Twitch Affiliate | Just tryna be a better person and a better apex player 💗 🇮🇩🇳🇱Indonesian/Dutch raised in Brisbane Australia. Qualified skin therapist 🫡
POV: you died in apex and look up and see that I’m about to finish you. You lowkey enjoy it as I shut your stupid lil mouth up
Anyway… 🤪🤣
Your girl is back to streaming in a weeks time, who’s gonna pull up and holla?
Good morning 😇
I was thinking of doing no make up streams, cause I’m tired of doing makeup.
Im clearly wearing lashes in this but I fr fw fresh faces & natural skincare, it’s a ✨passion✨ of mine that I think I should incorporate into my streams.
Anyway, have a good day 🫶🏼
My time full time streaming is over 💗 gotta make that bank and move on to better things, got a lot of plans I’ve been working on behind the scenes. I’ll still be streaming, just not as frequent, and will always support the community and the ones I believe in 🌟 lots of love 😇
These are my roots 💗🇮🇩 🇳🇱🇦🇺This photo was my potong gigi (coming of age ceremony), I was 18. I’m a loud Indonesian/Dutch/Aus woman raised by a tiger mum and a strong minded dad. My religion/upbringing taught me a lot about virtues (although I’m agnostic now) ✨
I lowkey wish apex oce community practiced more kindness.
Here’s the thing, ego was and will forever be your own enemy.
As a young lil lady I did a deep dive into my own being, went through ego deaths and practiced the virtues I preached. Anyone have similar experiences?
Your mum would love me 😇
P.S A woman who never lets the sparkle in her eyes die out and prioritises the healing of spirit will always be high value. Do you think modesty plays a role in the value of women? I have questions
My lil heart is warm 💗 I’ve been able to wrap my arms around so many people that have gotten me through some tough times. It’s been so wholesome, I’m very grateful for everything ✨ oh and chef comin home with a bung finger for milk crating was aight too 🤣
I used to be insecure about my tongue?! Lmaoo 🤣
Okay but, my Asian queens with straight flat & thin lashes:
Lash growth serum (choose one without synthetic chemicals - will weaken your hairs over time) + lift + lengthening mascara (don’t get waterproof) = mwah 😘
I’m super excited to show you guys my new Custard vtuber avatar 😭 she will be standing in for me when I don’t feel like face camming after long days at uni and work. That means I can be around more! LOOK AT HER 🤧😍
Hiiiii, I haven’t really spoken on this, but it gets me down sometimes.
Soooo I don’t really have many people to play apex with anymore that have genuine mutual and respectful feelings towards me.
I’m torn between wanting to be modest and wanting to be able to wear cute tops that girls with smaller breasts can wear without constant judgement. Wtf
Curious, how many men or women have changed up on you while dating? Playing into your fantasies and then becoming the complete opposite? I’d love to hear any stories ☺️
@real_rensran
@lowkeyalbert
You have so many people that are there for u, try reaching out to them when you’re in need and exposing yourself to vulnerability. A lot of the time, we tend to not reach out cause we feel like an annoyance, but that’s not true 💗 here for u and I know u know that, never a burden
Ah OCE raised 5k for autism and we bagged a win by one point WOO I know it’s not much but I don’t play often anymore & to walk away with 9 kills in a single game made me a happy lil lady 🙇🏽♀️ ty to my teammates you guys are killa players and even better people
@RainszFPS
@BigPapiTv
True story: I 1v1d a chatter with a naked Mozam for me to take the cool-down off my hydrate channel points. They won 😓Safe to say they made me drink like 7L of water one night. Thanks for a beautiful first stream back 🙆🏽♀️
#fucking
#pisskinkchatters
I made a 1k sale this morning because the lady said she wants her skin to be like mine 😭 I’m allowed to not wear make up at this place and to think my skin was a selling factor just warms ma heart 🩵 so happy to be helping women feel confident in their natural skin
Not me thinking the friends I make online are real friendships and not superficial 🤣 I get so disappointed it’s stupid. Just grateful to have my irl best friends by my side for 10+ years 🥹
What is it with men promising you the world and then not even doing the bare minimum? wtheck, I’m a woman who’s done a lot of personal growth, you’re a waste of my time, I’ll go for the man who’s word means something. Don’t act high value when you’re the opposite. Soft boys 😷
Wholesome: went to visit my dad for the weekend, woke up sat morning a lil bit of a mess, he walked into my room while I was crying, said I didn’t wanna talk about it, so he hugged me and cooked me one of my fave dinners, Japanese hibachi (coal and wood smoked)🥹😭
Huh, dogs really do take a little piece of your soul when they leave you 🥺 19 years with my bub 🩵 my heart hurts
Thank you for the snuggles when I was sad, and thank you for playing with me when I had no friends, the best little dog a girl could ask for. Rest in peace ✨😔
So it might not mean much to u, but I set out to achieve a certain amount of goals this yr & I'm so proud of myself for it. I pushed through one of the hardest yrs I've had, through ongoing medical battles, heartbreak, trauma & too many funerals. So, here's what I'm grateful for;
I just want my exes to stay my exes 🤧 why these fools still tryna holla 5 years later after TOXIC af relationships. You guys were cheating, abusive fucks 🖕🏼Wtf are ya’ll thinking 😭 I’m enjoying my peace
Happy birthday ya beautiful man 💗
@VerycheekyI
I still love you for making me take this photo because it pulls on ma heart strings 🥺 appreciate you more than you know and I hope you’ve had an amazing day 🥳
Not me thinking my family don’t give a shit about me cause they haven’t asked to organise anything for my bday coming up, only for them to ask if I would prefer a Melbourne trip or a cruise lmao 🥺➡️🥰
I went through the most horrendous 2-3months of this year, but continually put the effort in to maintain a positive mindset.
