Ed moment: me leaving the dinner table with literally a whole plate of rice and shrimp up my sleeves (i had like 2 bites to avoid suspicion and just shoved the rest up my sleeves)
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When going to restaurants, my family often put their unfinished food on my plate and told me to finish it, even if I had said I was full and couldn't eat anymore; I was treated like a trashcan.
Overweight
At this time, I was 12-13. I was treated differently than my peers; I was sexualized, especially since I looked older; people often fat-shamed me under their breath.
Overweight
My mother told me to stop eating so much, and that I was wasting the best years of my life eating all the time and being fat. This was true but it hurt.
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I recognized some sort of bias my classmates had towards me about my eating behaviors: always being offered food people didn’t want to finish, being told “Of course you’re eating” every time I ate in public.
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I have an older sister: when going to events, people always assumed I was the older sister, because I was bigger. I was envious of my sister, and this made me feel terrible.
Normal Weight (pre-relapse)
I no longer received as much sexual harassment from my peers and people older than me. More people wanted to be my friend, and more people wanted to talk to me. I notice that their was no comments around food, although my mothers still persisted.
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My mother’s favorite thing to to was compare me to my sister. My sister told me that I should ignore her, and she was projecting.
This marks the start of my eating disorder.
Normal Weight (pre-relapse)
I also received compliments from people, especially those who noticed my change in weight. I would wear the most bland fits, jeans and a t-shirt, and I would be told it was a nice fit.
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Everytime I carried something heavy, I was always offered help. When people saw me not eating in the cafeteria, people offered me food out of concern.
Normal Weight (pre-relapse)
I was pretty close to underweight at this time, so I was a bit thin.
My mother complimented my body and how thin I looked, telling me I finnally looked beautiful.
Normal Weight (pre-relapse)
With my mother, the treatment I received from her didn’t change; my mother still shamed me for “eating too much” even thought I was barely eating; she fat shamed me and projected her weight insecurity onto me.
Normal Weight (pre-relapse)
I was treated like a normal person. I felt some-what comfortable around my family; people often assumed I was my sister (we are about a year apart) and got us mixed up. I no longer felt as envious of my sister.
I eventually recovered for myself.
My mother told me that I was finnally looking better, but when I became normal weight again, she fatshamed and I relapsed.
(Slightly) Underweight
I was never offered food out of pure concern before, especially when I was normal weight. My hair also started falling out at this time.
Normal Weight (pre-relapse)
This was a bit triggering for me, since it was easy to tell us apart due to the differences in our weights. I still wanted to be smaller than her.
Warning: Although this may feel like I am trauma-dumping, I am just sharing my experience at different weights, so don't be afraid to use this as motivation.
@SarcasticCatBoy
Also why are they acting like transmen/transmasc people dont deal with misogyny. Theyve been a woman for long enough. people arent trans when they come out of the womb☠️☠️☠️
@7shikoa
I feel like people using these slang terms for self harm is extremely toxic. using terms like “doesnt hurt” and “stings a little” is a like tenfold worse than beans, styro, ex. Its invalidating sh by depth and promoting some weird pro sh culture thats not even descreet.
@hyvnesangel
This is rlly weird. I think you need to stop posting even slightl suggestive pictures of urself, or even posting any pictures of ur body at all u should rlly avoid, bc there are creeps on here. Its not ur fault, just be safe.
Prolifers will literally dehumanize anything except for a fetus. Fym "tried to claim it was rape" and denied her reproductive health. That's a funny way to say you medically neglected your daughter