i think since i spent so long being friendless in life i never really learned how to properly talk to/banter with others one on one and bcos of that i ALWAYS feel like im bad at collabs. but i keep trying anyway. eventually i'll get it right 🥲
just want every1 to know im parasocial for every single vtuber ive ever collab'd with. they'll literally dm me and i'll think "god she's so cute she's like an idol to me" and the dm will be some shit like "hey lucy i saw this offensive meme abt hating women and thought of you"
i replied to 100% of my dms today. if i missed any its bcos the discord notification disappeared. pls double ping me if i forgor you. anyway im proud of myself have a good day my chattys 💕
life is hard when the very same routine and structure that you need to feel in control of and good about your life, is so very hard to even set-up, let alone commit to and repeat
ok but i feel like it's only a matter of time before a normie accidentally sees my song on twitter and then quote retweets it just to say "allowing anime into the west was a mistake" and then get 112k retweets
the fact that extremely serious accusations about a person (twomad) have only come out after they've passed away just goes to show that people aren't revealing this stuff at all. makes me wonder who else we'll hear about later down the line 🥲
im jealous of vtubers who feel comfortable posting their human agent's bodies on social media. smtms i wanna share somethin 3d w/ u guys but i just feel uncomfy or scared of being seen. even having my hands looked at was pretty vulnerable for me. mayb one day ill be normal
just had post-birthday stream hangover 💀 bro if i said something extremely cringe or tmi just FORGET IT like wipe ur memory like choose not to remember........ ive been remembering all the sappy shit i said HAHHA HA A
i don't hate the idea of the new expansion being much more light-hearted and i'm cautiously optimistic. if anything, we kinda need that after everything being end-of-the-world stakes n what not. i just hope it has some depth instead of being FFXIV: Beach Episode the expac
self esteem in the shitter but surely this too will pass. i am wishing every1 a very good beginning to thanksgiving and thanksgiving break n stuff. gratitude is good when u feel shit i think
people wringing their hands over the new twitch policy update are insane. if someone's kid is clicking "YES LET ME IN" on streams marked mature/sexual content, that's a parenting problem, not a streamer problem holy fuck
lukewarm take
#1
: i wish vtubers would stop caring abt ppl who are "copying" them
nothing in the world is original tbh and if they rly are copying u, they prolly aren't gonna make it. just focus on urself and don't give them attention bro, just use that time to make content 🤷♀️
........ i thought the "haha let's meet up and gangbang at a con xD" thing was just a joke people made....... but apparently this is a thing people do at conventions. bro i just wanna hug demonites who are wearing nice perfume/cologne so i can be my sniffer self
SHIT PEOPLE ARE AGREEING WITH MY OPINIONS TOO MUCH THEY'RE GOING TO START DOUBTING THAT I'M INSANE I HAVE TO SAY SOMETHING REALLY CONTROVERSIAL RN
UHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH PEPPERONI ON PIZZA IS ACTUALLY MID AS FUCK THERE I'VE DONE IT NOW SCREAM AND CRY
smtms i think im not fit for being a vtuber, not even bcos i dont feel entertaining or like i deserve to be here (tho ofc i smtms feel that way yea), but bcos i get seriously attached to viewers, to the point it effects me mentally when someone leaves. down bad abominably
little psa: pls don't insult other ppl to compliment me
yes i'm always grateful to hear kindness but when u phrase it like "why isn't lucy bigger, she's so much better than so-and-so" i can't be happy. pls don't bring other ppl down to praise me
i hope u kno that if i ever go to a con it will be in a maid dress and a mask and sunglasses and a beanie for maximum anonymity. pls give me a hug when u meet me anyway 🤧
anyone else put streamers they admire in the bg while doing work or smthn and then fantasize abt how cool it would be to be their friend then get rly lonely
i feel like expressing this thought is somehow a crime but this is my schizo twitter so
TODAY I LEARNED THAT THE MORE CONTENT YOU MAKE, THE BETTER YOU DO AS A CONTENT CREATOR. THIS IS REALLY SHOCKING AND I HAVEN'T RECOVERED. MORE EXTREMELY RARE NEWS AT 11
sry to anyone who is waiting on a reply from me, but if i dont get off the internet for a hot second i will. perish. i swear to get back to you in a few days in the mean time i am sending good energy to everyone who follows me here i will giv u a soft kiss on the forehead Daily
daily process
1. i make a tweet
2. it's a banger, it's really funny
3. realize that i'm on twitter and bcos it's 12% spicy it'll definitely piss someone off
4. angrily backspace tweet
5. log off
many such cases
ppl making fun of vtubers doing idol related things, like singing at a concert with their 2d model....... SHUT UP AAAA ITS NOT FOR YOU!!!! STOP MAKING FUN OF PPL LIVING THEIR LIVES STOP SHITTING ON THEIR FANS GET AH OBBY TOUCH GRASS SHUT UP UR SO MEAN UHGHGHGHGHGH
it's unreal how different it feels, doing streaming while also talking to other streamers... i didn't realize how isolated i felt/was until very recently lmao 🥹
not to essay but the point of social media IS to be addictive. that's why ppl can go through 600 posts and barely even notice it. like this change is baffling from a marketing standpoint and i don't get it at all. i mean thx for helping me waste less time on social media ig??
