I had some hurtful words said lastnight about when I raided out & who I raided. Just to make it clear I raid everyone from 1 viewer to 1000+ & everywhere in between. I also ask chat for suggestions & let them choose. I try to also give love back to those that have shown me love..
I went from over 1000-1200 subs to 200-300 when I announced being in a relationship. Can confirm this is true and I knew it would happen. End of day I’m happy I get to be open about my relationship 🤍 The reals one stayed & I love my community more than ever🤗
" WOMEN STREAMERS HAVE IT EASIER "
meanwhile..
Male Streamer announces relationship, engagement, marriage - GETS CHEERED ON, & CONGRATULATED.
Woman Streamer Announces The Same - Loses half her viewers & almost all her financial supporters.
👍 But, we don't talk about that.
27 as of today and had my first margarita popsicle☺️ Was such an amazing week , thanksgiving, & bday spent with loved ones 🤗 back to streaming tomorrow dolls missed y’all! 🤍
First off, people with hearts do care. Secondly, imagine calling someone a hoe for blocking a negative immature person.
I’m sorry
@Barbskiiii
you have to deal with this. Trust you aren’t alone.
#EscapefromTarkov
is a strong community & we are all here for each other.
Can not believe I hit the average mark but need the streaming days now! I am so thankful for all the love & support!
I am so so sorry I have been so sick & dealing w/ life stuff!
🤍Will be live tonight for a chill stream!🤍
Truly miss everyone & this has been pain!
Taking this year to recover & get through this hard time. Will try and stream here & there but please refrain from asking how I am doing or about life. I just care to hear about ya'll & hangout🤍 I love you all & thankful for the constant love & motivation.
#BrokenButNotDefeated
Just wanted to stop and say thank you for the 3.8k on Twitch & 1k on Twitter! A year ago I never thought I’d be here. So grateful & it’s only the beginning! More & more inspired everyday by y’all’s love & support! 🥺
#EscapefromTarkov
#twitch
I’m in an uncomfortable stage of my life where my old self is gone, and my new self isn’t fully born yet. In the midst of transformation 🤍
#Healing
#GrowingStronger
So excited to announce I am now partnered w/
@ADVANCEDgg
the best FOCUS, ENERGY, & Hydration!
Use code GODDESS30 for 30% off for 3 days!
Giving away 2x $40 OFF gift card!
To enter: Like, Retweet & tag friends for extra entries!
Ends 8/30
Winner must follow me & Advanced!
Losing family to cancer, heart disease, diabetes... and learning everything I have already learned this current semester, I've decided to look into going for a doctorate degree in medicine. I want to heal patients not treat their symptoms. I'll never be in it for the money.
I’m so sorry if I ever seem heartless. I had to overcome being mentally & physically abused for 6 years & raising a child on my own. So I’ve learned to live & let go. Life is too short. I choose happiness, every time & when I say I love you that is true & forever no matter what.
It’s so crazy how life works. Through esthetics I met a client of mine that is a professor & director of an Esports & Streaming program at Texas Tech. She reached out to me when she saw I was starting college again & invited me to the program! Literally so excited & motivated! 🥹
Gonna be a tough few years but officially enrolled as a full time student to finish my pre reqs & then go to Texas Tech next fall for my nursing & bachelors degree & finish in 2 years🙏 All while growing as a content creator & continuing my esthetic work & being a mommy☺️
#ez
😅
Constantly going up and down w/ me getting sick or taking days off but overall I'm so grateful for the support! Even when I'm low energy ya'll are still there being so supportive!
Trying to get back to longer streams but still resting for wipe so thank you all for bearing w/ me!
So nice getting to enjoy this week with my loves🤍 doing the Halloween festivities together is the best☺️
Had a great time with the family at the corn maze & got us some pumpkins 🎃 🤍
@ShotsOfVaca
He’s pretty awesome I can’t lie☺️ Officially my boyfriend and I couldn’t be happier🤍 Had the most amazing weekend with you! Already so many great memories & so many more to go! Excited to see where this takes us☺️😚
@ShotsOfVaca
Pulled 24 hours of Tarky! Streamed the good majority of it till my computer crashed lol! Just wanted to say ty for the awesome stream and support! Huge thank you to everyone for the raids!
