☆ introo
heyy my name is miles , im a gay trans emo n scene dude !1!! i luv scene n trashy pink 2000s culture 💋 im a shitty anorexic LMAO . used to sh but ive recovered <3
there’s this girl in my class and shes so fucking huge oh my god i felt so skinny near her 😭 her stomach was rly hanging out of her shorts. made me wanna starve for weeks
today i ate some of my fear food! i ate 437 cals which is a bit more than usual but im trying 2 boost my metabolism. it’s super scary tho.. i’m bloated n feel like a failure :/ might purge or take lax idk. atleast i got 10,000 steps in
all of my scars 🤍
(don’t mind my fat thighs)
i did these throughout 2022-2024, theres ones that r older n in diff places like my stomach but they’re small n quite faded..
i need more tbh
am i the only one that has a comfort clothing item? mine r my jeans n jacket , when im not wearing them i feel uncomfy and unsafe and upset 😭 i also think i look fat in anything else
walked 30 mins to the store to buy a cookie mix to bake cookies (im the worst anorexic)
theyre 133 cals per cookie, the walk was scary but worth it honestly
hahah fucking freaking out i tried 2 enemas, lax, fiber n everything u can think of n im still not shitting i am SEVERELY CONSTIPATED im sobbing rn i might have 2 go to the hospital and have someone shove smth up my ass tf pls help me
ana + being tired makes u stupid 😭 i was supposed to leave school in an hour but my fucking dumbass self left an hour early so now im stuck outside walking around in this fucking cold 😓 atleast i can get steps in ig
guys should i continue walking? its cold and it’s late and im so sore and upset but i need steps in but if i don’t get to 15k i’ll hate myself… i’m also dizzy cause i’m 22 hrs into a fast
did 20k steps for the first time cause i overate !! my body is hurting so fucking bad n it’s so dark n cold outside but i gotta deal w it if i wna b skinny !!
also my chestbones r starting 2 show i think? i might b losing fat?