was gonna fast today but decided to go to gym so here’s todays omad to give me some energy- 528 cals, 15.5g fibre
okra, tomato, pea stew + cottage cheese, manuka honey, berries, bee pollen, milled chia seeds and dried figs
bc from this morning. im upping my intake and gonna be exercising more to escape this binge cycle🙈 let’s see how much of this stomach fat i can get rid of before uni 🤧 ugw you WILL be reached.
september 19th~
944 cals, 63.126g protein, 36.677g fibre
salmon w veg, chia yoghurt and cottage cheese fruit bowl + an ugly but DELICIOUS diy banana chickpea chocolate cookie dough
869 cals of not aesthetically pleasing eats for sept 20th:
chia yoghurt and cottage cheese fruit bowl, okra tomato stew, chickpea banana chocolate cookie dough
someone give me ways i can innocently explain my weight loss to my friends at uni on saturday bc they have not seen me in MONTHS im talking like even if i gained 10kg rn id look like a different person to them🧍♂️im thinking coming up with something medical
a 10 hour exercise purge because…yes my fast rn was triggered by a binge SORRY GUYS (literally cried when it hit 60k i am EXHAUSTED) new step record though 😭
@yvesskin
i was in a class and the person next to me looked at me and just silently put their phone in front of me on the table opened on Instagram last year like no introduction or convo whatsoever i was literally crying 😭
august 30th: 509 cals
yes i cooked the exact same thing as yesterday what about it 😞 also these figs from the organic grocery store are UNREAL so sweet and jammy ahhh
leg bc after my thighs have gained 6cm, filmed in the middle of kings cross station at 1130pm after eating a whole packet of chocolate biscuits and subsequently missing my train back to university for which i have an essay due on a book i i am yet to read✍️👍
‘dont reward yourself with food you’re not a dog’ bye i will be rewarding myself with a banana oatmeal bowl next week after my weigh in on the 17th as long as i stay consistent till then🐶🐕
irl bestie just asked if im anorexic on snap right after we hung out just now😭 this is only gonna get worse when i go back to uni i literally haven’t seen my uni friends in monthsss
the way i walked until 12:00am on the DOT 😛 if only i woke up earlier then i couldve started walking before 4pm and hit 50k bc 45 is ugly BUT who cheered 😙
the willpower required to not act on all-consuming binge urges is so much it literally drains me like im able to resist now after having experienced so much shit from previous binging but still, every day i wish i could eat and think abt food like normal ppl
@jadedragonfruit
ofc! sautéed spinach + hot smoked peppered salmon fillet, salad made with tomato cucumber onion parsley mint lemon sumac salt pepper, and dates w hard aged cheese and salt, a fig, walnut and Brazil nut :)
had to cut my fast short at 35hrs because im going to the dead sea and do not want to faint from the heat so here’s my omad and the view alongside it!
next meal will be dinner tomorrow evening at the dead sea resort! my mum is making me eat it bc the hotel cost a lot 😩
todays omad! 463 calories
marinated tofu with egg whites, tomato, spinach + green onions and for dessert a yogurt bowl w seed granola :) accompanied by green tea ofc 🍵
lowkey so sad i refused so much food when visiting family in middle east bc like yea i lost weight from it but the food there is so special and it’s so precious to share it with your family and this ed ruined it :( and i can’t even find that food in uk ofc
one day left till i move to uni and can do my own grocery shopping and start working out again ohhh i cannot wait to be back and locked in academically and calorically 😝
i ended up meeting a friend and had a wrap+ protein bar w her and wanted to binge soo badly since i went over my limit slightly BUT i resisted + did 32k steps so i burned every cal i ate today and more and won’t have any regret tomorrow😋 breaking the cycle🫡
maybe that i had to cut out certain foods to mitigate symptoms of something chronic like idk i just need to have a story to recycle bc it’s not gonna be like those threads that are like pov first day of school after reaching ur ugw LMAOOO
going to try to eat maintenance today because i haven’t for MONTHS and every binge ive had has been followed by a long fast so maybe eating normally today is the way to actually break the cycle idk i shall see but i will not fast or binge today
has anyone got any tips/experience regarding the speed at which you should increase ur intake to move towards maintenance/advice on maintenance in general? atm ive just decided to do the opposite of volume eat bc i feel so uncomfy + bloated from big portions
@st_rubyy
SO DOES MINE trust me ive vomited naturally from how bloated/overstuffed my stomach has been and it usually massively sticks out but i think I’ve just been binging so often that my stomach is expanding but im in pain now 😭
prepared tomorrows yoghurt chia pudding in the fridge just now so that i don’t have to stress about counting the cals and macros for it in the morning, tomorrow will be a good day 🙏
just made a hot milk drink with chia and flax seeds with chopped prunes inside to take with my dulcolax i will NOT be putting up with bloating tomorrow morning 🙏
getting drunk tonight to go clubbing for the first time since december when i relapsed and wouldn’t touch alcohol bc of the cals this is sooo not a good idea
2hrs treadmill session at gym done and now walking an hour back home 🧘♂️was gonna leave the gym after an hour but kept going bc discipline>motivation😙😙
broke fast at 69 hours so i could eat with my grandparents and family one last time before i fly back home alone tmr-i had a lot but im proud i stopped before feeling really sick 🥰 i think ive now escaped this vacation-induced binge-restrict cycle at last!😽
@cheesjuis
just think of my goals! ive binged in recent weeks due to long-term restriction and it always makes me feel worse after + ruins progress so i think about that and also think about how the food will still be there tomorrow/ later:)