I swear between all the bullshit, and just toxic ass noise and drama we forget why we’re even here in RP.
We’re here to write fucking stories, events, connect with other creatives. We are grown ass people, this place shouldn’t be adding stress or filled with drama.
Friends that understand life can get busy, and sometimes we can be mentally drained, and this can last for months, and don’t hold it against you when sometimes you don’t talk to them in this time, but then feels like nothing has changed when you feel yourself again. The best.
Damn I miss fucking creating with someone where the bond and chemistry is fucking off the charts. Best feeling. Basically saying what the other is thinking, and letting stories flow effortlessly.
And just fucking building worlds and stories and characters. All of it.
Sometimes you decide to write with someone here, and a connection grows more intensely than you ever fucking thought, and everything given to your storylines pulls you both in with an intense passion.
But then you connect in general, a fucking consuming chemistry that ••
Can we all just agree there’s no rules to this RP shit?
If you want to write in DMs, write in fuckin DMs.
If you want to write on the TL, go for it!
If you just want to banter, banter away!
If you just want to write solos? Write solos!
Want to SL with others? Sure!
••
Deep conversations about life, death, books, music, movies, space, conspiracies, true crime, aliens, etc. Paired with just dirty, filthy, carnal, hungry sex >>>>>>>
becomes undeniable. It’s crazy. It’s crazy how much we can connect here, and how much more there is when you create together, you give a piece of yourself to that person.
Sometimes it ends, and you’ll always know that piece will be with them and vice versa. I’ll always ••
This place is what you make of it, who you keep around, and what you give your energy to. Remember that.
You have control over your time here, this place does not control your time.
I lost my grandfather yesterday morning, the eldest member of our family, and what a fucking life he lived. I can only hope I can live half a life as full and long.
RIP Grandpa 🙏🏽🩶
I’ll be around later, just a bit more time.
Is anyone else tired of how insanely negative everything about the world and society has felt ALL FUCKING YEAR?!
I worry for my fellow mental health strugglers. Not even a week being back on social media and listening to the news and feeling like I need to go off the grid again.
hold onto that. I’ll never look back negatively because all of it was so fucking worth it. The love that grew from it that’ll never fade, the stories, the memories, small moments, all of it.
That’s what it’s all about. Especially here when it comes to being creative with ••
I feel like being here shouldn’t be fucking stressful. If I take a minute to reply to you? I’m sorry. If I don’t read your shit right away? I’m sorry. If I read someone else’s solo first? My bad.
But I’m going to need some patience right now. This shouldn’t be stressful. ••
someone and just connecting on so many different levels.
Some laugh when people lose their mind over “virtual dick and pussy” but sometimes there’s reasons behind the madness. There are connections there, and heart.
Anyway. Just some introspection. A vent I needed to make.
Do whatever the fuck it is you want to do. Whatever makes you want to be here, and whatever makes you happy.
Fuck allll the rest.
Anyway. Thanks for coming to my random ass TEDTalk.
Just don’t be a shitty person.
PSA: Just because we don’t talk everyday, or I’m not up your ass, or I don’t show love in the ways you do does not mean I don’t care for you, or love you as a friend.
We all show love in different ways, and I will never be the up your ass type of friend
I will disappear ••
Here’s the thing about me as a friend. I will never be the type to love bomb, openly obsess and kiss ass, it’s not my style. I won’t be tagging you in shit daily, or weekly, or even monthly. And I won’t put on a fake act just to agree with everything.
But, I will be there ••
I think my biggest thing is how fucking hard headed and stubborn I am. Or maybe I just stick by my word.
I’ll forgive, but never fucking forget. I’ll never turn my back on my own morals and character just for friendships and popularity. Fuck that.
And if I end up looking ••
Honestly if you’ve had a “goodbye RP” tweet more than twice, and have come back both times, just know no one believes you when you say it again.
If all you need is a break, take it and come back. And if you don’t, you don’t.
I’ll give people benefit of doubt the first time.
So, last week I decided I've had enough of this career path, and my job, and informed them that by the end of the year my time there is done.
