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Wearing a suit in London. Struggling with #Addiction + #MentalHealth . #RecoveryPosse #ADHD #CPTSD #Bipolar #AA - Recovery Account Only
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I've survived 2 days on my own at home, alcohol free. This for me is a bit of a miracle. I've found strength through the
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. There is nothing in the fridge and I'm scared of going to the supermarket to get some dinner tonight, the shop is part of the ritual for me.
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@panthergirlrx
Today has been extremely hard for me too, in fact, all week. Please hang in there, tomorrow morning you will be very proud of yourself, and so will we. Try and shut down or distract those voices, as hard as it can be to do.
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Sober, and out with my eldest. Normally I’d have blacked out by now. I really want to drink as everyone here is drinking but this moment reminds me it’s worth being sober and being with my boy. I’ve lost too much time already.
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@L_Villandry
Very true, I often feel timid to share about my recovery as it hasn’t been “the way”. I have got to do what works for me, and although I don’t have a long run, I have the most amount of sober days in the last 6 months than I have had in total in the last 20 years combined.
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I’m over the park crying. My mother doesn’t know her own birthday. She’s been diagnosed with dementia a few days ago. Sorry, need to vent this. I need to let it out.
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I wanted to thank
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Throw back Thursday… I’ve been thinking today of how bad I was. This is a reminder of how far I have come in such a short period of time. I’m winning at life right now and that person in the picture is not me anymore.
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It's Friday, the day that scares me the most since my last relapse. Praying for strength today. Fighting the daemons hourly. Wishing everyone a happy Friday.
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@livmattock
Liv, you need to go to hospital. At least go to inspire and get on the rehab waiting list. Rehab isnt the answer, I’ve been there twice, but you need the journey. Please!
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3 weeks without a drink. 12 6k runs completed, and 12 pounds lost. My depression has gradually ramped up and I’ve been struggling hard with the addiction to counter my emotions, but I’m hanging on in there. I will stay sober today.
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@livmattock
Every therapist I've ever seen, says I refuse to grow up and that deep down I am a frightened little boy. I do agree with that, but like it or not, to navigate this world I've had to be/play at being an adult to survive. I probably deserve an Oscar. I mask heavily.
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I failed. 7 weeks sober and I failed. I hate myself so much right now. I’m so hung over I just can’t even think straight. I’ve drank a bottle of whisky to feel better, this is just a never ending nightmare. I just don’t know how I get out of this.
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I love my mum so much, she doesn’t even know who I am.
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6 weeks of running and gym, and both in some days back in May (good effort, I'm old), and that 1.5st lost has gone straight back on with all the lapses since then 🫃 start again today. It's going to take me a while to get back up to speed, I wish I felt more positive about it 😂
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@livmattock
If I had a pound for every time I did something I regretted the next morning and had to hang my head, I’d have a few quid. Stay strong, use this as motivation to stay sober for today.
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Struggling with depression badly this evening. Mind in overdrive torturing me, analysing every bad choice I’ve made over the last few months. Alcohol would have closed these negatives down. Now I’m relying on just me and my brain 😔it’s gonna be a long night!
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@livmattock
I’m certainly not fooled by your posts when you are drunk, and you fib, as an alcoholic it’s all I’ve done for 15 years, I see through it fairly quickly, and it’s okay. Just keep trying, if you keep trying you will get there. It’s okay. ❤️
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@livmattock
@Tonymolini1
I’ve been stuck in this cycle too, many times. Although at the time there seems to be no way out, there is always a way. I was stuck in the loop last week, 72 hour whisky binge having been clean 2 months. I’ve been sober now since Friday. Today is 1000x better sober ❤️
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He won’t see this, but I love you my friend. I love you as a freind and I love you as someone wanting my country kept safe. Patriots are deemed racist in the UK, but I love the people keeping me safe.
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Struggling today. My mood is really low and all I can think about is suppressing those feelings with some kind of narcotic. That isn’t going to happen though, I’m staying strong as hard as it is. Started vaping again too :-(
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Tattoos. I have lots of my body covered, and want more. I’ve travelled Europe to go to the finest tattooists in the land. Even London now you can have tattoos in the office. Before Covid it was a big no. What your thoughts, tattoos, yes or no?
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Mass redundancies and today is the day a lot of friends will be leaving my place of work. I'm emotional and that has always meant suppression with substances. it's all I've known how. I need to manage these feelings and know that it's okay to feel like this. 😭
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@KavitaGooch
@davewales
@livmattock
I had to get it from the local drug program ran by CGL in Havering. You have to actively engage though or they’ll cut you off. I honestly believe I’d be jobless and homeless, maybe even dead if it wasn’t for Antabuse. Slowly trying to rebuild myself one day at a time ❤️
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First lunchtime run back after last week’s huge two day blowout off the back of nearly two months sober. Bad liver pain throughout and low energy, but it seems my new bright runners have go faster stripes as it was a 6k PB. Before & after
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Roughly this time three years ago I was being taken to rehab for a second time. Not a lot has changed, I probably need to go there again.