Was so much fun & hit lvl 28🤍
Spending time w/ the kiddo so shall be back tomorrow! Muah!
I think I’m gonna have to start investing in a starting computer for him… super hard to get work done when this cutie wants to game ☺️ But I’m so proud of how fast he’s picking up playing mouse & keyboard! From Xbox to pc by 6 years old.
#legend
I keep it pinned that I work multiple jobs and full time student on top of taking care of others not just myself so people understand why I'm tired or why I can't have a set start time.
I'm exhausted, my anxiety is a constant battle, and I am trying. So please don't rush me.
I know my family doesn’t believe in me or my dreams but I do. The love I get from my community, friends, & other streamers is so insane. Just inspires & pushes me even more ☺️ Never stop grinding for what you want in life🤍 ~Live the life you love, love the life you live~ 🤟
Gonna take a couple hours before getting on for the 24 hour to just get mentally ready. The trolling & random creeps has become kinda draining. Always gonna keep a positive attitude & push through it but sometimes it gets a little overwhelming🤍
Thiccc thighs save lives! Just Goddess workin’ on the boddess😋🤍 Never miss leg & glute day🔥 My favorite day at the gym! Then finishing with abs & cardio 😚
You know I be tired and my aim be off point sometimes but damn you don’t have to come at me like that.
Lmao people in my dms be wildin 😂
Also imma hard pass on the offer 😂
Everything I do is for you🤍 Happy Birthday & Happy Valentine’s Day my love! My sweet boy turned 6 on the 11th of this month & we celebrated his bday & Valentine’s Day today! My forever Valentine, my motivation, my everything! Mommy loves you so much🤍
#ValentinesDay2022
I’m not okay. Not even close, but I know someday… somehow I will be. That’s what I spend everyday pushing for🤍 Life keeps going. Time heals even the deepest wounds and we grow & change for the better🤍 I have to believe that for more than just myself. 🤍
There is no want of personal gain from it, there is no care if I get that love back in return. It’s simply to continue the love I’ve been given to a fellow streamer. I’m nothing if it weren’t for the love I get from fellow streamers so all I care to do is send that love on.
Idk who needs to hear this but.. it doesn’t matter how many views I have. I love you and your presence means the world to me. I need you just as much as you need me. I’m always here for you on and off stream. I promise 🤍 The numbers may change but I never will🤟
Got teary eyed! Not even the finished project and it already looks sooo amazing!! Huge shoutout to my friend & mod Saycena!! I'm so thankful for all that you do!
*Sneak Peak at NEW LOGO *
So many more amazing things to come!
I love you all so much for the love & support! 🥲
NEW LOGO & PFP!
Literally so excited how everything turned out & I'm another step closer to coming out with merch! Everyday I'm so incredibly happy with the little steps forward I take to get my stream to where I would like it to be & this felt like a huge step!
#GodSquadStrong
Only a little over week back at the gym & I can see my soccer legs coming back 🦵🙌 Once I’m fully back in shape I’m definitely gonna find a soccer team🤍
#fitness
#healthygamer
#soccerchick
I would like to publicly announce that I played some solo raids and got myself over two mil! For those of you that watch me you will know how big of a deal this is! 😂
#proudmoment
Happy Mother’s Day to all the amazing mommies out there!🤍🤍 I’m taking this sweet boy to a movie & whatever else he wants to do today! Might do a late stream as well ☺️ Miss everyone so so much! 🤗🤗
#MothersDay
Was taking the night off to just chill and run some raids with
@ShotsOfVaca
. Ended up running into the goons! FINALLY GOT BIG PIPE!! Done with Stray dogs! Now just needing to unlock collector!
#EscapefromTarkov
@bstategames
Loved seeing this pop up in my memories from a few years ago. I used to wear my braids and dark lipstick everyday 😅
Hair slowly going back to my natural black color might have to bring the dark lipstick back again🤍🖤
Mornin' gamers! Omg just loaded into a scav & an airdrop fell right towards my extract so went straight to it. Got a slick , mp9 , mk17 , blackrock, ammo, & osprey! Oh and also a meisha mask for you
@therealchewski
lol
Thank you
@nikgeneburn
!
Now I cook breakfast & chill!
#EFT
I really really hate how blurry and not clear my vods are! Going back and clipping and seeing how blurry it is, is so annoying! Can anyone help me with settings! I use obs & also do i need to change game settings to help!?
