breakfast!!!
during my ed, after a binge, i wouldn’t eat the next day. eating breakfast this morning, after last nights binge, just shows my growth & progress
★ meals & plans pt 1 ★
- there is NO need to eat certain things @ certain times!!!!
- eat that slice of cake for breakfast if you want to, eat those pancakes for dinner, eat what you mentally & physically crave WHEN you mentally & physically crave it (easier said than done)
★ meals & plans pt 2 ★
- you don’t have to adhere to the ‘3 snacks 3 meals thing’
- you can have 4 snacks 3 meals, you can have 6 snacks 3 meals - eat when you’re hungry, not when it’s a ‘socially acceptable’ time to eat
★ how recovery looks pt 2 ★
- when in reality recovery doesn’t look any certain way & there is NO WAY you’re doing recovery wrong (unless you’re purposely under-eating ofc!)
★ how recovery looks pt 1 ★
- the thing that worried me in the very beginning was the fact that MY recovery looked different than those that i saw around me
- i constantly questioned myself on if i was doing recovery correctly
★ would you feed that to ___? pt 1 ★
- many times when im making my own food i think about lower cal options, but then i stop and think
- would i feed that to my girlfriend?
- would i feed that to my sister
- would i feed that to my parents?
somewhere along the line, protein bars will turn into granola/cereal bars… and non-fat yogurt will turns into chobani flips,,,, and sugar free cookies / candy will turn into lofthouse cookies, and snickers, and reese’s….
i am so full help me 😭😭😭
tried an iced shaken espresso for the first time today :3 LOVED IT. also got chow mein from panda express at an amusement park i went to!
we walked so much today i genuinely think i might have heat exhaustion lmao
tw; i guess a mention of SA … but it’s not real???
y’all ever have dreams that ur sexually assaulted or smthn? but by like…. random people you know? like people who would never do that? and it’s just like what the fuck
okay so… idk if it just me but since the beginning of my recovery mentally i guesstimate my calories just because… eating disorder and whatnot. i don’t weigh it out or intentionally look at the calories
BUT today the mental calculator just…. stopped. it’s GONE.. i think
05/31/23 - pt 1
ALL OF THE EATS TODAY WHERE INSANELY GOOD OML. had 2 huge fear foods today!!! the mayo on my wrap was a fear food & the homemade cookies i made where a fear food :3
i eat sm fruit on a daily basis i feel like im gonna overdose on vitamins or smthn LMAOO
+ i feel like i’m not eating enough protein due to it but also it’s probably fine lol
im counting tmrw as my official ed recovery start because im going to quit counting calories and just… eat intuitively.
im scared, i wanna cry, but i know this is the best for me 🫶🏻
wish every day my meals could be like this lmao
2 sandwhiches WITH MAYOOOO??? for dinner :3333
mayo used to be a major ff and i would only use mustard but im slowly but surely eating things i !! wanna !! eat !!
105 grams of protein
+ i didn’t eat the orange because im pretty sure it was moldy in the middle !!!
chose some popcorn at the end of the night instead of a protein drink lmao
snack… dinner… dessert
THE BEER BREAD WAS INSANELY GOOD HELP. haven’t had mashed potatoes & gravy in a fat minute WOOOOO …. might get some hot chocolate later idk tho :3