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strawberry swiss cake roll i made yesterday! with fresh strawberry whipped cream in the centre. it’s so freaking cute and rlly yum. 254 cals per serve, 10 serves total
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i made low cal higher protein banana muffins! they look a little sad but they taste good!
82 cals and 5.4g protein each. recipe is in alt
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this whole pizza was only 452 cals n i used full fat cheese! so yummy, the dough worked out rlly well! might pre cook it slightly next time bc the veggies made it slightly soggy
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every time i get upset at my excessive loose skin i look at this comparison pic. at my hw and lw. i did that. no wonder my stomach is a bit saggy. almost 40kg down.
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i did it! it’s official. it’s in my display name. i’m in recovery from my ed 🥹
i don’t think ill be as active here because as much as i want to be the perfect ana recovery account posting mealspo every day, its not beneficial to my healing. i’ll still be here for now tho 🫶🫶
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@kimsbbl
thanks for this! i love it. i love it when fatphobes out themselves and make it a super easy block for me :) stop being gross
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my veggie“spaghetti bolognese” is one of my biggest safe foods atp, this whole bowl (including the bread!) is less than 400 cals. 32g protein, 3-4 serves of veg. insane.
it doesn’t look like it in the photo but this bowl is loaded
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finally got to make my mango & strawberry smoothie bowl! it was perfect 🥰
info in alt
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OH MY FUCKING. G O D. this is the best thing i’ve ever eaten i think. eating maintenance is the best tbh, i love my little treat every night
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made yoghurt bark again!
blueberry and vanilla, 163 cals, 24.8g protein
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finally, it’s top surgery day tomorrow!!! there’s so many different thoughts and emotions swirling thru my mind but i’m really genuinely excited for this to finally be happening. i’m suddenly so nervous too, hopefully i can sleep tonight and be well rested
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blueberry bagel with mixed berry marscapone cream and an almond matcha latte for lunch! absolutely DIVINE
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i love how gymbro meals are like
chicken breast ❗️no seasoning 👎microwaved mince meat with nothing else ⚠️rawdogging a can of sardines 🐟 dry scooping protein 🙅♂️
and gym girly meals are like
yoghurt bowls 🥰🫶 and protein desserts ✨cute yummy salad 🌸 stunning overnight oats🧁
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blueberry pancakes!!
took the day off work, woke up at 1pm and made real pancakes with my partner🥹 no protein powder, banana or fake/low cal alternative ingredients. i haven’t enjoyed real pancakes in so so long. they were fucking delicious!
i love recovery 🫶
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happy matcha day!! here’s some matcha oats i made to celebrate 🫶
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ED recovery is getting froyo as a treat after a psych appointment and choosing the topping i actually wanted and eating by myself while listening to chappel roan and powering through the feelings of guilt and actually enjoying it. it’s all worth it for these little moments 🫶
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the famous higher protein lower cal pizza makes a return!!! this one is slightly lower cal, 442 cals for the entire thing 😋 24g protein
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@sluttycals_
and there’s been studies saying that an “atypical anorexia” diagnosis can be more harmful and triggering. as well as the physical side affects being the same if not worse in atypical ana because weight loss is seen as healthy and praised but does the same damage
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some food i had while on my interstate trip! super yummy and cute, i wanna go back so i can eat them all again
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homemade pizza for dinner hehe. not as pretty as my usual food pics but i’m too tired for nice presentation tonight
336 cals
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biscoff overnight oats!
it was fun experimenting with overnight oats but i do want to try this again warm, i prefer oatmeal to overnight oats i think. i also wished i cracked open my macro mike protein for this but i have a cookie butter protein mousse i should to use up first
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blueberry oats!!! i seriously cannot (and will not) shut up about how damn good these are, i think i might have to buy a second box of the blueberry cobbler bars if they go on sale again
335 cals, 20g protein
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yoghurt bowl!!! it’s so beautiful and perfect and tasty. ingredients r in the alt since i cant see them under all the toppings lol
385 cals, 33.7g protein
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trying to make myself feel better with a super pretty mango and strawberry smoothie bowl 🍓
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arm check but it’s my tattoo from when i got it to now. just over a year difference
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🌱protein bar review thread 🌱
aus based! all the bars i’ve reviewed will be linked under this post
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lunch was blueberry chia seed pudding with vanilla yoghurt and frozen blueberries, topped with frozen blueberries, flaked almonds, shredded coconut and almond butter. it was so freaking delicious 🥹
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disordered food nqr haul!!
all this for just over $40 including shipping!!!
