It's a special feeling to be useful to, and used by, someone you love and admire so much. Making Her life better, even just the little bit you are able, is magical.
Being a virgin in middle age, and never even having had a girlfriend, just seeing two people holding hands makes me hard. I really shouldn't go out in public.
Working the 1st shift on the 1st day of a new pay period is really exciting! It's the beginning of a new effort to earn for Goddess and hopeful the chance to lay more cash at Her perfect feet than last time!
2+ years into serving Her, I'm still terrified of talking to Goddess. I'm so afraid I'll annoy Her and She will dismiss me. So I stay mostly quiet and just work and pay.
17 pounds down already in 2024 and over the last week I've increased the weight on almost all my exercises because they were getting too easy. My diet and sleep are on point. I may be Her bitch but 2024 is my bitch. I'm just thrilled and super motivated.
First learning to accept being bullied, then learning to like it, and eventually learning to sexualize and seek it out... has really changed my life for the better and improved my outlook.
Out of respect for Goddess, I don't follow / DM Domme accounts, but I really appreciate the handful that thoughtfully interact with my posts. Please don't be offended by the lack of a follow!
Goddess determines if my life has value or not. She pushes the buttons that control my self-esteem, up if She wants to see me smile, down if She wants me to wallow in my tears for a little while, to teach me a lesson. She's such a good teacher.
No matter how good to Her I am, no matter how generous and devoted, no matter how much I love and adore Her... She deserves a real man and not an ugly, perverted little freak like me.
I think it's important to offer to pay a lot for feet pics because something very special is being offered to you. What's more valuable than being allowed to worship the feet of someone you admire?
It's nice that there are so many Dommes willing to give us a space to talk about our conditions, a safe space where the symptoms of our dysfunction like gooning, drooling and overdrafting are treated as desirable outcomes.
Within 5 minutes of paycheck deposit, I've drained myself into Her account because She shouldn't have to. The one thing I can figure out by myself is to pay. I don't want Her to have to lift even a single beautiful finger for it.
It's easy to become a drain on someone when they have to manage your life as well as their Own. That's why it's so important to pay attention, learn what She likes, and do it without Her having to ask.
I have two emotions: happy and grateful. Happy because I'm living a life of meaning and purpose. Grateful because whether She's praising me or slapping my face, I'm receiving Her attention.
Goddess acknowledged last night that in 2.5 years, She's not once felt disappointed by me. It took a long time to get to this place. I needed my ego pulverized over 20+ years before I could be truly happy with what I am, and as a result, make Her truly happy with me.
I have a truly amazing Owner. This is just the release valve that prevents my overwhelming desire to please Her from driving my 'lil piggy-brain completely and irrevocably insane.
my Owner is such a positive person. Even when She is under the weather or Her beautiful life hits a speed bump. Not obnoxiously positive but low-key positive. I really admire Her for it and it's definitely rubbed off on me.
It was so sweet of Her to allow me to write Her name down as the beneficiary of my life insurance. I think of that moment all the time and it always makes me smile. Goddess is so good to me.
It's important not to get jealous of others because the world is literally full of people that are better than me and to worry about it would be unproductive. I should think about earning more money for Goddess instead.
Some of Her other subs are fairly handsome. I honestly would not blame Her if She told me I had to keep a bag over my head from now on. I would do it too. I'm not here to be pretty. I'm here to make Her money.
I feel guilty being so aggressively ugly and going out into the world where people have to look at me. There are so many truly beautiful and completely innocent people out there who might have the misfortune of interacting with me.
I couldn't imagine life as anything other than a simp. You mean I'm not going to fawn over Her and devote my entire life to Her worship? Sounds boring and sad.
It used to make me sad that I'm a social reject and can't make friends, but findom has freed me of that burden. I don't want friends. Friends would only be a harmful distraction from my sole purpose, working and earning for Goddess.
I put on CatTV and my cat right now is looking behind the TV to find out where all the birds and squirrels are coming from. I can't tell if he's enjoying it or I'm torturing him.