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Day 2 sober, had an argument with someone over the phone. I'm so angry and desperately trying not to turn to the bottle to deal with my emotions. I may need to go and try and run this anger off and hope I feel better after using up this negative energy.
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@livmattock
It’s something I found out myself over all these years trying to get sober, the only person that can help me, is me. I’ve been to AA, local drug programs, rehabs, had hundreds of hours of therapy, and while they all helped to various degrees, no one is going to fix me, but me.
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@dianepayne1967
Hey Diane, things are okay at the moment, feeling positive and trying to keep myself busy with running and the gym, which my old body isn’t too keen on 😂. Even decided to post my picture. Confidence! I appreciate your posts btw, always the voice of reason and sensibilty ❤️
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My best buddy since school is ex special British forces (Elite forces). He’s just a normal guy, so normal, seems weird he was tracking hostages in Afghan in the middle of the night killing terrorists. He really is a normal bloke, you’d never know. Just a normal guy 😂
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Successful run, the emotions have subsided, and I'm feeling better whilst being alcohol free. My liver did feel like it might explode around 20 mins in, but to be expected after the abuse it's been through in the last week.
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A week’s good. I couldn’t manage a few days a couple of months ago. I feel fking hopeless right now, but I know we’ve both been here before and we can do this again. 1/7 weeks…. We go again. I don’t even believe myself right now :-(
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I'm not going to lie, it feels brilliant being hangover free this morning. It was not so much fun last night thou! Happy New Year
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and hear is wishing you all a successful New Year in our recovery.
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When you attempted to tidy up your office all weekend and it still looks like this.
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So here is a slightly rubbish picture of my sleeve. It’s the best one I’ve got on camera unfortunately on my phone. I didn’t want the whole pic either as this was when it was first done and I was heavy into working out, I don’t look that big now, so decided to crop.
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@street_trashed
Batmans okay quite different. Best one I’ve played is The Wolf Among Us. No 2 comes out this year I think.
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What disturbers me so much is the amount of people that need mental health help that don’t get it on the NHS. I’m sat here genuinely quite upset. Sending my love to those that need it. ❤️. I’m unfortunately one of those too. Although I’ve had mixed results.
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@livmattock
So sad that predators are going to be calling this young vulnerable girl purely for their own needs. So so sad.
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@VikingFloke
Please look after yourself. I’ve hit rock bottom and I needed that to happen for me to sober up. It’s awful and I’m feeling sad for you, but this is the end of a bad journey and the beginning of a new one. Sending my best wishes.
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When I’m up early, it’s quiet and I can hear parakeets squark in the sky, I get this sense of calmness overwhelm me. I’d sit for hours at 5am in the orchard at rehab and listen to hundreds of them dancing in the sky, and watching the rabbits and the dear from ten metres away. ❤️
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@7hashtag7
I’m an alcoholic and a pint cost £15 quid in Norway. I was just m a state the whole time 😂
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@livmattock
Can you not speak to them and come to an agreement on another day? Missing it won’t be good, Liv.
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@livmattock
Bit random, I know, but why do people north of the m25 call dinner, tea? Genuinely interested to know!
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@jimmybredskins
Why are you putting your number on social media? WHY??? you don’t need to do this.
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@livmattock
Easy to say, you can’t change the past. Try not to let it destroy you. Use the guilt and embarrassment as a tool to be a better person for today. I relapsed last week, badly, and did some pretty crazy stuff while away on business with colleagues. Just about got away with it.
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Thank u all. Some days I can walk past the drink, other days not, but app service is not good for me either, In the early morning, I order from the apps to get more drink. apps are as bad as the store for me. I'm in London, I can get anything (literally) within 15 minutes. ❤️
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@livmattock
Sounds like a great idea. Having a hobby/project/distraction particularly during the evenings is something I struggle with.
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@livmattock
@innergrowthuk
This is not going to keep the sort of people that you need in your life. This just encourages the predators..
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@livmattock
I have ADHD and am watching YouTube, got the tv on, at my laptop and scrolling twitter on my phone all at the same time. It’s like one thing can’t hold my attention longer than a few minutes.
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@dianepayne1967
They are addictive. You def have to shop around for a good artist too. I’ve been to Scotland and Sweden to get some of mine. Instagram is great for this though. I’m seen some shockers from local “tattoo artists”.
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@KavitaGooch
Thank you ☺️ I’ve been for a run and felling good in the moment. Not sure how long it will last though. And how are you in this moment?
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Was really hoping today would be a new day, but I was wrong. Yesterday x 10. Why won’t my brain give me a fking break from this bs.