i simply think my voice should NEVER get tired and NEVER need rest. needing to rest your vocal cords always feels like the dumbest fucking reason for needing to stream less and yet here we are 😔
imagine me commissioning an outfit with extreme underboob that i use solely on youtube out of SPITE, making me literally immune to being reacted to on twitch for tos reasons
I WANT TO BE MORE FEMININE I WANT TO BE GIRLY EVERY TIME I SEE A GIRL WHO EXUDES FEMININE CHARM I WANT TO PROTECT HER SO BAD I WANT TO BE MORE LIKE HER AAAAAAA
SO TRUE queen 😭👏ppl cancelling her, but she's being honest and SO SO brave. i have never once heard someone have this take b4, it is original and SO SO SO important and SHOULD be heard. my middle name is SHREEEEK bestieee
i'm not going to doompost and say gaming is dead or anything, but i feel like in order to sell more games and make more money, a lot of gaming has turned into glorified netflix shows that barely have "mechanics" to speak of, meant to appeal to the laziest of "players"
i wanna be perfect bcos the ppl who watch me deserve nothing less. every day i'm reminded that i'm a fallible human being is another disaster
thanks for supporting me even tho i am kinda a fucky wucky fuck up 🥹
I AM COMMITTED TO NOT HAVING A PANIC ATTACK THIS WEEK. THIS IS BECAUSE I AM STEALING POWER FROM MY DEMONITES. THAT'S RIGHT. I AM USING UR ENERGY TO KEEP SANE. PLS FORGIVE ME FOR MY CRIME OF THEFT
what level of parasocial is it where u can handle other people shitting on u endlessly with no problem but the moment ppl talk shit about your community or your viewers you want to 1 v 1 them final destination fox only no items
schizo ffxiv theory: the new mage class is literally just going to be old summoner, but they're going to pretend it's a totally new job with a literal new coat of paint. mark my words i'm not crazy
i honestly can't think of a platform that hates their users and creators more than
@Twitch
. with the ads, terrible pay split, and changes that make the experience worse on both ends, it's like the company resents every single one of us lmao
proud of myself for not getting mentally defeated by this youtube shit!!! this demonetized mountain shall merely be the throne for my normie cursed content era to sit!! for though i may be forced not to speak of cum, i cannot be forced to be sane!!!!
i definitely bit off way way way way WAY more than i could chew this week n i justified it to myself like "haha but i've totally gotten lots of stuff done on rough deadlines before so it'll be fine" and no it's not gonna be fine i'm ngmi send prayers boys
trying 2 express myself to others always makes me feel like a little kid who's trying SOOO hard to behave like an adult but failing. i'm glad the ppl around me are understanding but i wish they didn't have to be. i wish i was just normal 🥲
>get an idea
>need to commission to complete it
>check 45634 artists you like
>every single one has some form of "sry commission closed forever" in their bio
many such cases
mayb a weird take but i kinda like idol culture
i like the idea of trying to overcome ur weaker nature, push thru adversity and inspire others and help others rather than always being helped
idk if i could live up to that standard but i like it as an ideal/concept
at the end of a week it's nice to lay down in bed w/ a book head empty no thoughts just some girl getting plowed by a tentacle monster. ok i may not be reading about that but fuck i wish i was. i hope u guys r having good weekend rn 🥰🤗
i am convinced that most graduations that involve more than 1 member from big corporations are caused by failed negotiations. probably wanted changes to contract and the corpo didn't wanna budge bcos if they change theirs, gotta change everyone's. that's just a schizo theory tho
THE TRUTH IS IT'S NOT HARD FOR ME TO WRITE SCRIPTS I JUST HAVE TO FACTOR IN ALL THE TIME I'LL GET DISTRACTED BY SOMETHING STUPID OR FORGET WHAT I WAS DOING OR GET STUCK ON A SECTION AND THEN THAT TAKES IT FROM BEING A 2 HOUR TASK TO THE ENTIRE FUCKING DAY!!! worth tho 🥰
i hate not being good at games on stream bcos needing to replay something is less entertainment value for y'all, especially if i have to like actually concentrate to beat it 😔 i like talking while doing gameplay makes me feel like a special little girl
NO ONE KNOWS THAT I JUST CLEANED OFF CRUSTED SPIT FROM MY LAPTOP SCREEN
IMAGINE HAVING FUCKING LUCY PYRE SPIT CRUSTED ON UR SCREEN AND U HAVE TO SCRUB IT OFF RLY HARD HOLY SHIT STREAMING IS DISGUSTING
yt has been automatically demonetizing literally everything i & the editor make, so even when it's appropriate/following guidelines it just gets nuked. the moment i try to actively go back to the platform they try and give me a reason not to 😐
i've told my community this alrdy but seeing them make so many high quality memes/art/fanfic is actually so fucking cool. creating things can feel isolating, but when the community as a whole starts doing it, it's like this cool co-performance art thing and i love it
ok sry for vague posting this is in reference to how i thought clearing customs meant the package got delivered but it does not and now i'm waiting more fucking days for my dopamine packages to arrive 😭
abt 50% of the way thru setting up my new computer and my number one thought is holy shit the clickity clackity of my keyboard is so fucking satisfying how did i live so long with my baby laptop keys???? i feel like im on a fucking TYPEWRITER with this baby
tbh i am kinda disappointed about not getting a ticket to fanfest, but........... it is what it is man....... there's still TOTALLY a chance to get a media tour ticket right... yeah..... for sure.......... mhm.....
