So many football "experts" in England saying that Gerrard has been "excellent", "outstanding", "exceptional" and "brilliant"
During his 3 seasons at Rangers*
Celtic 6 trophies
St Johnstone 2 trophies
Rangers* 1 trophy
I truly appreciate all the Tweets/Retweets over the last 24hrs, I foolishly allowed so many things to build up, last night I just couldn't cope mentally whatsoever. I was picked up by the Police again this evening. I am a safe & a much better place than last night. 💜 U ALL Colin
Exactly a week ago I couldn't see anything other than death bringing my endless suffering from depression to an end, if it wasn't for Intervention from my beautiful partner, my amazing friends,
@MerseyPolice
&
@Mersey_Care
I would not be here. I am fighting every single day again
This is Michelle Colin's partner - I can't get hold of Colin and he's not in a great state of mind and possibly suicidal. Last seen in The White Star, please keep an eye out for him
In less than 2hrs I leave from Anfield Stadium to walk 208 miles to Celtic Park. Raising funds for
@LiverpoolFT_
who support adults affected by mental ill health. I am battling Bipolar, Sciatica & Arthritis, huge challenge both mentally & physically!
This man
@NevilleSouthall
has more integrity than most people I have ever met, so much more than racist
@Nigel_Farage
, sorry Farage has none! Nev you will always be a number 1 guy to me. Man of the people! Get into power with Mick Lynch &
@IanByrneMP
!
Yet another sleepless night, depression & anxiety have got such a grip on me, don't be fooled by my smile or my laughing I am having to fight every day, at times it's hour by hour. I can't go two days without having suicidal thoughts, I don't know how I am surviving at times.
@Robert__Douglas
Well said Rab, I am currently fighting against suicidal thoughts, have been in depression since May. I have suffered with bipolar for over 30 years and don't want to be another suicide statistic. Taking it one day at a time.
#MentalHealthMatters
Really sorry to have to update that Colin has gone missing again. He absconded from hospital earlier today, was seen in Liverpool City Centre and then last tracked to Conway Park Station in Birkenhead. Police are aware. Please get looking and help keep him safe.
Just gone the whole weekend with no cigarettes, no alcohol, no crisps, no fizzy drinks, no chocolate, no cake, no chips and no take away food, didn't make the gym but hey a good physique starts in the kitchen. If I can keep it going for 6 months I will be delighted.
I will not let the depression win, I am doing my very best to fight back every hour of every day. I will win in the end, I don't want to be another suicide statistic!
I am a suicide survivor, I could so easily have been one of the 6,881 who sadly took their own lives in the UK last year. I am fighting every day not to be a statistic.
#MentalHealthMatters
Suicide the biggest killer of men aged 20-50! Think about it. Talk about it.
Rather than respond to everyone individually who sent messages over the weekend, just a wee update, I am resting today, have a home visit by the crisis team and then off to football tonight. Love & peace to you all. ❤
I am taking 7 lads who are experiencing mental health issues to a 5-a-side tournament in Italy, May this year. I am looking for sponsors, please RT and help make dreams come true.
So cheeky, loveable Ally McCoist has a go at Celtic fans, "sickening" he describes Celtic supporters anti-monarchy protest! Not a word about the Scotland fans booing tonight, what no "sickening" comment then! He played at Rangers who's supporters sing sectarian songs every match!
Highly recommend watching "Stop Male Suicide" Wednesday August 22nd BBC2 9pm. Together we can educate, encourage people to seek help and talk openly about
#suicide
and
#mentalhealth
"It's Okay Not To Be Okay"
Fantastic news received this morning, I have been invited to take one of my 5-a-side teams to take part in a tournament in Lecce, Italy once again this year. Something very positive to look forward to in May. These are tournaments specifically for men with mental health issues.
This is Colin's partner
@Michelle_htimS
- Colin has not returned home since yesterday & I have no idea where he is. Please keep an eye out for him, police have been informed.
I nipped out to the supermarket at around 3pm yesterday , when I got home
@Colin_Dolan
had left the house. This is the last message I received at 20.08, I don't know what to do as he's left of his own free will & I doubt the police will be interested at this stage
11 years ago, on my way home from an 8 week stay in Windsor House (NHS Mental Health Hospital) 17 1/2 stone with absolutely no hope whatsoever, thought I would be dead soon or spend my life hidden away in a bedsit. Today I'm the man I always wished, wanted to be.