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finally the first day in over a week i actually restricted and stuck to it and didn’t binge. i don’t think ive been in a deficit since friday last week 💀
heres todays meals, plus some unpictured icecream. 1527 cals
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it’s so nice to eat outside and practice mindfulness while i’m eating and enjoy food and nature
it’s cold today but the sun was out just long enough to enjoy my bagel, it was magical. then i sat undercover to eat my berries and listened to the rain and enjoyed the smell 🥰
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@strawbriescals
YUM ITS SO CUTE. i love the idea of protein bars in yoghurt bowls, i can’t believe i never thought of trying it before
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when this guy does it he gets called “inspiring” and dedicated” but when i do it i get called bulimic. unfair
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i don’t need to feel guilty for eating breakfast! i deserve to fuel my body! i need the energy for work! not every meal has to be perfectly balanced and high protein! a slice of toast and cereal is a perfectly normal and good breakfast!!!
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collarbone check from start of the year to now
i remember being so excited to even see my collarbones in my first pic. lol
28.3kg difference
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playing russian roulette with my stomach and made one w/ cows milk. whatever the outcome it will 100% be worth it
i so desperately want a matcha latte but i accidentally left my milk at my partners parents when we visited yesterday </3
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almond matcha latte!
ignore my shitty milk blob, my 41cal almond milk is very difficult to froth properly
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the yoghurt bowl in question! they absolutely LOADED the pb 😭 but i’m trying not to worry too much about the cals. it’s house made (so was the granola!) and it was freaking delicious
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it went well!! my pain isnt too bad and this is the first time since surgery that i’ve been conscious for more than five minutes at a time. which is enough for me so goodnight. these pain meds make me soooo drowsy
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no hate to the poster but man edtwt users gotta stop posting threads like this. people who have no background in medicine/nutrition gotta stop. it’s plain dangerous. encouraging overhydration and sitting in a sauna for 40 minutes ain’t it. you’re going to cause harm to people.
✩unconventional weight loss methods and metabolism boosters🧵✩
♡︎/↻ appreciated!
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the restaurant we went to for dinner had the cutest bao buns! they’re easter egg bao with a mini chocolate egg melted inside 🥰 what a fun little surprise and treat to end my wonderful day
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also! pre op when the surgeon was drawing markings on my chest he asked if i’d lost more weight and congratulated me and said bc i have less subcutaneous tissue he could make shorter incisions than planned! so apparently they follow my pec line and my ROM post op is better
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out of the handful of people i stayed in contact with when i went ip at 13, two are left. they all fucking died. one by one, there’d be no more messages or social media posts. just like what happens here on edtwt. it’s beyond heartbreaking. eds are cruel and ruthless at any stage
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forgot to post them at lunch time but here they are! blueberry cobbler quest bar with blueberry vanilla oats and fresh blueberries. i want to eat this every day forever
i am. SO. EXCITED!!!! for my oats today i don’t want to wait until lunch it’s gonna be all i can think about all day
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jelly yoghurt bowl!
347 cals, 51g protein. the macros r actually insane
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veggie green curry w/ tofu for dinner! i freaking love curries
used a different curry paste than usual and it was SO much better! gonna have to splurge to buy this brand, no way i could go back
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non disordered “healthy” recipes scare me. looking at overnight oat and chia pudding recipes for inspo and wdym people are managing to make these 500+ cals for a small portion they’re probably eating as a snack and probably not realising and wondering why theyre not losing weight
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apple and cinnamon oatmeal with pb and chia
genuinely the best fucking thing i’ve ever eaten i’ve missed hot porridge so so much i seriously can’t get over how good this is holy shit
262 cals, 11.4g protein
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I HAVE A NON OFFICIAL DATE FOR TOP SURGERY!!!!!! it’s only penciled in but it’s at the very least a rough estimate and oh my god i’m so happy it’s finally happening!!!!! in the next month or two i’ll finally be able to start organising everything for it!
