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she/her • 24 • avid proponent of the hot girl walk™

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laila ⊹
24 days
shout out to running for the toned arms
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2 years
tw: body✔️ hello hipbones??¿
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you can always count on me for drunk bar bathroom body checks🫶
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3 years
tl goin crazy today
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2 years
this information just ruined my night
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@xnconscious
laila ⊹
2 years
may vs today a small difference is still a difference!!
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@xnconscious
laila ⊹
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may 2024 - july 2024 (14lb difference)
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@xnconscious
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2 years
quitting my job to focus on my eating disorder and exercise addiction. it’s called self love
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@xnconscious
laila ⊹
2 years
never thought i’d say this but i need to lose my ass
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@xnconscious
laila ⊹
2 years
did anyone else get super veiny once they lost weight?? the veins in my hands are bulging 24/7
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@xnconscious
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2 years
haven’t done a single ab exercise in months
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@xnconscious
laila ⊹
2 years
everyone else on here is so tiny i feel like a fraud
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@xnconscious
laila ⊹
19 days
someone needs to convince me not to get my belly button pierced
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laila ⊹
2 years
tw nsfw taking drunk pics and can’t decide if i am indifferent or hate the outcome but definitely know i’m not happy!
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2 years
am i starting to get *the* belly button or am i delusional
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5 years
sorry babe, the oversized sweatshirt stays ON during sex
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20 days
been a while since i checked my back
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2 years
nothing more triggering than being called “healthy” white you’re actively starving and overexercising to the point of physical and mental exhaustion
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laila ⊹
2 years
these legs are holding back all of my progress
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@xnconscious
laila ⊹
5 years
“you look healthy” “you’re just thicc” “skinny doesn’t even look good”
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laila ⊹
2 years
body✔️’s stay looking the same week to week
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2 years
okay new rule, no more “how i lost __kg in __weeks” threads UNLESS it’s completely unique bc i’m tired of seeing “i worked out, drank water, & stayed under my daily calorie limit” i need one that’s like “i ripped out pages of my book as i read them and ate them as a snack”
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laila ⊹
5 years
your weight does NOT equal your worth!!! ⁽ᵉˣᶜᵉᵖᵗ ᶦⁿ ᵐʸ ᶜᵃˢᵉ⁾
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laila ⊹
2 years
ill never be thinspo so i’ll settle for fitspo at this point
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@xnconscious
laila ⊹
21 days
lake day 🌿🦋🌾
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@xnconscious
laila ⊹
2 years
finally replaced my uggs from middle school for these babies 🥰
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@xnconscious
laila ⊹
5 years
i keep gaining weight because i see that I’ve gained weight and get depressed and unmotivated
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laila ⊹
13 days
why have i not worn this bikini yet this year i need more pink in my life
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laila ⊹
5 years
my ed: restrict, workout, stay consistent and you’ll lose weight me:
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chrissy teigen
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I am so stupid and so tired please stop expecting things from me
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5 years
I wish I met someone who’s as loyal to me as my inner thigh fat is
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5 years
how many times have you restarted your fast this week? me:
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@xnconscious
laila ⊹
2 years
not feeling completely awful about these
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laila ⊹
2 years
@softandromeda this is good info thank you!! i wasn’t planning on cutting it out bc it’s the only non dairy substitute i enjoy and i rarely drink it anyway, but it shocked me when i saw that on my fyp
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5 years
ed twt is like being in kindergarten again just like ‘hey you’re pretty do you wanna be friends?’ ‘yes!’ ‘cool, I love you with my whole heart!’
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laila ⊹
5 years
god really said figure it out babe when he gave me a sweet tooth and an eating disorder
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5 years
having an ed is like when you get a rock stuck in your shoe... you can try to ignore it but subconsciously it’s the only thing you can think about
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5 years
“you’re not fat, you look healthy!!!”
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5 years
bulimics who can purge peanut butter are stronger than the marines
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laila ⊹
5 years
using the phrase “disordered eating” as opposed to eating disorder to downplay its severity so people don’t worry
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laila ⊹
2 years
upped my intake which has given me more energy to go on longer runs more frequently and i’m kinda obsessed with the results so far my waist is looking not terrible...,
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laila ⊹
5 years
my ed and body dysmorphia coming for me after ive had a good day
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laila ⊹
5 years
okay i NEED to recover. im ruining my body, my mental health, my relationships. i can’t live this life anymore this ends today
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laila ⊹
2 years
wait this color on me is actually really nice??