Pls share this, I would love to meet the person who found me unconscious Wednesday around 1am between Liver Building & Albert Dock & rang 999 ensuring an ambulance took me to The Royal. Many staff helped save my life, without the stranger I would have died. I want to say thanks.
I'm in the Royal Liverpool Hospital, someone brought me in via ambulance after passing out somewhere. Last memory I have was walking near Albert Dock. I took an overdose yesterday, it was totally out of my control, the urge to die was so much more than the will to live. Sorry..
I can't imagine the pain I would cause my pert er and 3 sons, please seek help if you are struggling with your mental health, I wish I had when I was much younger
Only just got home and within minutes I am crying, fighting depression every day takes it's toll, I know what I have to do to conquer this affliction. Your kind messages of support spur me on. I will win again to prove I am strong enough to support others who also suffer.
I don't tweet about my mental health illness for sympathy I do it to help educate and raise awareness of the daily struggles of depression, mania, bipolar, self harm and suicidal thoughts.
#MentalHealthAwareness
12 months ago today I was planning suicide, I knew it was coming, I planned for it & was looking for the opportunity, I couldn't see a chink of light at the end of the tunnel no matter how hard I searched. I foolishly didn't reach out. I'm in a good place mentally atm thankfully!
Two guys have supported me through the dark days, they don't get the recognition for what they do these days unselfishly thanks
@StanCollymore
thanks
@NevilleSouthall
both of you are special guys.
Battling depression every day; Thank you
@CelticFC
for perking me up a little tonight, it's no cure but
#footballtherapy
certainly does help. Boom Boom Boom! HH
Wow, I have been nominated as a "Local Hero" for the voluntary work I do throughout Merseyside. I certainly don't think of myself as any kind of hero whatsoever, if it helps raise awareness of
@LiverpoolFT_
that is fantastic.
Massive thanks to all who went looking for me at the weekend, the RTs of Michelle's tweets, kind messages too. Thank you
@MerseyPolice
&
@LivHospitals
staff. You ALL helped save my life. I never want to put you through the worry again. Now receiving care via
@Mersey_Care
I am totally consumed by depression and suicidal thoughts, the only thing holding me back is
@Michelle_htimS
I don't want to cause her any pain. I am still searching for the light, thanks for the supportive messages, much appreciated.
I am bipolar, I have had several manic and depressive periods, this latest bout of depression is the longest yet, now going on 12 months. I have tried to end my own life several times over the past 30 odd years, I have been close to trying again recently. The battle goes on.
I'm in the Royal Liverpool Hospital, someone brought me in via ambulance after passing out somewhere. Last memory I have was walking near Albert Dock. I took an overdose yesterday, it was totally out of my control, the urge to die was so much more than the will to live. Sorry..
I don't share my mental health journey publicly for personal gain, sympathy or attention, I do because I have to show how important it is to share, to reach out & never be afraid to seek support. I believe that being so open over the past 12 yrs has helped me survive somehow.
Battling depression every day; Toughest part is the constant battle with your own mind, it's so draining too, just can't get out of bed at the moment. Again thanks for all the encouragement.
I nearly killed myself today, for a moment this depression really got a grip of me, somehow I found the strength to carry on and keep fighting.
@Michelle_htimS
I love you, thanks for giving me the strength to fight, your belief in me makes me stronger.
#MentalHealthMatters
Even full of painkillers & a sleeping pill last night had no sleep whatsoever. Physically I'm completely drained, still unable to walk unaided (love my Zimmer), muscles all over ache as I begin day 21 in the
@uclh
Hospital, London. Mentally getting stronger with every passing day
Because I dress like a football casual a lot, today both police & security mistook me for one of the Far Right idiots out in Liverpool today. ps their was about 10 of them! At least I got to meet one of my all-time heroes, a man who influences how I live my life
@jeremycorbyn
Battling depression every day; I had to fight with myself all day long, was up very early and only wanted to get back into bed instead I had a few sessions with the free weights and went for a short walk. Winner today. I hope to make tomorrow as good if not better.
