planning to get to 61lbs/27.7kgs (bmi10) by October 10th (142 days from now)
9hrs of marching band practice, 5 days a week and a 400-550cal deficit are gonna be my bsfs
fat, has an ed, suicidal, self harms, smokes, vapes, broke, ugly, single, constantly craving validation, insomniac, autistic, has ADHD, severe depression and anxiety
i need a fucking hobby wtf
TW: ed + sh || if you are/trying to recover.. DNI (please) || dont come and say “you’ll regret when you’re older” i might not make it to older *\(^o^)/*
I’m not hungry, I’m just bored
I’m not hungry, I’m just bored
I’m not hungry, I’m just bored
I’m not hungry, I’m just bored
I’m not hungry, I’m just bored
I’m not hungry, I’m just bored
I’m not hungry, I’m just bored
I’m not hungry, I’m just bored
I’m not hungry, I’m just bored
TMI 😭
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I need to go to the hospital
WHY IS THERE A SOLID BUMP ON MY FUCKING VULVA THATS STARTING TO SPREAD PAIN DOWN MY THIGH??? BUT IF I GO THEN THE DOCTOR WILL SEE MY CUTS AND TELL MY MOM WHAT DO I DOOOOOO 😭😭
Also! 9. If you binge, DO NOT FAST. You will fuck up your metabolism and your calories planner. I keep my cals under 800 so I continue to follow my calorie planner (I thought about that just now 😭😭)
3. If you dont know the calories, DONT EAT IT!! (This is REALLY easy for me because i use chronometer and it already has foods with its calories in it)