i'm 23 today and as someone who's been suicidal for most of the last 10 years i NEVER thought i would live to see that. i'm so fucking happy and grateful to be alive.
feeling really depressed lately and feeling like no one wants me around i feel boring and annoying and like i literally have no personality like i genuinely feel sorry for the people that have to be around me
yknow i might seem annoying or childish to some ppl but i'd rather my coping mechanisms be video games, anime, kpop, n pink things than cocaine an alcohol any day.
gonna brag real quick im 2 1/2 yrs clean from drugs, 2 1/2 months smoke free, and almost 4 months sh free!!! AND i got thru a depressive episode without relapsing into any of it 😸
you can have bpd and experience mania, but the mania isn't coming from your bpd. that means you also have bipolar disorder and you should go to the psychiatrist
does anyone procrastinate things that they actually really wanna do that even most people would probably consider lazy but to you it takes a lot of energy, like playing a video game or starting a new show
i'm on multiple prescriptions, weekly group DBT, solo therapy and psych nurse appointments. this might seem like a lot but i feel better than i ever have in my life. it's amazing what proper care can do.
i just said "how am i so tired after 1 melatonin i used to be able to take the bottle and feel nothing" and my bf without hesitation goes "you used to do meth"
Seeing memes about being too honest with your therapist and ending up in the psych ward are hilarious bc in reality they’re just gonna tell you “well you’ve kept yourself safe this long so you can keep doing that”
whenever i'm experiencing extreme anxiety and panic attacks, i need to run away to be alone. i get very easily overstimulated and irritated. anyone else?
I feel unable to talk to anyone about the situation I’m in right now because my brain cannot bear to hear anyone compete for who has it worse or downplay what I’m going through.
k i was feeling really tired and depressy today but then i had some water and went into the sun. i feel better, and im questioning if maybe i'm a plant?🌱
pictures of me on my bday 2020-2021-2022-2023
i can literally see myself healing and becoming healthier and happier the longer i'm clean from drugs. i started getting clean the month after the first picture. now i am 2yrs11months clean
Sorry I haven’t been talking to anyone, I love you all, I’m just a mess lately. I keep thinking that I’ll be okay, but I’m just filing the void. I’m not okay right now, and it’s time I accept that.