Anyone with a brain knows this but I’m going to say this, trans people aren’t harassing terfs we are defending ourselves. We aren’t in your faces, you are in ours, what was we going to do? let you abuse us and call us groomers and rapists, and just sit there and take it. Fuck you
THREAD
I get told becoming trans is conversion therapy for gay people by people who have no idea what they are talking about. Being trans has nothing to do with sexuality which Gender Crits keep bringing up constantly.
I am so, so sorry to the LGBTQ+ community and all our supporters who are getting dragged into the hate my tweet has attracted.
I just want you to know, I love you all.
Because I try to follow a lot of trans people so I can get a community going. My timeline now is literally 99.9% just beautiful trans women now. Is this what a chaser see's every time they open Twitter.
They have no idea what it is like waking up every morning hating the way you looked. I tried so hard to like myself and failed. Hearing my singing voice (which was the only thing I was proud of) get deeper which depressed me so hard I stopped singing and at school stopped talking
Finally to any Gender Crit or Terfs reading. The fact you clueless arseholes are still hating us. Is the reason so many LGBTQ+ holidays exist so maybe if you don't want it shoved in your faces so much. Then don't be a C**t.
So many new trans people visiting my profile thanks to my latest tweet and I’m trying to follow as many as I can as I want to connect with as many trans people as possible. Hard to keep up, if I haven’t followed you back or if you want to be mutuals can you respond here please ♥️
Going through the emotions every day grinding my school life with no care on my future. Picking random classes I didn't care about because I didn't care what I did. Then when I left school separated myself from society in my room waiting for death. Praying it will come.
That is why I transitioned, nothing about sexuality, yet Gender Crits always say people transition for sexual reasons. It is also why I hate the Cass report so much. It is making a situation worse and creating more people like me, people who are too depressed to live their lives.
I heard what you had to say and I heard enough to prove that you are clueless about anything related to trans people. To every LGBTQ+ person reading this. I love you and Happy International Day Against Homophobia, Biphobia and Transphobia.
They say, the cass report is there so people aren't rushed into transitioning. How can they say that when there is 6 year wait for a first appointment. Now thanks to the cass report it is even worse, I don't want people to waste their lives waiting like I did. It's not fair.
So to every Gender Crit on this site, my pity well is bone dry for you at the moment. You have no right to say anything about trans people. Because you have no idea what we went through to be happy. I am not going to argue with you anymore I am just going to block you.
I let the fear of prejudice from other people scare me into not transitioning even scared me talking about it openly. Until I hit 30 and I didn't care about the hate anymore. I felt like I had to transition for the good of my mental health.
I couldn't do anything about my voice but at least there was something about me I liked after all those years. Being seen as Rachel by my old friends made me so happy it was like I started my life all over again.
What is worse I knew why I was depressed from the age of 14. I wanted to transition. Felt like after hitting puberty and the only thing I liked about myself (my voice) went away I felt like my life was already over.
I came out and doing DIY HRT because my doctor put me on a 6 year waiting list in London rather than the one closer to me in Nottingham. Now despite being fatter I am now really happy about my body. I started liking things about me again.
Fast forward 10 years later. I tried losing weight by eating only 200 calories a day and burning 400 on an exercise bike not caring about the consequence. Trying to get a body I wanted but to no avail. I still wasn't happy even after losing 40kg.
OMG Gender GP actually did it, they just sent me to treatment recommendation to give to my GP.
One of the nurses at my GP agreed to shared care if I sent over a treatment recommendation.
There is still hope.
So, today I went up Wolverhampton to buy girls clothes and jewellery but I was so scared to buy any in the end. Thinking the day was a failure I came home sad. When I told my mum what happened. She went up stairs and brought down her old jewellery box.
Libs of TikTok when they research and show happy trans people and repost about how sad they are despite the only sad people are her followers who’s opinion mean fuck all.
So if all goes as planned I would be prescribed 50mg of Spironolactone. Is this enough to lower T levels?
My t levels currently are 4.4 nmol/l (without a blocker), also on low estogen at 319 pmol/l
I had posted a lot about being trans lately on my timeline so I am going to take a break from that and show you my doggo who has had his hair cut this morning.
Ok, just found out my Amazon account is linked to my mums computer and she found something in my basket that I got to be honest didn't want her to see, now its just awkward.