About lost it when I found an Inuyasha shirt today in one of my favorite anime stores! I rarely see their merch in store so had to snag it🤍🤍
#inuyasha
#anime
Sister had her baby, Tia’s results came back negative for her cancer returning🙌🥲, finally over being sick & back in the gym. It’s been a blessed day🤍 Raids with the community tonight @ 9pm cst! My good friend
@acostaa_g20
joining to help w/ tasks! Gonna be a great night!
Every woman is a Goddess! Tonight is for you🤍 Ready for nothing but good times & positive vibes! Oh and drinks with my fellow Chadettes!
@MsDynamic_
@sp00kysquirrel
🔴LIVE NOW
Lmao I use my webcam while putting on my make up sometimes and see my mod in there adding commands. I mean a simple !wipe with the link would be nice but he decided to spice it up😂
Also if this does work def lmk!🤍
Hungout off stream today and ran into Sani while coming to pier to finish my outpost kills! That dude is a tank! Glad to have all my bosses and outpost done!
Gonna take tonight off to relax! Not feeling the best so gonna rest up! I shall be back tomorrow loves!🤍
Finally made a stream schedule! Excited to see how it goes! Definitely can do longer streams when my health allows☺️ But for now here will be my weekly schedule & of course always open for co-streams & events🤍 Love you all so much & always grateful for all the love & support!🤟
Can’t explain how much I love all the messages I’ve been getting while away. Just took some personal time & a nice little trip but will be back the 22nd & back to doing what I love most! Miss all of you so much and so sorry I’ve been insanely M.I.A but thinking of all of you🤍🤍
Alright I have finally come to the hard decision of giving up fast food for 40 days! Been cooking mostly but I have my weak moments especially gaming/streaming I doordash/uber food so much!
Going to start meal prepping more to help!🤍
Will share food I cook in discord🤍
My sons first time swimming without floaties! He swam across the whole pool! Literally so proud and so excited for this milestone 🤍🤍🤍 So so proud of my baby 🤗
It’s like we are streaming buddies ☺️ Honestly though it’s been such an amazing journey becoming apart of the Tarkov Community. I can truly say I’ve found my home🤍
@bstategames
@tarkov
#EscapefromTarkov
Lupus has been literally kicking my butt lately. Slowly trying to make changes to help but can tell it’s gonna be a process & a lot of life changes. So thankful for the amazing people in my life that have been my support system & helping me along the way🤍 Tired but so happy🤗
🤍LIVE MOEW!
Excited to be back from a fun weekend so gonna vibe out with chat tonight!
!JOIN to come play or just enjoy the show ☺️🤍
#EscapefromTarkov
@bstategames
Studying for two really big exams right now so streams for tonight & tomorrow are up in the air!
Sunday night stream for sure though w/ my beautiful girlies
@TayZgg
&
@sp00kysquirrel
! So I absolutely can’t wait for that!!
Happy Friday Gamers🤍 Hope you all are doing amazing!
No idea when I hit max endurance and strength but I'm stoked! Had too much fun running a zabralo & altyn yesterday so definitely shall be running that a lot more for fun! Will post Tiktok here soon of my running as tank experience!
#EscapefromTarkov
@bstategames
Anime & Chill kinda day ☺️ Might do a degen stream and do some more tarky taskin’🤍 Got some new emotes too I can’t wait to share! For those that know I’m an interchange lover, you’ll understand how much I love this emote!
#EscapefromTarkov
@bstategames
Had a rather long but good day! Fundraiser/Easter Egg hunt at the kiddos school then work & errands/grocery shopping! I’m kinda whooped. Might rest & take the night off or do a late stream🤍 will definitely let everyone know☺️🤟
Ate a healthy breakfast (eggs & turkey bacon) with a green tea! Then went to the gym🤍 feels so good! Finally the sun is out so I’ll be able to go on my daily walks again! ☺️ Super motivated to getting back in shape!
#Day1
Insane stream back lastnight! I’ll never be able to get over the love & support you all give me🤍
TY to everyone that was able to stop by & show love! I’m truly blessed🙌
Huge thank you to
@ICrawbaby
&
@Rallatar
for the raids! I appreciate y’all so much for spreading the love!