I wanted to say I will be leaving this account or at least deactivating for a very long time. This decision has been something I've been contemplating for not only months but years. I'm making my apology accessible through sharing this link which can be viewed -

@loustatschild I also wanted to add since you mentioned this being my past, but it is also my present. Unfortunately I’m still stuck in an abusive situation with this person. Just to provide more insight.

@loustatschild - internalized. I know I’m not immune to bigotry and unfortunately it takes a lot of work and time to undo such things, but i’m willing to put in the work and time, accept any guidance and criticism.

@loustatschild and I know only saying it isn’t proof of change, but if i’m allowed i’m ready to prove the change in myself.

- and being a victim of such a thing doesn’t mean I can’t perpetuate it but in all of these cases, its true that i had never wanted to cause any harm.

If you are someone who wants to keep in touch with me regardless of the reason, feel free to DM me. I'll be here for at least a day because I still want my apology to reach others and sort out some final things.

@thisredwine Hi, I’m sorry I’ll leave you alone after this, but I did dm you a direct apology and there’s one here. I know this is not enough and I need to reflect a change through my actions moving forward, unfortunately that’s only something I can do in time, so i’m offering the most i can

@stankyoongz I fully understand if you don’t accept my apology and don’t wish to entertain it. I respect your decision, and you’re not required to read my apology whatsoever, but I would still appreciate it if you do.

@utyarui @LDPDL666 @Droltafangs And ofc course this conversation has provided me with the insight of growing my personal community to further include more black people who can give diverse insights.