Proud of myself. I remained no contact this week despite being messaged and trying to get a reaction out of me.
I deleted all of our messages.
I’m letting go, even if it hurts like hell.
I deserve better. I want better.
You are not my world.
My first real date since my separation.
He took me to a whole other city.
To a fancy delicious restaurant.
Paid for everything.
Got a super nice hotel.
Validated me when I cried.
Gave me the ultimate princess treatment.
& several orgasms.
#ifhewantedtohewould
I really should consider looking for a new job so I’m not complaining about being poor all the time, but I really don’t want to stop being a barista or stop my apprenticeship 😭😭
Any other baristas have/had customers that they are legit ass surprised haven’t had cardiac arrest or diabetes because of what they order everyday.
Like I really am doin a concern for some of them.
I get my own place in a few weeks. I’m almost 90 days clean. I’m making decent money alwith my side hustle and my following has grown so much in just a month.
I’m rebuilding bigger and better.
Hopefully restarting my life in a whole different state within the next year or two.
Day four without drinking or smoking 🎊. Almost wanted to smoke yesterday, but instead used my vape and the urge quickly subsided. Decided I was going to quit drinking for 30 days as a way to quit smoking, since I basically only smoke when I’m drinking.
#healthier2019
Going to treatment was one of the best things to ever happen to and for me. I love being sober, I love that I haven’t had a hangover or made a bad choice due to being drunk in over a month.
I love all the wonderful people I met, who have stayed in contact and invite me out.
It’s wild to me the lengths I went to, to defend someone even when my character was being attacked and they just can’t seem to extend the same fucking courtesy.
I promise you. If you knew me over 2 months ago. You don’t know me now.
#workinprogress
ITS MY BESTIES BIRTHDAY 🥳🥳
@_togebri
I’ve been so blessed to call you my bff the last few years and get so close. You are my rock in so many ways. My forever favorite introvert, my other feral half and my only brain cell sharer. I love you so much!
My husband is so sweet. I’ve been reading quite a bit lately and it’s smut for sure but something about this author just grasps me.
He goes on Amazon and buys me the next one every time so I have something to read. 🥹
I love the confidence it’s given me. I love the clarity. No hangxiety. I’m so proud of myself and everyday is just the longest I’ve ever been sober. It’s so fulfilling and worth it.
Chad and I are drunk and just set up a tattoo appointment across town. Our drinks just got here and we have to pound them before our Uber gets here in three minutes.
YOOOOOO!
Dudes. If I have your ex gf, wife or even b/m on any social media and then you try to add me I’m
1. Checking your relationship status and making sure they’re okay with it
2. Deleting cause you’re single and trying to by a creep.
Also IM FUCKIN MARRIED 🤦🏻♀️
Time to recenter and refocus.
Back to reading and journaling everyday, working on my DBT and continuing to lose weight.
Summer was and healing but I’m ready to evolve now.
Getting to a place in life where I know who my friends are and who I am. It feels really good setting boundaries and just letting some things have space.
I’ve been farting under the same blanket for two hours without moving and I CANNOT wait for chad to get home and be his annoying usual self and try to rip the blankets off me, cause he’s fuckin in for it tonight. 💀😂
I got drunk last night and begged chad to be as rough as he could be with me, and every part of me is regretting it today.
I had to ask him if he found my guts in the bed this morning, because there was no way they hurt this much without losing some. 💀💀💀
Being a body piercer dating a tattoo artist is all fun and games until one of you has to hold a set of titties or genitalia while the other just has to sit there and be okay with it.
I’m only spending my time with people who reach out to me and keep in contact with me this year. No more of this one sided bs.
I’m tired of wearing myself thin trying to protect and save relationships.