Positive news today just ordered 3 months of patches and they weren’t rejected/refunded and have been shipped out means I got in total 5 months worth of 100mcg patches.
Kinda wish I can take a picture of me without my hat, but during an attack 4 years ago my entire fringe was pulled out as they threw me into a wall by my hair. Years later it still hasn't grown back. I don't know what to do to regrow it.
Really does not help the gender dysphoria
One day I hope I get to be big enough for
@F1NN5TER
to come to Wolverhampton to help me do my make up and go shopping for clothes with me. A girl can dream though.
Before I transitioned I suffered for 15 years with depression which did temporarily paused my life at an early age. I had thoughts about suicide many times, and was merely just existing. But I hung on in the hopes that one day I will have the courage to come out to people. (1/2)
I mean I didn't have to run the poll didn't I, that was obvious. Anyway here you go, I will upload one when I got all the accessories. Need a camera person though so I can get my face in shot.
So when the maid dress got delivered I wore it and took a picture with it on and sent it to some friends in my DM's Despite not having my face or accessories in shot should I post the picture?
If I get to 1000 followers before my birthday I will start making Youtube videos a lot more regularly or start an only fans.
Your choice. (watch me lose everyone now lol)
I might just cut my losses with GenderGP and focus on DIY as they have charged me close to £400 and I got nothing from them and now they are trying to charge another £30 for a subscription I already paid, the problem was solved but it looks like suddenly a new problem appeared.
All booked in to see my gp tonight, she has received my treatment recommendation and I got a very late appointment at 7pm tonight to talk it through. Never had an appointment that late before.
Despite having short hair and only being on estrogen 3 months I am impressed with the changes to my face, dunno if it is a feminine face but for some reason I am not scared to show my face without the wig and make up anymore.
I am going to bed now, but I want to leave you with this.
I get told by multiple people in the anonymous comments that they have a crush on me for a laugh. Well allow me to return the favour. I do have a crush on someone, and it is someone I interact with on twitter.
Good Night
Decided to get the old sketch pad out and draw again since it’s been a while. I am getting way to rusty better keep practicing to get back to my best. Videl my first crush though I dunno if I had a crush on her or wanted to be her. Love her voice actress too.
@karaedwards
FINAL COUNSILLING SESSION THOUGHTS THREAD
Just had my final counselling session and it got very heavy, especially towards the end to the point of tears, but it did help me reflect on a few key moments over the last 5 months. (1/8)
We do not choose to be trans and we shouldn’t be forced or coerced into keeping quiet, our voice should be heard by our parent, family and friends. Support trans kids, it’s simple, xx
If I get to 1000 followers before my birthday I will start making Youtube videos a lot more regularly or start an only fans.
Your choice. (watch me lose everyone now lol)
Another Thread
It’s not going to get better in the uk is it? I wanted to think so but lately my hope has been dwindling. How can people who have no experience or expertise in trans people have so big a voice on issues that relate to us yet trans people don’t.
When she explained what it was she said "I want you to have this, this is the jewellery my mum left me when she passed away. She said she's giving me this as I needed cheering up.
After all the stuff this morning with GenderGP and the failure to find a hair transplant place. I had a really crap day.
As stupid as this may sound the back and forth between
@NerdyTrans
and I were literally the only good things to come out of today.
I need a hug.
Ok, what weird nazi, racist, paedophilic, homophobic, transphobic and/or misogynistic shit did Elon Musk and his army of incels like that he wants to hide this time.
Such creepy bastards, they must have said/done something that needed hiding.
UPDATE
I have to wait till the 22nd to call my GP again so they can finalise the shared care agreement, as they want to make sure everything is checked and in order but they did put 3 months or Evorel 100 patches and 3 months 50mg of Spironolactone on my prescriptions list.
All booked in to see my gp tonight, she has received my treatment recommendation and I got a very late appointment at 7pm tonight to talk it through. Never had an appointment that late before.
So I promised someone I would share this for
#tummytuesday
so here it is. I am chubby but I promise I am just storing my fat for the hrt to take it to my breasts and hips.
Since I was 10 I always wondered if I was allowed to dress as a Disney princess who would I pick. A question I still ask myself today, the only difference is my dad can't stop me now.
So many beautiful dresses to choose from.
Not looking good for shared care, got a call from the GP and they said to set it up they want to contact GenderGP.