#mentalhealth
Instead of giving your money to hear Big Ben ring our at the end of the month, perhaps that estimated £120,000 could be better spent supporting local food banks or homeless shelters. Just a thought!
Battling depression every day; Woke up in tears, feeling sorry for myself once again, somehow have got up out of bed, wasn't easy. Just been for a short walk, some fresh air to help clear my head, has helped a little. I'm fighting back with little steps. I've got this!
I am overwhelmed by the support I am receiving via social media, thanks to everyone for their best wishes and good health messages. I will do everything in my powers to conquer this depression, I am determined not to let it win. I'm Not Giving Up!
Can't believe how much my mental health has taken a turn for the worst, was improving steadily after having depression for 10 months. Only out of bed today so I can watch the football. I will keep fighting, I have to try and focus on any positives.
Have to pinch myself, am I really going to be coaching a football team in Italy all next week!!!!! Dreams can come true if you put in the effort. Dream Plan Hard Work Achieve. Thanks for all your very kind support during my difficult times.
#footballtherapy
Battling depression every day; Finding the strength to carry on every day despite what your mind is telling you to do, I am fighting every day just to survive, I am not giving up.
#MentalHealthAwareness
Dion Dublin is a big big man, he just proved that it's okay for men to shed a tear, delighted they didn't make a fuss about it on tv. It's not unusual for men to be emotional. Great tribute to the legend Cyrille Regis
In 22 minutes I'm going to be 58 years old, amazes me I've got to this age, mental illness has affected me for 40 years. I've survived several suicide attempts & now as happy & mentally well as I can recall in my adult life. Couldn't have made it without
@Michelle_htimS
Goodnight all, well that was some battle today, had to fight off thoughts of self harm and suicide throughout the day. Now hope I can get a decent night's sleep, I'll be happy with 3 hours and no night terrors.
#mentalhealth
#bipolar
#depression
I am not giving in.
Battling depression every day; Today I managed to stay focused & do some work towards getting one of my mental health teams to play football in Italy later this year. Delighted to have raised £665 of the £3000 target. Not been easy, I've had several wobbles & did get to gym
I have been struggling with depression for about 14 months but in that time I have still managed to take lads to international football tournaments twice, managed a 5-a-side in 2 leagues, support
@EFCIYG
and get to a number of gigs. I am still fighting even when there is no light
Forget the resolutions I am really hoping for better mental health in 2019, the past 8-9 months have been he'll and every day I struggled with depression, anxiety and thoughts of suicide. Wishing you all good health for the new year and beyond.
This is Colin's partner - I just want to make sure this message gets to as many of his friends as possible. It's unlikely Colin will be online for some time. Thanks to everyone who has supported us in whatever way you could, the love has been overwhelming but very welcome.
Update on
@Colin_Dolan
looking a lot more optimistic that we'll be getting him home at some point. He has lost his phone so I haven't spoken to him, but the Dr said he had asked for me to be told what was happening. Thank you to everyone for all of the support you've given us 💜
Battling depression every day; Watch this space as I fight the toughest battle of my life, this time it's off the pitch. I WILL get stronger, I WILL win and I will always be here for you in your hour of need, just like you have been there for me. I'M NOT GIVING UP
Battling depression every day; After visiting the psychiatrist yesterday I belive there is light at the end of the tunnel, I am not giving up on hope of a full recovery. My future is in my own hands, I am not giving up.
#MentalHealthMatters
It's less than a month 'til I take 8 lads to a 6-a-side football tournament in Italy, the tournament is specifically for those affected by mental ill health. Without your generosity we would not be going, it has given me something to focus on while I battle depression. Thank you.
If you would have told me 12 years ago that I would have become so open about my Bipolar, depression, mania, anxiety & ADHD I would have laughed in your face. Being so open has saved my life so many times & hopefully inspired others to be open & seek help.
I'm Not Giving Up, I will not let the depression beat me, I am stronger than the thoughts I have in my mind from time to time, ending my life is not the answer.
Just been offered a full-time job, returning to paid employment for the first time in 12 years. I've done so much voluntary work since, will be nice to start earning once again. Can't wait to get started.
