Today is Say Their Name Day.
I’ve named each baby I’ve lost & I will proudly share their names to help end the stigma surrounding pregnancy loss. My babies matter and my grief does not have to be silent.
Judah
Arden &Ezri
Urijah
Eden
Journee
🤍The world moves on and I do not🤍
Nurse: how many pregnancies and live births have you had not including this one?
Me: 7 pregnancies, 2 live births
Nurse: geez you get lucky but you don’t stay lucky huh?
🙃 if I was the kind of person to just punch people in the face with absolutely no remorse, I would have.
Why is it so hard for people to have patience with kids just being kids? My toddler accidentally stepped on my brothers foot and he lost it, growling and slamming his fist on the table. I’m LIVID. An adult should never act that way especially towards a child! 1/2
Even if my hcg doesn’t go up and I miscarry like my dr expects me to, I am pregnant in this moment and I will love this baby every second I am blessed to carry it.
So… I am pregnant.
I am cramping and have some spotting so I am absolutely terrified. But today, I am pregnant. I can’t bring myself to say those words out loud yet so typing them will be enough for now. I so desperately want you little baby, please please stay with me 🌈❤️
Here we go again! I got my first positive test yesterday at 8dpo and tonight at 9dpo that pink line is just a tiny bit darker!
So I’m asking for your prayers! Bombard heaven on my behalf and pray with me for this miracle! 🤞🏻✨❤️
After 1 year of trying,
8 months with the fertility doctor,
6 medicated cycles
A twin miscarriage last Christmas,
2 more miscarriages this year, and
Countless scans and bloodwork,
I am pregnant 🌈❤️
Praying so hard this baby stays with me
😳 I never thought this many people would see this. Between my mom and I, my brother now knows that wasn’t okay. He’s a brat who’s got some work to do but we still love him.
HOW THE HELL DO PEOPLE GET PREGNANT ON ACCIDENT!? I will literally never understand how you can accidentally have the most perfect timing and everything move smoothly and make a whole baby on accident. I’m not hating on those people at all, I just wish I was one of them 🙃
I have prayed and dreamed of this moment, seeing a line so dark there’s no doubt ❤️ Keep growing baby! Mom, Dad and big brother love you so much already 🌈
4 W E E K S P R E G N A N T❤️🌈
Our little baby is the size of a poppy seed this week ❤️ I’m still testing and the lines are still getting darker.
Feeling some occasional nausea and sore 🍈🍈 and the heartburn is brutal. But I’ll take it all as reassurance this baby is growing
We brought our little miracle home today. He passed every assessment perfectly and has been breastfeeding like a champ 💙 I’m so proud of this little boy.
Beta
#1
: 20
Beta
#2
: 48
Beta
#3
: 4
I am grateful for the few days I had you and was able to celebrate you ❤️ my sweet baby, you will never leave my heart or my mind.
Pregnancy after loss is so damn hard. I woke up this morning and wasn’t instantly nauseous so I of course jumped to worst case scenario. 🙃 I hate this. I wish I could have experienced a pregnancy without knowing the pain of loss. 😞
I was made to be a boy mom 💙 Adding another little boy to our family in August! Giving my son a brother is a dream come true. Thank you Jesus for my boys 💙🌈
My tests are still very much positive, so today I am 5 weeks pregnant. Had some very light pink mucous the last two times I’ve wiped and I’m beginning to lose hope. Oh my little baby, I wonder if your heart is beating. Waiting til Tuesday for beta 2 results is absolutely torture.
5 W E E K S P R E G N A N T:
I’d be lying if I said I was fine. Today I am really struggling. I don’t know how I’m going to make it another 5 weeks before my first ultrasound. I just want this baby so much. Grow baby grow 🌈
I will talk about all of my miscarriages often and forever. Until the day talking about pregnancy loss is normalized, I will not be quiet. YOU DO NOT DESERVE TO GRIEVE ALONE. If you want to talk about it, I will always listen. Tell me all about your beautiful babies.
I’m in the exact same room I was in when I got induced with my first boy almost exactly 2yrs ago. 🥹 I can’t believe this is happening. I can’t believe I am so blessed to be here again. 💙
Today begins pregnancy and infant loss awareness month. I have named each sweet baby I have miscarried and I want to introduce the world to my babies.
Judah 💙 Sept. ‘19
Arden & Ezri 💗💙 Dec. ‘20
Urijah 💙 June ‘21
Eden💗 Sept. ‘21
The world will move on and I will not ❤️
I told a friend that I couldn’t come to her baby shower. I just lost my 5th baby, mentally, I cannot put myself through that right now. She’s upset with me and told me it was so selfish. 😞
I wish I didn’t feel as awful as I do.
18yr old cousin accidentally got pregnant with her second baby at 6months postpartum. I’m angry, not at her, but for all the women I know dying to be moms or grow their family. It makes no sense and is so wildly unfair.
I’ve watched my test lines get lighter and lighter and now they are negative. This little baby was gone in the blink of an eye and I am heartbroken. And I’m angry. Why have I had to endure so much loss? 😞 I cannot believe this is the sixth baby I’ve lost. It doesn’t feel real.
