EDTWT | bpd, bipolar, abcdefg, cptsd, audhd & ocd 😭 • MDNI, don’t follow me if ur in recovery pls!! | high sw, i once lost 70kgs | not new, just relapsing
i made a diet for people who have been struggling with binging :))) (aka myself)
very low res, high intake at the start, going down in 100cals every 4 days <33
🏷️ edtwt low high med medium res diet
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hii,, im lyx!! :33c
im 23 years old and have a v high sw (i went from bmi 40 to bmi 20)
losing baby weight currently! (im a young mama)
looking for 16+ moots!! <33
like or RT to be mutualssss
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23 yr old new mum • not new to edtwt
im just relapsing again 😭
high sw post-recovery and post-birth // trying to recover from BED ✩࿐࿔
♡ or ↻ to be mutuals :))
my fave non scale victories were:
-when the towel wrapped around me more than once
-when i could no longer catch my phone with my thighs
-when i could go into any store and know they'd have your size
-when my bf could pick me up and throw me on that mf bed
you know you bagged a real one when you make a depressing post on edtwt and ur ana bestie just announces she's coming over, no questions asked
im so lucky dawg
edtwt stoner tip: if ur the type to get the munchies, make pre-made snack packs under 400 cals, there's lots of low cal snacks you could put in them so you don't binge
woah it’s so weird having my edtwt feed full of people at work, babies waking up in the night & university/college instead of being at middle/highschool ect.
WE’RE ADULTS, i swear i was gonna stay 16 forever 😟
selling feet pics and some shoes to an old friend of mine who's bought them before and it's so funny, he's always so awkward PAHAHA tempted to buy weed but I won't
i made a diet for people who have been struggling with binging :))) (aka myself)
very low res, high intake at the start, going down in 100cals every 4 days <33
🏷️ edtwt low high med medium res diet
tfw ur mother raises her concerns about ur brothers eating habits bc SHE "stopped eating until dinner time" so it "nearly killed her" (she lost like 5-10kgs over 6 months) and how horrible not eating is as if she didn't make u recover multiple times,
im never sick enough for her
recovering from bed when your ana mindset is so intense really kills you,
you’ll restrict but you know it’s going to take so long to lose all the weight from the binging
crazy how this disorder can kill you but it also is so much of a distraction when you're fully locked in that your suicidal ideation lessens significantly
the urge to quit breastfeeding so i can restrict properly is so strong but i need to give him the best chance he can have and reduce the risk of SIDS bc that shit scares tf out of me 😐😐
I see some people count their cals by net and their trackers will be 200 cals but they've eaten 1400 it's just they burnt 1200
I wanna do that because it makes sense to track your deficit and ect but I feel like an imposter because I didn't EAT 200 cals
Ya know??????
i can’t believe there’s so many new moms & breastfeeding moms on edtwt, i feel so seen
i swore id never say anything but yall make me feel okay to
makes me feel validated that I am sick even though im eating higher calories for my little man 😭
saw someone my height out at the store today and she was like 3 times smaller than me and so confident, she reminded me of who i used to be
i wanna di3 😭
bringing back eating rules for myself:
Leave stuff on my plate
Chew atleast 25 times on medium sized bites, 10 on small bites
Drink water before and after
I'll probably add more lol
BRO ARE THESE SEIZURES OR NOT
MY HAND WAS CRAMPED UP FOR AGES AFTERWARDS AND I SLIGHTLY WENT UNCONSCIOUS
are they tremors, convulsions or fuckin seizures
i need to go to the neurologist bro, but i barely have them so they won't be able to capture it and read my brain ig AHHG
.lowkey feel like im out of being so bad with binging already, gonna keep going with the diet but it's been v easy but when I first relapsed, it was so hard to restrict
I've been staying under 1.2k cals but I need to go lower
But then again I gotta give myself some credit, I went from like 3000 cals binging every day to 1.2k again :3333
if you see this, do it!
name: paulina
height: 5’3
sexuality: straight
sign: virgo
piercings: 2
tattoos: 7
fav color: pink
drink: pepsi max
food: crayfish
animal: changes all the time! rn it’s raccoons
MBTI: I never took this test idk
relationship status: gotta boyfriend
i study and focus on things that are beneficial to a "perfect life" that i somehow believe will come with being thin, so i work out, i eat clean, i fast, i learn