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having a high sw is so unfair. what do you mean i’ve lost almost 50kg and i look normal and healthy and no one cares. normal sw people can lose 15kg and get all the help and treatments and care and empathy just because they’re underweight and i get nothing and ITS NOT FAIR
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i’m 2 months purge free today!!!! i’m so proud of myself 🥹🥹 i was so stuck in a rut and never thought id be able to stop, getting top surgery saved me in so many more ways that i could’ve thought possible
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broke another of my very firm ed rules this morning and had a bagel!!!! for bfast instead of a protein bar. my brain is yelling at me but i’m satisfied having the bagel and it was good and it needed to be used. ed brain is very mad about it and i’m tired and don’t wanna hear it
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dinner!
edamame pasta with lemon cracked pepper tuna and light laughing cow cheese (weird combo i know but it was good!) with broccoli and cauliflower
242 cals, 33g protein
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todays eats!
1363 cals. i felt like ive been eating all day and i feel full and satisfied for the first time in a long time. i love volume eating 😌
pushed myself and got to almost 1400 cals!! 105g protein and 34g fibre too! scary and i don’t wanna but im kinda proud of myself
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yoghurt bowl!!! i’ve been looking forward to this for days and it goes so hard. thank u jenny for convincing me to buy cacao nibs <33
274 cals, 21.5g protein
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making an effort to take some time for myself and do some self care. having an almond matcha latte and apple cinnamon peanut butter oats outside in the sun. didn’t weigh or count cals. playing some calm folk music. i deserve this and im going to be okay
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yog bowl inspired by
@strawbriescals
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bsc white choc hokey pokey protein mousse with vanilla protein yogurt topped with freash strawberries, blueberries and 15g of skippy blueberry waffle protein bar. yall need to get on this, it’s so good
170 cals, 20.1g protein
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overnight weetbix tiramisu! SUPER tasty
297 cals, 24.5g protein
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not me thinking i was so clever making cereal with yoghurt instead of milk for more protein, only for it to take five days to realise i’ve been making basically yoghurt bowls for breakfast for almost a week lmao
387 cals, 37g protein
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eating froyo topped with as much pistachio butter as my heart desires with my partner after the cutest date thinking maybe recovery would be worth it and everything is going to be okay and food isn’t bad and people love me regardless of my outward appearance
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here it is! mango smoothie bowl/protein fluff hybrid
284 cals for a massive bowl of it and so filling i only ate like half. i’ll have the rest later hehe. ingredients in alt
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dinner :)
soy marinated salmon with carrot fries and cucumber
306 cals!
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i made a jelly yoghurt bowl!
the bottom layer is sf jelly with greek yoghurt and protein powder, then greek yoghurt mixed with protein custard powder topped with fresh mango, strawberries, blackberries and protein peanut granola
the whole bowl is only 345 cals and 43g protein!!!
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protein bar review
bsc strawberry & cream
238 cals, 17g protein
LOVE the mousse texture, officially a fan. melts in the mouth and i love the chewiness of the bottom n the freeze dried strawbs on top add good texture. the strawb flavour is quite synthetic but still yum
7.5/10
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satay noodles for dinner!
316 cals even tho i used real udon noodles and peanut better hehe
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dinner!
tomato pesto pasta with cherry tomatoes, mushrooms, vegan chicken pieces and spinach
256 cals, 23g protein
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off brand halo top as a treat ehe, it honestly tastes better and it was $3.50 cheaper
73 cals
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just had a 770 cal curry for dinner and i feel so awful about it even tho i missed a meal and still haven’t hit maint cals. why are big meals so scary :(
it was yummy, i had naan (hence the high cals) which i haven’t let myself have in a long time. it’s nice
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happy world pistachio day!
i made pistachio white chocolate overnight oats for the occasion with
@spekktaclz
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i made my own pistachio butter from scratch and it’s divine
477 cals, 34g protein
super high cal and scary but adding a novelty to it makes it fun and slightly easier
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protein haul from the past few days!!
thanks to bsc and woolies sales
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dinner!
kangaroo with steamed veggies sprinkled with nutritional yeast.
this whole plate was absolutely loaded and only 351 cals. i fucking love veggies
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thinking of putting recovery in my display name. i think it’s for real this time. i want to relapse so badly but i know it will throw me back into a fucking awful binge/restrict/purge cycle and i can’t do that to myself again. so ig this really is my only choice. it’s weird
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was feeling sad and overwhelmed so oats for dinner hehe
one of the best protein oats i’ve made to date! cinnamon apple oats with protein pudding yoghurt. the photos don’t do it justice, the bowl was HUGE
483 cals, 44g protein!!