Now I’m 6 months in, and the last 3 months have been filled with blessings. Life is strange, but just know the bad days don’t last 🙇🏽♀️
So much negative stuff has happened to me this year, my heart has been hurting for a little while. But, I still hands down believe this will be my most successful year to date 💖 HELL YE
Ahh, I am so incredibly loved and grateful for it. I’m only human, so sometimes I take my loved ones for granted, but it’s good to take a step back and realise the magnitude of support and love they extend over the years. Don’t forget to hug your mumma 💝
Merry Christmas 🎄be grateful for all that you already have, and cherish your family, because that’s more than any gift can offer ✨
For those missing loved ones, may you find peace and comfort in knowing they live on in your heart ❣️
Some dude tried to threaten me for sexual favours, and when I rejected him, he said “you’re so annoying, you think you are superior”, I replied “I am superior 😇”
2023 goals said out loud as mantras everyday (a thread). Let’s see if I get there 💪🏼
- health is wealth (start eating more nourishing foods & cut out frequent processed foods)
- get good at aerial yoga & move on to aerial silks by the end of year ✨
- finalise business sale ❤️🔥
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community remains our number one focus.
We're excited to announce that we aren't done yet!
#IWD2023
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I told my friends I can’t go to a music festival because I’m using my money to build my business, and they came back and said they bought me accommodation and a VIP pass 🥹 I cry now
End goal - remove social media, study hard (skin therapy + naturopathy + chemistry + cosmetic chemistry), open up a wellness centre in the mountains, live off an abundance of home grown food, raise beautiful children, own a boat to sail the seas and build a van to travel the land
Came back to twitter to say I got my graduation dress, it’s red and EEEEP ITS SO CUTE I DID A LIL DANCE IN FRONT OF THE MIRROR but also look at these cute nails my sis made for me, I gave her the inspo and she ❣️👏🏼 d e l i v e r e d 👏🏼❣️
1. Quitting hospitality full time
2. Being able to solely full time stream for at least 6 months
3. Hit 2 years nicotine free!
4. Travel interstate and start saving for overseas travel
5. This wasn't in my goals initially, but I'm now on the cusp of becoming a business owner
I’ve had a lil tough run this month, but my client today said I was the best she’s had for a facial, then said, “I really hope someone does to you what you’ve given to me, I feel so centred, your touch is so healing” 😭 woman I was 🤏🏼 close to giving up, thank you 🥹
I have curated a whole island in my head, sometimes when I go to sleep & dream about it, it’s really beautiful.
Other times I get full decked by a tsunami, it’s fkn terrifying.
Wtf is wrong with me, at least I’ve come a long way from sneezing chopped green onions in my dreams…
I think there’s so much shit, stale or negative energy in this world. So pushing forward energy givers and positive mindsets ✨ this was a daily thing in my discord for a bit, but I love sharing them, so here’s one for twitter today 🫶🏼
Does anyone else, as a fully grown human, forget to plan meals?
Like you get to your lunch time and you’re like, fuck I didn’t plan this one very well did I?
But it’s like… EVERYDAY
Offcustard 6/10 - why are you saying gross things to me??
Custard 10/10 - sweet, thicc and creamy 👀
Cust 11/10 - short but still sweet 😇
Coach cust 100/10 - I am your superior, do as I say not as I do
Cumstard 10000000/10 - you have a big brain and a big booty mwah
Cuzbot 9/10 - Professional, formal, easy
Cuzzy 10/10 - Preferred, Personable Comfortable, friends use this
Cuz 11/10 - short, sweet just like me
Bot -100/10 - I hate you
Lord Coom/Coomb0t 50/10 - Gigachads use this
Yours 1000/10 - but only if you buy me a drink first