BRITISH SCHOOL DINNERS ~ this or that food poll 🧵for edtwt / foodtwt <3 (part 1)
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@milkcartonang3l
hospitalisation isn't an ending. most of the time you just end up in the same cycle, getting weight restored in hospital, relapsing, going into hospital again. id honestly rather die this life is hell
@starrvingskies
bro i convince myself im not anorexic because i dont binge! its the bodies natural response to starving if you've binged it just means your body is fighting back nothing to do with your ed itself
@syruprehab
omg i was literally triggered by this a couple months ago because i wasn't low enough but now i am!! such a weird thing to get triggered by but yaknow 💀
@B0NGBONES
anywhere that sells interesting salads as PART of their menu rather than just an add on or labelled 'skinny' or 'low carb' or whatever. Somewhere where it feels normal to order a salad. Like poke bowl places or Subway (in the UK, idk if they do salads elsewhere)
@ariannesbones
i honestly dont know how ur still standing :( i would say stay safe but there's absolutely no way u can be safe at this bmi 💔 just know that ur life is so valuable and i hope somehow u can make it through this
MUKBANGS from the🕐app where they don't just sit in silence ~ a distraction🧵for edtwt <3
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@_ari__nn
you're still so tiny lovely i get the pain regarding the scars tho i spent so much time last night just looking at my thighs and wishing i hadn't ever ruined my clean skin :( ur still beautiful no matter ur weight or what your skin looks like i know it sounds cheesy
@einsdreins
except everything that isn't advertised as low cal has hidden sugar or high fructose corn syrup in it like since when has bread had sugar in it
@bunnieslilblog
honestly if admission will keep you safe that might be the best idea they have services for pregnant women/women with babies with EDs you could look into ♡ im currently trying to come to terms with possibly getting admitted it's hard but it might be what you need my love
THIS or THAT but it's all food I ate/baked before I developed an ED ~ a just-for-fun food poll for edtwt <3
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@l0usdiary2
i used to be like this but then i couldn't use my scale for a while so the only time i was weighed was my weekly drs appointments, and it's so much nicer because im less affected by fluctuations and its nice to know that actually im a little bit lower because i weigh in clothes
@starredberrys
id get a treadmill and just spend all my time walking
also i would omad <500 every day and only buy my safe foods
id probably start purging which is a can of worms i do NOT wanna open so it's probably for the best i don't live alone
is it normal to be actually kinda scared about losing weight?? i feel like everyone else is just rly excited when they get to rly low weights but recently the thought has made me anxious even tho this is what ive wanted for ages
what is the point of saying this shit whilst showing off ur extremely emaciated body checks? 'starving yourself doesn't make u strong' then why the fuck r u showing off ur 'achievement'?? the thing that annoyed me most was the thumbnail (second photo) ur glorifying ana atp
@miffycals1
its so refreshing to see imnot the only one who got this taken away from them. it makes you feel like the worst person ever. im here if you need to vent
redoing my intro in hopes that i get some active moots ♡♡
- 18 she/her
- ana-r for 2 years
- not new to edtwt
- forced r3cov3ry, trying to lose
- i follow back!!
- I also have a shtwt!
@annastitchz
♡ and ⟲ much appreciated!!
@bluestberries
this!! ive been naturally skinny my whole life i think that's partly the reason i got the ed because im so scared of losing this part of me that ive had my whole life (and yaknow, trauma, autism, struggling w my MH my whole life, etc)
@skinnlheart
this is so helpful thank you. i always feel bad for my thighs squishing out at bmi 15s so it's nice to see that it still happens even if u are very underweight, its just anatomy ❤️🩹
@0cals4wyn
brought a meal deal, walked out the shop, immediately binned it
baked other people stuff for MY birthday and didn't eat a single bite of it
filled up an entire ikea kallax storage box full of old hidden food and then poured it on the floor whilst emptying it
just to name a few 🫣
@sillyrexie
trust me, there are FAR more ppl at ur bmi who are completely bedridden u already do so much u have to put ur body through so much just to remotely function whilst practically fighting a terminal illness
ik this comes with being in an ed community but i hate watching all my moots killing themselves ur all so sweet i just wish we could all heal and live happy fulfilled lives 💔
@oddgraves
omg im glad im not the only one who was irked by this. bro I've been on forums for years, i didn't have twitter until now 😭 and hmm... pretty sure this dx does say anorexia nervosa!
@DeathlySkeletal
People glamourise big scars and stuff like that until you actually try to live a fulfilling life with scars and you see how many opportunities are taken away from you
when u were a kid, DAE used to get a bowl of icecream and like mash it up with ur spoon and mix it around until it was basically soup and eat it that way or was i just weird
imma be completely honest w yall rn
my ed has made me functionally asexual since i was 16, so ive never rly had a (consensual) sexual experience, n im afraid when i recover, i will be incredibly unexperienced n partners will look down on me for this....
does anyone relate?
i think what allows me to restrict more often than not is not allowing myself the mindset of 'i earnt this food'. i earn the privilege to NOT eat. food is never a reward, all food is a barrier to what i want to achieve
anyone else when ur upset abt something n ur scrolling ur phone n u see something funny so u smile without thinking n then u realise n u gotta force urself not to smile bc ur meant to be upset or is that just me
logging off now. thank you for everyone who's supported me whilst ive been on edtwt, ill miss y'all sm, i hope it wont be long until im back. peace and love 🫶
the appointment went as well as it could've. ive consented to the referral to inpatient but ive made it clear that im only doing it because i have no other option and I don't feel ready to make changes in the community or inpatient - they're not gonna push me to eat more as long
i kid u not i have not thought about anything else all day except food. i have literally spent the WHOLE day thinking about food, watching videos of ppl eating, making pinterest boards of food, creating lists of food i want to try. i genuinely can't focus on anything else
@starvngsof
no don't worry that's all i did last year its still anorexia you're still just as much at risk. truth is it is almost impossible to exercise on such a high cal deficit, your body just won't allow it, so it's not sustainable. i exercise but that's only cuz i eat 900+ kcal