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hearing people’s experiences going through the exact same thing that i’m going through right now is really comforting and makes me feel like less of a failure for my body doing everything it can to try and survive. sending big hugs to anyone struggling with something similar xx
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chronic meal repeater and i’m not ashamed
banana yogurt bowl with sultana bran, banana and coconut kefir
more info in alt
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protein bar review
body science cookie dough
207 cals, 19.8g protein
oh yeah! this frickin slaps. soft n not chewy, tastes exactly like cookie dough. no crunch tho :( and it is VERY sweet. can’t believe i haven’t tried this before, highly recommend. 100% will rebuy
solid 8/10!
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vietnamese vermicelli salad!
333 cals
SO FREAKING YUM OMG i need to make this again. i would eat this every day i cant get over how good it is
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i had the scary oats w/ the quest bar and it was so worth it 🥰
my brain hasn’t let me have my blueberry oats in so long and i forgot how good they were. and the quest bar!!!! omg so good, i’ll review soon!
i’m very happy and proud of myself right now
384 cals, 25.4g protein
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the most divine meal omfg, i’ve been craving this all week and it was so worth the wait! this is so freaking tasty
578 cals, 52.2g protein
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protein bar review!
muscle nation choc mint. 213 cals 18.3g protein
HOLY SHIT I WAS SO EXCITED FOR THIS! its very minty and chocolatey and crunchy and custardy and perfect. probably my fav protein bar to date. if u like mint u gotta try it!
10/10! higher if the macros were better
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got a quick look at my chest while the dressings were being changed and!!! oh my gosh i’m so happy! it looks incredible even tho it was still mostly covered and a bit bloody. my pain is also super low, im only taking panadol and it’s sitting at a 3-4, much better than i expected
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protein bar review!
bsc passionfruit cheesecake mousse
240 cals, 15.9g protein
review in the comments bc i have a lot of things to say (good things!!)
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protein oats! higher cal than usual but i’ve found that adding more protein and cals keeps me fuller much longer and i don’t need another meal in between this and dinner (hopefully)
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@fattyfatfatfck
@MYEDISME
honestly i think people can fully recover. i did. i rarely had ed thoughts and even though i was obese i was comfortable in my body. sure i had thoughts sometimes but i think even normal people have bad body image days and stuff. i’m here now tho so it doesn’t even matter
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is it weird to be validated by the fact my sleeping hr is steadily dropping and dropped below 40 last night bc uhhhh. it should be a concerning medical symptom but instead i’m proud of myself that im finally losing in a way that’s effecting my health. what a fucked up disorder
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vegan roast for dinner!
having a rough night mentally :( but this was yummy and i’m feeling a bit better
324 cals
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todays eats
1292 cals, 74g protein
today was hard. real hard. restricted all day but pushed myself at the end of the night to be in less of a deficit. currently regretting it but i need to do the right thing as much as i don’t want to. one day at a time. i got this. i’m trying
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japanese curry w udon noodles for dinner!
464 cals
not the best photo but this was fucking delicious
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got froyo to celebrate my partners bday!
it’s a special day so i absolutely covered the frozen yoghurt in all my favourite toppings (it’s peanut butter!!!)
estimating ~440 cals but whatever, i deserve a special treat and i deserve to enjoy it
more info in alt as always
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breakfast of champions 🫡
the white chocolate raspberry quest bar is SOOO good! think it might be my favourite of all the quest flavours i’ve tried so far (sorry bday cake i still love you)
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7 days binge free! the longest i’ve been in a month since everything went to shit in march. it’s been hard and i want to eat tonight bc i skipped dinner and had a big day but i’m gonna go to sleep instead of stressing about eating. slowly but surely getting back on track
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todays eats!
1389 cals, 101g protein, 38g fibre.
it was hard and stressful to plan around lunch oats that were almost 500 cals but i had so much fun with them it was worth it. will defs experiment more with pistachio oats soon!
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