STOP TREATING TWITTER LIKE A FUCKING DIARY I SWEAR TO GOD THERE ARE SOME THINGS YOUR AUDIENCE SHOULDN'T KNOW!! FOR EXAMPLE MINE SHOULDNT KNOW HOW MUCH I LIKE TO PLAY WITH ACTUAL SLIME FOR LITERAL HOURS AND HOURS AND OMG LOOK AT IT IT'S SO CRUNCHY HEHE HE HE HE H
discord is simultaneously the best and worst invention ever. it's based bcos i get to talk to my community. it's worst bcos i talk to my community so much i get distracted from work ksldjfaklsdjkl
ive been dealing w/ brain fog for the past like 3 days... legitimately messing w/ me in a lot of ways, im more sluggish and kinda even more head empty than usual. idrk how to fix it but ill try to eat smthn nutritious, sleep better, and hopefully itll clear up by sunday ._.
it's up to each streamer to determine what they wanna deal w/ on stream and what they don't. for him, and for many others, this is unwelcome and they can ban at will to craft the community THEY want
that said this type of comment is just a tuesday for me 😤
i marked my video as demonetized bcos i knew this new one wouldn't pass the check, and youtube still says "issues were found, do you want to review?"
LMAO HOW CAN I GET RID OF THIS BLOCK ON MY ACCOUNT IF IT DOESN'T CARE EVEN WHEN I RATE MY OWN VIDEOS ACCURATELY
@TeamYouTube
making all the purchases for vr all at once is super scary but also rly exciting bcos i get to connect w/ u guys in a new and rly fun and rly cool way.......... plus u alrdy told me not to be stupid abt money so im gonna push thru the fear!!! AAAA VR WILL HAPPEN AAAAAA
editor and i make a new video that's super tame, no more inappropriate humor than 90% of other youtube content, and it still gets flagged for demonetization. very cool 🥰
kick kinda just threw their dick around with that 100 million deal for xqc. these mfers mean business they are ACTUALLY coming for twitch's ass lmaooooo
there's a previous comment w/ her calling vtubers pickmes as well, which is proof that pick me is an insult only bitter and jealous women pull out of their ass
i know it makes me sound like a total out of touch boomer but i legit get mad thinking about the fact that games are being made less complex, less interesting, and less engaging on all fronts just to appeal to the people that never liked playing games in the first place
i gotta stop drinking caffeine on weekends lmao... every time i drink caffeine it puts me into work mode and i can't RELAX i gotta be DOING SOMETHING it makes me VIBRATE IN MY SEAT
this week we had spectrum ending a stream early, then i had like 9234049 nightmares and was super sleep deprived, now tummy hurt disease is probably very soon and my tummy go REEEEE. this week has been a MASSIVE L on every front except interaction w/ chat 🙃
yall ever have a day where that one lyric from radiohead creep where he's like "I WANT A PERFECT BODY I WANT A PERFECT SOUUUUL" just hits so good and u realize ur just like him fr fr??
@Asmongold
people mad bcos you're right lmao (dw, they'll find a way to explain why it's ok for dudes to give detailed descriptions of sexual encounters on their streams but cropped boobs are insanely inappropriate for minors)
where is this narrative that "THESE STREAMERS MAKE MONEY OFF OF KIDS STEALING THEIR PARENTS CREDIT CARD" coming from? they'll literally chargeback and get their child banned from the platform for doing so, it's an outrage over something that doesn't exist
@Twitch
can you please clarify if these policies also apply to the wardrobe restrictions, or does this solely make things easier for artists and artists alone? would someone be able to have, for example, underboob in their model as long as it's tagged appropriately, or it still a ban?
got so much shit to do n im tryna write a to do list to keep track but when i think abt what i have to do my brain freezes n i no longer remember 😰😰😰 AYUDAME SEND HELP TASUKETE
like with each video that gets demonetized ive tried adding "failsafes" like censoring more or not making certain jokes and it's just. tiresome bcos i have old videos that are written more or less the same but NOW they're just getting killed. i hate self-censorship