I'll be going back to school full time, as long as I get accepted into this program, for a full career change. Wish me luck.
and there will be days we don’t talk beyond a hi or even that.
We are still friends. I still love you. We just all have busy lives and cannot keep up with everyone’s energy at all times.
Don’t take my silence as anything beyond me being busy, or dealing with my ••
own life and issues.
End of the day, I will still be here when you need me, and I will always come and find you and check in randomly, but please don’t think because we don’t talk at all times that I don’t care.
We’re all doing our best. And we all love different. Kbye.
for you any fuckin time you need me. I will lend my ear when you need it. I will give advice when you need it. I will have your back when it’s deserved and warranted.
Just because I don’t show it and shout it off mountain tops doesn’t mean I don’t have love for you or care ••
I’m not ignoring anyone. I’m not hating anyone. I’m working through things. And not just RP things. So give me some patience.
I will reply when I can and have the energy. If I said I’m going to read your stuff, I will. And it’s not that I don’t care about anyone, I ••
I trust about 5% of the people I talk to now days. My trust issues are heavy, but there’s reasons I have them.
But sometimes I wish I never did cause I shut out so many people because of it.
because that just isn’t true. I love my people and will go to fuckin war for them. Those true and few know this.
Just a vent because I feel people misunderstand me here, and possibly have even pulled away because of it.
fucking care about those I consider my friends, and I’ll be better at showing it soon, but right now I just need patience.
And again, not because of RP things so let’s not assume anything either. Dealing with RL shit. That’s it.
Shouldn’t even have to post this.
or coming across like an asshole for it? It is what it is.
But you break through all that you’ll have the realest friend.
Also, I enjoy my anti-social social club.
I feel like people put these expectations on who they think you should be with this image they construct of you in their own mind, people who barely know you and speak to you. Then when you don’t live up to these expectations, because we grow and evolve and change as is ••
I need to write. I need to sit down and write these stories and solos that are in my head. They need to get out already. It’s been too fucking long since I’ve sat down and written a story, feel like I’ve just lost my way for a while.
Soon, soon. I’ll keep telling myself that.
Why do people feel this need to go after people who are mated, or flirt with those mated exclusively. That shit is loser behavior and loser energy.
You guys have never been smacked in the fuckin mouth and it shows.
People complaining about others writing about something that they thought was offensive?
Just don’t read it?? There have been worse on tv shows and movies. People write what they want, and sometimes it’s dark, and that’s fine as long as it flows with the story.
But this ••
Too much shit I scroll past is fuckin comical, truly. Stop giving the wrong people the attention they crave. There’s more to being a man than 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 every fucking girl wants you and getting your dick wet. Half the time it’s fucking cringe to watch the act anyway.
Do you ever stop and think about how crazy it is that we exist, and that the fact we actually exist and the universe exists is insanity.
Or like…how space is just infinite, and it just exists. And it just kinda, came to be from nothing?
I’m not even high…yet
It’s sad because so many of us come here for a form of escape from everyday stress, escape from everyday RL that affects our mental state enough.
So many come here hoping for a safe space to create and be themselves fully through characters, worlds, and words. For people ••
I love history. I love looking at art works from historical times and artworks depicting historical times.
I love imagining the world back then, walking and living in the moment in time and creating stories in my mind of how those lives must’ve been lived.
I love seeing ••
Reposting only because you shouldn’t have to lose yourself in someone, because they would take you for who you are, as is. And then through them discover different parts of yourself that you wouldn’t otherwise.
to take advantage of vulnerability, to take advantage of those who don’t know better, and to manipulate them? Fucking disgusting.
Everyone has their own demons they battle, don’t be another monster in their story. We can all do better, myself included, and we need to ••
Find you someone who is patient with all your moods and phases. Who will sit there, even if it’s in silence, with you as you get through what you need.
It feels good knowing I have that here.
If you feel some type of way about me, and are assuming to know any fucking thing bout what I’m going through, and how I’m dealing, but you don’t even talk to me, or don’t even know me? Kindly stfu.
If you want to listen to the he said, she said about me, without ••
There are some topics you can get me talking about that I will not shut the fuck up about, but those are my favorite conversations, and when someone matches that passion, it is simply *chefs kiss*.