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laila ⊹
3 years
if you reply with this just know I’m unliking your original tweet immediately
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laila ⊹
2 years
body✔️’s after successfully achieving 20+ miles two days in a row
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laila ⊹
5 years
one thing people don’t talk a lot about is the guilt of having a mental illness.. the constant train of thought that you’re a burden to your loved ones and they’d 100% be better off without you. it really takes a toll bc it’s almost impossible to reason that you’re wrong
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laila ⊹
5 years
everyone who cares me, about me asking isolating myself me to stop self and wanting my sabotaging & instead ed to get practice self-love worse until and pursue my passions it kills me
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22 days
this is insane someone stand guard while i crawl into a hole for an immeasurable amount of time
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5 years
don’t get me wrong i LOVE seeing the number on the scale get lower and lower but the thing i crave most is the feeling of being tiny... i want to take up as little space as possible and live a small and dainty life
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5 years
I hate my body more than I can put into words. like im absolutely disgusting I don’t want anyone to have to see me I just want to crawl in a hole and hide away
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@xnconscious
laila ⊹
3 years
nobody got me like he got me
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laila ⊹
5 years
so walden farms has salad dressings, nut and fruit spreads, coffee creamers and more that are all ZERO calories and i feel like i just found the holy grail
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laila ⊹
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2 years
things are finally starting to feel right in my life... it’s exciting to be hopeful waking up every day :)
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2 years
thank god i didn’t kill myself in 2017, i wouldn’t have been able to see myself lose and gain the same 10 pounds every few months🤩
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5 years
this isn’t ed related its just really f*cking cute
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5 years
didn’t realize how selfish this eating disorder has made me until i thought about how many times ive put food before my boyfriend/sister/friends. i need to work on my priorities
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5 years
someone tell me why i only draw dogs pls n thx
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2 years
the fit the fitbit
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5 years
hailey pandolfi
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5 years
i never learned “mindful eating” it was eat everything on your plate and hey there’s extras for seconds and you exercised too don’t forget so here’s more food
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laila ⊹
2 years
oh... oh wow🤭
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laila ⊹
2 years
the first 15 days of 2023 are going swimmingly
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laila ⊹
3 years
does anyone else see the trend of fat people practicing “intuitive eating” but it’s really just them giving themselves an excuse to indulge in every craving bc “their body must be needing it”
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5 years
healthy wendys frosty !!! 3/4 cup almond milk 1/2 tsp vanilla 2 cups ice cubes 2 tbsp unsweetened cocoa powder 1/3 banana ✨125 calorie craving curbing treat✨
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5 years
body check today, felt cute might delete later✨
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2 years
thinkin’ about this dinner i made a few weeks ago
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15 days
i’ve lost 12 pounds in a month and am at a new lw, i wonder how long i can keep this up
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2 years
first eats of the day after 8 mile run + 5 mile walk and i couldn’t be happier
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laila ⊹
5 years
gooseberry intimates can take all my money
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2 years
insert kourtney’s “i can’t eat it but how exciting is it to smell it” gif here
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2 years
rt if you have a waist as small or smaller than the average 7 year old
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@st_rubyy it’s the only thing that gives me consistent results. happy it works for you too! 💗
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5 years
I hate that as a kid it was instilled in me that food is a reward for good behavior like ??? good grades, let’s go get ice cream! did well in a sports game, fast food here we come! now every time something good happens I immediately want to celebrate w food UGH
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@xnconscious
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2 years
because ed’s are mental disorders that ruin lives and aren’t diets based solely on weight loss 👍
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2 years
feeling massive after eating sweets the past two days🥲 calling them metabolism days so i don’t completely spiral
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laila ⊹
5 years
hey quick question: why do doctors need my height and weight at every single appointment?? 1. i can assure you I didn’t grow 2. now the whole appointment im just going to be trying to see my weight you wrote down
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2 years
new workout thread because my other one is extremely disorganized and i hit 50 days (just going to continue from there though) 🤍
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5 years
exercise? weight gain. don’t exercise? weight gain. low restrict? weight gain. high restrict? weight gain. my body is such a fickle bitch, just tell me what you want already
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laila ⊹
5 years
allana just told me to shut my fat whore mouth
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3 years
@cvlories current average for November and I still hit 10k on my rest days lol it’s really not hard when you make it a priority
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this. always.
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