my mom just whispered to her sister with a smile “this is why i live going out hes eating well” idk wether to think thats sweet or if im eating too much
oh fuck uhh
clover
basil
curse
star
tomie
kuku
natalie
alex
elaina ? elina (I KNOW THE PFP NOT NAMES)
phantom
melo
mina
bunny
dara
chat imma be real i remember u guys by pfp and not by name
cooked some breakfast, ate out w family, ate lots of snacks, got froyo and ate cake !!! didnt think too much abt numbers (okay maybe a bit) but ive never been this excited abt my bday in a while so today was really nice :] !!
semi recovering ??? not counting cals ?? i was gonna say yesterday seemed so easy but now all i wanna do is starve n bash my head against the concrete
anyways yeah were going out later and im losing my fucking mind
i keep thinking im gettibg better but then see a friend tell a gc they havent ate anything since 6am and cant have food until 9pm when i sent a pic when i was in a cafe n now im overthinking n feel horrible for feeling competitive n wanting to count cals again
16 th day of not logging cals who cheered ⁉️ anyways gonna go to a cafe later w friends to study and im gonna try ordering something else other than an americano :3 the barista alr knows me so its gonna be a shock to them that im ordering something else lmao
IGNORE THE WEIRD PIC I JUST TOOL IT FROM AFAR BUT LIQUID CALS !!! i always order the same thing and the barista was surprised i ordered a diff thing !! (yes i go here alot)
got a spanish latte w a friend and it was sosososo nice !! ofc i had to get an extra shot in mine
DAY 20 NOT LOGGING IN CALS !! lowk want to not go to school tomorrow bcz my family is going out n i wont see them for a while ´ ー`) I WANNA HANG OUT W MY SIBLINGS THENN !! WHAT DO I DO
its around 1-2am rn n i went out of my room to piss n saw my sibling playing minecraft at we stared at eachother for a while but that mad eme realise that atleast im not the only one cooked
i feel like my family can read my mind bcz whenever i have second thoughts abt eating something they ho “yeah go for it” or just order it immediately WHICH TY BUT THE ANXIETY IT COMES W IT AFTERWARDS
RISE AND GRIND CHATTTTT day 18 not logging in cals !!! been out these past 3 days but thats okay !! im so lucky for that gonna revise n chill :3 also my phone died at night so i didnt have my alarm im awake an hour before it now my body feels like i got hit by a truck wtf
GM CHATTTTT V HAPPY TODAY CUZ I MADE TGIS FROZEN STRAB COFFEE BLEND THING N ITS SO GOOD ALMOST LIKE A STRAB LATTEE ICE CREAM !!
also day 11 not logging :3
i have to be up in like 5 hrs rn and i just remembered i was tasked w a history thing in class and i have no idea where tf to start
FUCK ALL FUCK SHIT TIME
having yogurt rn and its so good wtf ?? anyways gm chat ill prob be kinda inactive for a while but trust pookies ill always talk to u guys but uhh yeah day 13 not logging :3