how often do u guys brush ur teeth… ive finally been brushing my teeth at least once a day consistently for a few months and im super proud of myself lol being in an abusive housebold for the fiest 16 years of my life really took a toll
just blocked one of my favorite moots because they posted that “do x or else youll gain weight” thing and i have severe ocd and am freaking out over it now :,,,)
@daintypetalsx
hi my name is kellan and when i was 14 my dad found out i od’d and had been self harming and when i told them i od’d (after throwing up/fainting all night) my dad screamed at me for 2 hours and told me “real suicidal people make sure it isnt an “attempt”” i brought sour patch!
i had a bodycheck go viral a few years ago and everyone was making fun of my body and people still talk about it sometimes and i just saw something on the tl about it again and i am violently self destructive i am actually crying
@ellasmith51720
my toxic trait is that i think i can do this because i regularly walk 20k steps but also know i can barwly do 2 minutes on the stair master
one of my patients has been here for almost a year now and the entire time hes been on his deathbed and he has literally been living off strictly popeyes chicken that his son brings him every other week. dude barely knows where he is half the time but he knows about chicken
lore drop
ive been hospitalized 5x for my mental health, 1x of them being for ed treatment
my last time i went was a serious suicide attempt and i was sent to residential for a year 👍 heres to 4 years without any suicidal ideation ♥️
@MereVenus
im not arguing with u cuz most of the time when i read “high res” i know people mean high intake howerver i always understand it to be “high restriction”. nonetheless usually u can tell by the context of tweets and in the end it doesnt matter what way u use it
seeing your guys’ “fuck my ed tweets idgaf” and then waiting for inevitable “damn igaf” tweets a few hours later 😭 ah the disorder has disordered once again
my dad ripped up his sleeves and told me to cut him if i really wanted to destroy someones body that bad. told me he’d go get a razor for me go do it right now and kept pushing his arms in my face
just witnessed an awkward first date at a ramen place between these 30-somethings where the guy was talking about how he played Lego Fortnite all day and had so much fun, and the girl was like "uhhh that's a children's game" and they ate in complete silence afterwards
hi im kellan ! 🍂
° been on edtwt for a few yrs
° relapsing
° he/him
° 20yrs
° diagnose osfed/bulimia
° i dont interact with sh or drugtwt or minors
° active
° 🍉
yall my friends and i were out late last night and everyone wanted taco bell n when i said i didnt want anything my friend looked me dead in the eyes and said “have you even eaten today?” and definitely knew that i lied to him with how i stuttered because u dead-eyed me 😁
cute things i see commonly in dementia patients:
offer you food whenever they eat
repeatedly tell you their happy memories
get angry at u then gossip TO you about being angry about u as if youre another person
call you their childrens names or “son” or “daughter”
verge of tears remembering my partner getting kicked out when they were 17 because we told their mom we were together (and queer) and threatened her and me. we were kids dude we didnt deserve that, especially my partner
im glad to be on edtwt in my adult age rather than when i was a minor bc all of them saying that anything over 800 cals isnt restricting is CRAZYYYY when youre an adult with a life and a job lmfao me and all my moots are eating 1,000+ just to fucking work our jobs
“youre going to have to take thag medication (testosterone) for the rest of you life”
yeah and youre going to have to take blood pressure meds for the rest of your life if youre going to get upset with every trans individual u see on the street
@Kimmygotsh0t
me too!!! the shower is the best place for me because the stimulation of getting toothpaste on my hands… but in the show r i dont have to worry about it
i feel like a terrible person everytime im talking to a moot whos first language is not english like why didnt i start learning another language when i was 5 so i could have been prepared for this moment to speak to you in your common tongue instead of mine
on this same subject I work in a hospital and ive seen my fair share of adults come in here who have died or almost died from an eating disorder. they just dont go away when you turn 18. its a disorder not a hobby
some of y’all bullying older ppl for being on edtwt not knowing that you are literally going to be in the same stage as us still stuck here unless you recover
good things that have happened lately to remind myself life isnt so cruel:
i finally caught the pokemon ive been wanting!
i got a new couch and lamp
fair foods
seeing my family a lot (moms baby is due in 10wks!)
found out cbd helps my anxiety
so many of my moots are trying recovery im so so prpud of you all of you i promise i see your effort. dont let this terrible disease steal any more of your life. you deserve to make good memories and spend time with the people you love.
I feel like we need to put a teaching video up for people who say this harmful fucking shit and handcuff them to the chair until they relearn basic common decency and respect
hate being a junkorexic but all i want to do is binge on sweets when i eat healthy even though i feel and LOOK better when im eating healthy :( the binge urges are so fucking bad if im not constantly eating sugar fml
they moved me to sit with a suicidal patient with active suicidal ideation and when i came in he said “im ordering some dinner, would you like anything?” its always those people who care the most for others who are struggling the most :(
why does everytime i bring up sexual health with my hormone doctor shes like TRY THIS MOISTURIZER FOR DRYNESS!! omgg girl how many times do i have to tell you i dont have that i have the OPPOSITE
ok but have u ever lived around someone with an ed? like an “almond mom” ? is that not the exact same thing? your mom gave you the ed… it literally effected u just the same yk??