But because I don't have an email or number to contact them, its very tricky. She is talking to the doctor to see what they can do but it sounds like its bad news.
Ok I am 35 subscribers away from 500. I did say if I hit 500 by midnight tonight (It is currently 8:05pm) I will upload a picture of me in a maid outfit to celebrate.
I had posted a lot about being trans lately on my timeline so I am going to take a break from that and show you my doggo who has had his hair cut this morning.
I should have just kept blocking Gender Crits on sight, they are all braindead and its not good for my mood swings.
Why do I have to argue about my own existence and my own experience to people who know fuck all about either of those things and are just motivated by hate.
Also I would express my love and gratitude for everyone who supports the LGBTQ+ community which is probably more that the amount of people that hate us. I wish I can say this to your face but I can't so this is the next best thing.
I love you ❤️
(8/8)
If I get to 1000 followers before my birthday I will start making Youtube videos a lot more regularly or start an only fans.
Your choice. (watch me lose everyone now lol)
Gender crits need to locked away in insane asylums they are insane and a danger to actual people, especially children.
How can creating people just for the pleasure of torturing them not a red flag. We would send a child to therapy and put them meds if they did or thought this.
ANOTHER THREAD (SORRY)
Has there every been a moment in a terfs life, where they actually cared about a child's wellbeing.
The way they talk about children in general is disgusting, the way they advocate about isolating a child from society (1/5)
I'm not sure if my dad supports me at all, he's moaning because I have been coming out to people as trans and then saying "why couldn't you have kept it to yourself"
When he said he supported me I guess he meant, he would support me as long as I stayed in the closet.
@itssamanthaaaa_
Its always the people it doesn't effect and motivated by hate cheering, yet 99% of the people it effects and the people who know what those people are going through are saddened and disgusted.
Yet they think they are the ones being silenced and cancelled.
First about blood tests, my old GP would only test for estrogen and I had to have a letter to say why I needed one, while this GP is now testing for Testosterone as well. Not only that they are going to test for everything so I can be prescribed Spiro if I need a t blocker.
So I am going to bed now, if you want me to follow you back can you message under this tweet so its easy to look for you in the morning.
Thank you and good night.
I'm not allowed to reply, but I want you to know how happy I am that you are fighting for so many people. I know how hard that is, and I too will keep fighting as much as I can, for as long as I can. 🩷
The funny thing is I was going to add if I get to 400 by the end of the day I will pose for a picture in a maid/ cat maid outfit but forgot to add it. Oh well.
Next they also immediately agreed to shared care meaning I can send the prescription over to my new GP so they can prescribe it to me. So my hormones will be cheaper.
The only reason I want to keep my British citizenship is the incredible small possibility of doing something amazing and get on the honours list to be called a "Dame" that is all.
Dame Rachel Dempsey.
As a kid when I had my first female friend at 4 my parents would immediately say she was my girlfriend and say she would make an beautiful bride but after looking up what a bride was, I asked my mum would I make a beautiful bride too and she just laughed and said don't be silly.
BTW if you are new and don't know why I want a hair transplant, Group of people near where I live tried to rob me, I had nothing, so they grabbed me by the hair and threw me against a wall a kicked me. Ripping my entire fringe off in the process. 4 years later hasn't grown back.
Ok, I am going to be honest, because I am desperate. If I find a place to do a hair transplant near me to fix the hair that got ripped out, and get a quote and its around £5-8k would you hate me if I set up a go fund me.
2nd time going into a video call in full make up, this time with a lot more people present (a total of 22). It was fun. Nerve-wracking but had so much support. Now I just need a eyelash curler as I am annoyed my eyelashes keep pointing outwards and not curling upward.
Gamers how old are you?
I am 30, but due to 10 years of depression I only have the life experience of someone who is 21, and possibly the mentality of someone even younger.
Finally they booked an appointment with the doctor to help me go from the London GIC which has a 6 year waiting list to the Nottingham one which is around half the time since it is my local clinic. Saying they will try and put me on it on Tuesday 28th.
They also changed my name to Mx Rachel Dempsey in the patient form while my old GP wouldn't unless it was a legal name change which my old GP said I needed to do so.
I can't stop crying, I have done something today that I never thought I would ever do and that I wanted to do for 10 years.
I came out to my mother and she accepted me. I never thought this day would come in my life.
Even as I type this it is making me cry even harder.