The thought of not being able to host these sessions, to help so many people is heartbreaking. Pls RT the tweet below, our aim is to help improve lives, ultimately to save lives. All RTs & support greatly appreciated.
@MayorLpool
@MetroMayorSteve
@CalvertLewin14
@Carra23
We need YOUR help! We provide small-sided football sessions exclusively for adults affected by mental ill health. We are looking to hopefully encourage the local business community to get on board and sponsor at least 1 of our sessions over the coming months. Pls DM for details.
Talking openly about my mental ill health and my suicide attempts over the past 10 years or so has helped me so much, I get amazing feedback and wonderful support. Never be afraid to speak openly, you just never know who you may help.
#MentalHealthMatters
Battling depression every day; A very tough year nearly over, all I want in the New Year is good physical and mental health, anything else would be a great bonus.
Battling depression every day; I've had a couple of okay days back yo back but with very little sleep and still some worries over Christmas but have hope for the New Year. Suicidal thoughts are now further apart at long last I think I can look forward.
Well that news perked me up a bit, just been invited along with a number of ex-pros to talk about mental health in football by the BBC's Dan Walker for a special one off show to be screened later this year.
To everyone who has given me fantastic support throughout a very tough 2018 I'd like to hope you have an awesome Christmas Day tomorrow. Don't forget mental ill health does not take time off for Christmas holidays. Wishing you all good mental health.
One of the best days of my life, so proud of these lads
@LiverpoolFT_
can't thank all who donated to make this all possible. Did Liverpool and themselves proud. All while I have been battling depression, the players support was amazing.
#footballtherapy
Been let down badly looking for minibus & driver to take my mental health football team from Liverpool to Stansted airport, leaving Liverpool at 9pm Saturday night. Pls RT
I started sharing my bipolar journey on Twitter some years ago now, I have made so many wonderful friends & received amazing support. I am humbled to now have over 4K followers, I trust I am raising awareness as well as educating too. Thanks for following & caring.
Freedom! I'm alive, I'm getting stronger, I feel good, just been discharged. Thanks
@Mersey_Care
for looking after me. I am so happy, so relieved, obviously a lot of follow up for both my mental & physical health. Just glad to be alive, didn't look likely 2 weeks ago!
Battling depression every day; Had a real buzz of excitement on Friday, felt really good but crash bang & I have 3 days back in bed ignoring my phone, ignoring people, sometimes you just have to be alone to get you through the tough dark times. I will win this battle my way.
Off to the gym tonight to get on the static bike, hopefully burn off a few calories and release those good feeling endorphins to help me manage my depression better. Still not out of the woods but fighting back like a warrior.
#MentalHealthAwareness
03:20 hrs suddenly break into tears, no shame whatsoever, I am somehow conquering all the negative, very dark thoughts. Tomorrow's fight has already started, I am not quitting as I have so much more I want to achieve in life.
I AM STRONGER THAN DEPRESSION!
#bipolardisorder
Today I cried, not because I am sad but because my depression is at times taking over. My biggest fight in life is just to make sure I make it through until each tomorrow.
I am bipolar and have had many bouts of depression & mania, now I am in the longest of all my depressions 19 months, I have been suicidal many many times, I have stayed in bed many many days, today I am fighting back once again, I am trying to help others cope with their issues.
Pushing myself so hard atm just to stay alive, terrified that the dark thoughts will be too much this time, off to football to distract my mind for just a couple of hours. At this stage don't care if I make it or not. Every hour is a small victory just now! It's a losing battle!
Battling depression every day; I've had a really tough couple of days but still managed to be there for others, I fully understand the importance of peer support. Had to fight with myself to attend the league on Mon and the session last night and am fighting to get out today!
Been moved to another part of the ward, had the choice of window view or not, now looking across to Euston Station & can clearly see the trains head home for Liverpool! I will genuinely miss the wonderful staff
@uclh
here who pulled together to save my life, special people.
#NHS
Goodnight all, thanks again for all the supportive messages. Glad I got out for a stroll in the park today and will do the same again tomorrow. I am not giving in to this depression, the fight goes on, I am not giving up.
#MentalHealthMatters