faces and scenery, and I love the attention to detail and diversity amongst the people. I could not have done better myself. Look at that sunset sky!”
There’s so many cool things about working on the Illustrations for the Lord’s Prayer children’s book—but one of the best is having my kids watching me draw then asking for “Jesus drawing lessons”. I couldn’t be more proud.
Well, off to say goodbye to this fellow. This g tube saved my life, but then also made it much much worse. I have very mixed feelings about it. But thank you for your service g tube; now it is time for you to go.
I was so excited to see the proof copy of the FatCat Ten Com book—tried to take some pics and Tiny kept photobombing lol. Then I realized I had finally featured her (and her awesome eye deformity) on the “Amen” spread of the book. (See final picture)
She’s honestly the best cat
Every year, this movie gets funnier. Every year our kids get older, it’s funnier to them.
Every year I’m a parent, it’s funnier to me.
And every year
@ljkennedy_
works in publishing, it’s funnier to him.