7 W E E K S P R E G N A N T:
Feeling really pregnant! 😂 the nausea and heartburn are still brutal but thankfully I haven’t thrown up today!
Excited/nervous to tell my family tomorrow. But I cannot wait to tell my oldest there’s a baby in my belly 🥹❤️
I can’t even put into words what this means to me. This is EVERYTHING to a loss momma. ❤️ My babies are real and they matter and it’s incredible to have someone else acknowledge my angels 😭
Twelve weeks pregnant tomorrow💙
I made a new Amazon baby registry💙
And I’m officially announcing on Facebook in a few days! 💙
Grateful beyond grateful to be carrying this sweet baby!
A year ago today I lost my twins. 💔💔
I will forever wonder who you both would’ve been. Today I am 8 weeks with my quadruple rainbow and yet I’m still so broken. There is no other side of infertility. There is no way I could ever forget the heartache of negative tests and loss.
I’m not looking forward to some of my family finding out this baby is a boy. They’ve been saying “her” and talking about buying dresses since I told them I am pregnant. What’s wrong with having two boys?? Sure I would love to have a girl, but I’m just as excited about my boy! 💙
22 weeks pregnant today 💙 Anatomy scan on Monday and hopefully we can confirm this baby is indeed a boy 😂 mom and husband are still convinced it’s a girl so we shall see!
Hey little cutie 🥰 Momma was so happy with the midwife wheeled in the ultrasound and we got to see you! Big brother kept saying “woah” and “football” 😂
6 W E E K S P R E G N A N T:
The nausea comes and goes but when it’s here it’s AWFUL, and the heartburn is absolutely brutal 24/7. I had a dream last night this baby was a girl 🥹 keep growing sweet baby. I can’t wait to meet you 🌈❤️
I don’t love my body, I can’t imagine ever truly loving it. My body is no where near perfect but it carried my son and it’s currently carrying my second rainbow baby. I pray I never forget what a miracle it is that I get to be a mama 🌈💙
#15weeks
#rainbowbaby
#mama
I’ve only made it this far one other time. And that baby is playing on the floor with all his toys he got for Christmas ❤️
#pregnancyafterloss
#rainbowbaby
Friendly reminder: Women on the “other side” of infertility still carry the trauma with them. Just because they get pregnant doesn’t mean they immediately stop needing support. Pregnancy after loss is HARD. Let’s be supportive through EVERY part of this rollercoaster.
Changed my name up a little bit 🥰 Very soon I won’t be pregnant anymore and I’ll have my two miracle rainbows in my arms. Raising these rainbow boys will be the joy of my life 💙
5weeks 5days and the the “morning sickness” has arrived 🤢👍🏻
Got sick once this morning before taking my oldest to school and again when we got home and I attempted to drink coffee. 😭
Let this be evidence of a healthy, growing baby in there 🤞🏻🌈
My tests last night showed progress on easy at home strips but the first response looked the same as two days prior. Waiting until tomorrow night to test again to hopefully see some darker lines! Please stick little baby! 🤞🏻❤️
5 weeks pregnant today 🌈❤️
I thought about taking weekly pics but I think that would only make me hate my body even more. Being plus size and pregnant is hard 😔
13+2 and I’m either in the first week of the 2nd trimester or the last week of the first. I keep seeing different answers so I’m just gonna go with it and say we made it to the 2nd trimester! ❤️❤️❤️
I made a baby registry ☺️ I’m feeling so good about you little baby! Keep growing! Momma, Daddy and big brother get to take a peek at you in 8 days! ❤️🌈
Honestly making an anonymous Twitter to talk about ttc and infertility has been so beneficial for my mental health. I finally feel free to feel what I feel without judgment!
I passed my glucose test!!! 🎉
Annnnnd everything on my ultrasound came back normal! We have a perfectly healthy chunk that will be in our arms so soon! 😭❤️
Every night when my husband starts to snore I’ll aggressively change positions or even just kick my legs around until he wakes up enough to stop and we repeat this until I’m so exhausted I just pass out. 👍🏻 Anyone else? 😂
17 W E E K S P R E G N A N T:
The little kicks I feel occasionally make my day. But to be honest this is still so hard. Pregnancy after loss is the hardest thing I’ve ever been through. Holding my breath in between appointments until I can hear his little heartbeat. 💙
The replies are disgusting. You shame fat people for not working out but when they do you still shame them? Make it make sense. Everyone deserves clothes that fit their body so I applaud Nike for this. You miserable people need a new hobby.
I had a dream about giving birth to this little baby and it was beautiful. I’m really hoping we have that incredible delivery and this baby will be in my arms in 29wks!
Don’t tell a breastfeeding mom her baby is “so skinny”. I can promise you she already questions everything and if she’s doing enough. As a matter of fact, can we stop commenting on all babies’ bodies and eating habits? We are doing our best and don’t need the doubts
2 more pregnancy announcements from old high school classmates. Both mentioned the baby being an “oops”. God, I wish I could be so care free and just be surprised. I wish i could just be happy and scroll on but I can’t. Infertility really just messes everything up doesn’t it? 😞