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I will mostly be spending all night watching the election results, yep, I’m a loser. And I have work tomorrow 😴
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Day 2 back into fitness since my blowout and 4 weeks of no training. 7k run yesterday lunchtime, chest and triceps in the evening. My body today doesn’t want to work and reminds me everytime I move. I hate getting back into training, it’s so hard when you’ve left it a while.
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@livmattock
Yep, it’s a cult, it’s why I don’t go anymore. Just full of people telling you it works, and if it doesn’t then you aren’t working the program. Keep coming back, keep paying in money. Spend ever meeting listening to AA propaganda. It does work for some people for sure, not me
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I’m glad somebody else had a worse round than me!
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Would like to point out, some people find tattoos repulsive, and that’s totally fine. Your opinion is your opinion and that’s fine with me ❤️
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@livmattock
You’re fine…. I’ve done the same while drunk and the oven was okay. They’re designed for super high temps and they have safety standards they must meet. It won’t explode, worst case senario is that the element might fail…. Easily replaced.
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When you go down two flights of stairs, switch the Kettle on, go back up two flights of stairs, come down again ten minutes later and the kettle was not plugged in. 🤬
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@MrH1987
Thank Rich, didn’t even think about to be honest, loads of people around him, I just kind of took control of the situation, which isnt like me at all. Just tried to help the poor guy. I saw myself
In him and thought he needed someone, like I would if it was me.
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@livmattock
Even getting an appointment doesn’t mean diagnosis. Took me 30 years to get diagnosed with bipolar and ptsd, and that was going backwards and forwards. In the end I had to go private to get it sorted. NHS is a total let done for mental health and addiction.
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1/2 Day 3. Total of 4 hours sleep in the last 3 nights, tremours peaking so jolt myself awake every time I start to drift. Sweats are lessening, yesterday was unbearable. I can hold a cup to my mouth. Stopped urinating blood. Still hearing noises and seeing things that are…
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@street_trashed
Wow. I don’t have a particularly positive opinion of people in general, but that shocks me someone would do that.
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@livmattock
Tell them you are on benefits, they have a special cheap package that they don’t advertise. OFCOM have made them offer a cheap tarrif to people that struggle financially.
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@livmattock
Your destiny is in your own hands. You seem smart, articulate and creative. Those are brilliant skills for a bright future and even so in the corporate world. It’s up to you to find the path. I wish the best.
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helped a drunk guy home. He was very drunk earlier, had wet himself. I got him a cab home, loads of people there watching, it was a bit of a scene as he couldn’t walk. I fking hate this, I don’t like crowds. I love this man with my whole heart, I hope I remember his address.
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Feeling super on edge today. Busy at work and stressing about going on holiday next week. Airports and holidays bring my anxiety levels up to the max so much so I don’t like to go on them. A walk at lunch time and gym tonight to occupy my mind. Alcohol is NOT an option.
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@street_trashed
Let us know how your first appointment goes, I’d be interested to know your experience as my experience with Inspire here in London was fairly poor.
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Sat over the park soaking in some sun ignoring life, but there’s a local school here and they’ve been running. I’m shocked at how many of these kids can’t run more than a few hundred meters. I’m a runner, I can run, but these kids can’t run for more than 30 seconds. Shocking.
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@street_trashed
I’ve often thought need to move for a fresh start at life, away from the city and move into the countryside. Congrats on your sobriety.
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Couldn’t help it, had to post a picture of my little bestie.
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@livmattock
The offer of the Antabuse from last night is till there. Try and have a good day. ❤️
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My ex wife’s mother comes and looks after the house while we are away. She looks after the animals. I’m always up for giving her loads of money, let the woman live like a queen for the week. She gets so restless she even cleans the overn. The ex doesn’t like it. Weird.
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I was so sick climbing this mountain. I was throwing up the whole way. I only got up the mountain because he just kicked me in the arse and said stop being a bitch 😂
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@mo0nlightvoid
Yep, got about two hours sleep last night, muscle spasms, nightmares, insomnia... It's one of the worse parts of coming off a bad relapse, along with the anxiety and paranoia while awake.
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@livmattock
The company I work for offers it for free as they are an inclusive employer. Quite a few people with all sorts of disabilities work their actually, it’s quite a cool thing.
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@__ghostgirl_
This is the same reason I hate New Year. Another year, still a losser. You are young and have time to be what ever you want to be. Small changes one day at a time add up. You’ll get where you want to be, it’s a journey. Happy Birthday btw.
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@livmattock
I had a feeling you were drunk this morning when I saw your tweets and I was quite worried for you. You know what you need to do though 💪
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@livmattock
No Liv, hey see a beautiful young girl with so much potential that needs some help with her addiction so that she can go on to achieve everything she wants in life.
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