When حیا سلیمان said
"وہ جارہا تھا وہ جانے کے لئے ہی تو آیا تھا"
And When مومنہ سلطان said
"وہ میرا اجر تھا میں نے اسے کھو دیا"
My heart mourned for all my losses but When Ali Zaryoun wrote:
"اسے کسی سے محبت تھی اور وہ میں نہیں تھا!"
So yesterday Chachi came at 12 pm wearing shocking pink jora laughed as much as she can. Ate food and went home. And chachu asked me beta theek ho gaya "chehlum Ami ka" I replied g chachu.I told them Meri maa Mari hai tu mera he ghm hai logo ka aktha na krain but who cares!
Just 5 days before her death she held my hand and said "Tum pareshan mat hona isha zindaghi moat tu Allah k hath mai hai bemari mai thori hai" I just wanted to scream at that time k es bemari ny ap ko khaa liya hai ami or mujhy pata nhe chala 💔
Zaynab kehti thi "cancer Allah sy bara tu nhe hai" lekin phr mai ny dekha us cancer ko Allah ny itna bara kr diya k wo hamari maao ko khaa gaya. I don't have words to consoule her this pain will never end!
I was hell crying in cancer ward coz my mother was unconconcious and I was alone. Then I saw another women was crying I asked her sister why she is crying. she replied "us ki b aik he beti hai us ko dar hai cancer sy usko kuch ho gaya us ki beti b aisy he roye gi suddenly..
crying alone in the hospital, seeing my mom suffering from cancer (stage IV). She can't bear chemo because she is so weak, and without chemo, she will die of cancer. Allah itna bura kaisy kr sakta hai mery sath. Allah Meri duain sunta he nhe :'(
My mom is fighting alone from last 16 years with all these family issues protecting me supporting me. She never failed coz she know she is my only hope but now i am tired of all this shit.Baap hota tu itna kuch bardshat na krna parta shyed!!Log jeeny he nhe dety!!
Itni takleef mujhy apni maa ki yad nhe deti jitni takleef wo Amma ki bemari k 2 month dety Hain mujhy cancer ward Mai guzari ratain nhe bholti mujhy apni maa ki takleef nhe bholti mujhy wo waqat nhe bholta jo mai ny es khof mai guzara k meri maa chali Jaye gi!
When Anwar Masood:
"کہانی آگے بڑھنے لگتی ہے تو لگتا ہےکہ کہانی ختم ہو جائے گی!"
and when Mohsin Naqvi said:
"میرے ہاتھوں کی لکیروں میں یہ عیب ہے محسن
میں جس شخص کو چھو لوں وہ میرا نہیں رہتا"
I feared getting attached to anything and anyone...💔
It's been 36 hours now that she is shivering continuously and am hell crying, but Allah didn't show mercy, and I won't forget how He made me cry like this 💔
Allah ko sb pata hai mai kitni akeli hun phr b us ny yeh kiya hai wo mujh sy payar nhe krta buss💔
I didn't die when doctor said to me "your mother has hardly 3 to 6 months it isn't cureable". I didn't die when doctor said "Tum log 1.5 years sy soye rhy ho or yeh sary organs mai phel gaya hai in ki Condition bht critical hai" Dil phatny wala ho jata hai lekin phat'ta nhe hai💔
@Zeynepp_Ahmett
Love doesn't hurt, Zaynab, when we prioritise that person over everything, then Allah takes that person just to tell us no one can love us better than Him. There should be limits so it wouldn't hurt!
I was 5 years old jb mery baba ki death hoi meri mother young th job krti th un k pass option tha aik new life start krny ka lekin nhe unho ny pori zindaghi mery liye sacrifice kr d🥺❤️Or jo log kehty orat loyal nhe hoti ya sabar wali nhe hoti ao apni amma sy milwao.
الفاظ کے جھوٹے بندھن میں
اغراض کے گہرے پردوں میں
ہرشخص محبت کرتا ہے
حالانکہ محبت کچھ بھی نہیں
سب جھوٹے رشتے ناطے ہیں
سب دل رکھنے کی باتیں ہیں
کب کون کسی کا ہوتا ہے
سب اصلی روپ چھپاتے ہیں
احساس سے خالی لوگ
یہاں لفظوں کے تیر چلاتے ہیں
I miss her while making tea making Sehri alone in kitchen miss her sleeping alone in room I miss her in every single corner of the house "ammi hoti tu yeh chez aisy hoti"
Its been 16 years or mai kabhi abu ki qabar par jak nhe roi lekin ab jb abu k sath taya abu ki qabar dekhti hun tu aisa lgta hai abhi dil phat jaye ga ansu khud he behna shuru ho jaty zabat ki b had hoti hai na sari hadain khatam ho gai!
I saw her in dream wearing a beautiful jora carrying her hand bag moving towards me with a big smile I was screaming excitedly "ammi a gai hain ammi a gai hain ammi bilkul theek hain" :'(
اُسے روکتے بھی تو کس لئے؟؟؟
وہ جو شہرِ دل تھا اُجڑ گیا
وہ جو خواب تھا وہ بکھر گیا
کبھی موسموں کی نظر لگی
کبھی واھموں نے ڈرا دیا
کبھی منزلوں کے سراب نے
ھمیں راستے سے ھٹا دیا
کبھی زندگی کی کتاب سے
ھمیں جس نے چاھا مٹا دیا
بس اسی لئے،
i still remember how painful that night was. how tired my eyes and heart was. i still remember how i almost ran out of my breath while i was crying, and how i was trying to stop the noise i could make. i will never forget how difficult it was for me.i will never forget that pain.
I stop crying went to her and say "ap ko Kuch nhe ho ga ap na roye apki beti k pass tu us k bhai b hain us ka baap b hai wo akeli nhe hai or ap tu bilkul theek ho jain gi"
Being ugly is so damnnn peaceful.
nobody text you, nobody falls in love with you, nobody cares whether you alive or dead, nobody stares at you, you don't feel like posting your pictures everytime, you can just be happy all alone.
Han mujhy adat hai logo k sath easily attach hony ki ho jati hun 24/7 sir khaati un ka sara din beth k un k reply ka wait krti phr wo log chaly jaty phr roti rehti hun han hun aesi tu ab mar jao kia.
I wish I can hug someone and cry my heart out Kyun k mujh sy nhe ho rha!meri maa sans theek sy nhe ly paatinwo chal nhe paati kl jb un sy kharab nhe hova ja rha tha or mai akeli help kr kr k thk gai thi mra dil kr rha tha hospital mai cheekh chekh k rona shru kr don! Itni baybasi