And I’m off to spend nights under stars, lost in the nature of National Parks for a few days before soaking in a few days of beaches and adventures one final time before fully embracing Fall.
I’ll be back, refreshed, and ready to create worlds.
I’ll miss you
@OfTheDahlia
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This is also why I'm bout to be really fucking busy. I haven't studied in FOREVER, and I just started to study for the entrance exam this week and already feel lost.
Fml.
If I don't get into the program? There is a Plan B. But we won't speak of that yet.
part of your life where you need to live up to these expectations of people who are just your friends and should accept your highs and lows, and shifts, as long as it isn’t harmful in anyway.
Anyway. Random ass thought of the day. Enjoy.
human nature, you’re labeled fake.
Meanwhile this image constructed of you is through other peoples opinions and friendships with you, which is usually unique in itself.
So let people be who they are without expectations because a friendship shouldn’t be some stressful ••
Had a few stagnant months here, RL became a lot, and only 2-3 people know the extent of that. I’ll leave that at that
But, with 2023, muse seems to be returning. I’m excited to write again, and the ideas I have can finally all come to life, and have already begun to.
Can’t •
Thankful for all those here I consider family, and who have stuck with me through my lows and highs. Make this place worth it. You know who you are.
And thankful for everyone I’ve gained as a friend throughout this year as well.
Time to go gain 35 pounds.
PSA: If I haven’t seemed myself lately, or I’ve seemed quiet, terrible at DMs, or just anything in general, it’s because RL has just been fucking stressful for a while now.
Only a few people know this but by the end of September I’ll actually be stepping away from this ••
Everyday is a battle with demons that live in my head, battles kept private and unspoken of. Lately I’ve managed really well to keep the demons at bay.
Some days are better, just as some months are better.
But I will celebrate that it’s been more victories than not lately.
Time to roll one up and celebrate everything about this motherfucking week.
Sometimes the universe works in crazy mysterious ways, and sets a path for you.
Maybe it’s just me, but the vibes around here have been fucking weird and off as fuck lately.
I don’t know what’s going on, but hopefully this is just a phase that passes because what the fuck. My trust levels are at all time lows and my walls are at all time highs.
•• talking to me? Please do me a favor and go ahead and believe it then. But don’t ever smile to my face if it’s the complete opposite behind my back.
I know my truth, and I don’t need any snakes in my circle.
I’ll return to reading soon, but now I got some writing to do in a few different places and I am fucking excited.
Fun things are coming to a TL near you soon. [Smiling contently at my manageable list of writing that’s needs to be done.]
changes. It’s the “friends” calling them out in air tweets instead of saying “hey I feel pushed aside suddenly can we work on this?”
But fuck being a grown up and mature. Amirite??????
Thanks for listening to my TEDtalk.
MORE PEOPLE NEED TO WATCH THE BEAR. THIS SEASON IS SO FUCKING GOOD. WHAT. THE. FUCK.
Sorry, the episode I just watched, the past 2 episodes have been so god damn good. Everyone needs to watch this show.
whole telling people what they can and can’t write ain’t it. If it offends you, block, and don’t read it.
We can’t live in a bubble trying to protect everyone from everything. We all express our creativity in our own ways.
Let’s not shame people for actually writing.
Kurt Cobain’s daughter, Frances Bean Cobain, and Tony Hawk’s son, Riley Hawk, announce they have welcomed their first child together.
A boy named Ronin Walker Cobain Hawk.
I need a night of writing.
Troy is due for his flashback solo. Then it’s time to decide what accounts are being flipped for some new ideas, and what stories need some attention.
Time to dive back into that creative grind.
I want a SL set in civil war era.
A SL about haunted things set in Savannah.
I want to use these FCs I been meaning to. (that list is pretty solid)
Also want a medieval SL
Greek myth.
And a random ass fantasy one
My cult fictional town conspiracy style SL
Etc. Etc. . .
This next story will produce 4-5 new accounts and be fucking intense, filled with a ton of depth, and my favorite kind of world building.
Still fleshing it all out but I’m excited.