I'm Dr. Desi now! To defend on my homelands in our tribal college with family, friends & my fellow tribal citizens on the line is surreal. I had my son in the middle of the grind. He graduates today too. Nea'eše to my amazing
@ua_sociology
committee. I'll never forget today. 🙌🏾
No, Indian Reservations aren’t going to become safe harbors for abortions. It sounds easy, but there’s hundreds of years of legal rulings that make basic survival on reservations damn near impossible! So start demanding more from your elected officials, not Indigenous Peoples!
I was accepted to Stanford 100% bc of affirmative action. A 15 yo rez girl living w kids from royal families & trust funds. When I worked for Stanford Admissions, I had to answer does Stanford practice aff action? My response was always yes bc the playing field isn’t level! 1/
Today my baby talked about our Cheyenne culture to 3 kindergarten classes in a mix of Spanish/English. He told them that Natives are still here & no mama isn’t Pocahontas, she’s a professor 😂 & then we all round danced. F* I’m so proud. How did I get so lucky?
#wearestillhere
I was just denied a mortgage. It continues to piss me off that making six figures in LA…more money than I could ever imagine…more money than anyone in my family makes…still means I’ll never afford to buy a 2 bed fixer upper in the valley much less anything else. This is f’d.
Was told by a reviewer to not use genocide to describe what happened to Natives bc it is a charged word. Listen, my entire life is “charged” because of genocide. I use that word intentionally! Another reviewer said tribal identities are not political identities. I’m tired.
My entire career/life is bc of that decision. It’s why I am now a professor. Every year Black, Native, & Brown students thank me bc they never thought they’d have a professor like me. They thank me for existing in these places of violence that were never built for us. 2/
I write each name down. Year after year. I fight for them & they fight for me. We need each other. But do we need these institutions? SCOTUS keeps playing games w our lives. The final buzzer is approaching. So fuck the playing field. I’m tired. Sign me up for radical refuturing.
This is tribal sovereignty. This is acknowledging our shared humanity. This is trusting science. This is Indigenous generosity despite 500+ years of colonization and violence.
The Chickasaw Nation is now offering COVID-19 vaccines at no cost to all Oklahoma residents. There are no tribal citizenship or employee requirements. Schedule your appointment online at
Telling an Indigenous person who grew up on the land w/ subsistence hunting to not eat meat is unethical. I get that the climate impact of not eating meat is compelling, but Indigenous folks aren't killing this planet. It's the opposite. Ok, I'm gonna go enjoy my elk burger now!
‼️The Northern Cheyenne Nation has elected ALL women for the first time ever as Tribal President, Vice President, & all 5 open seats on Tribal Council‼️ This has never happened before. It’s an amazing day to be a Cheyenne woman! The next 4 years for my Tribe will be good years.
All this white male fragility makes me laugh so I'm going to change my name for the time being to Dr. Dr. Desi because I earned TWO PhDs and I have the audacity to claim all the honorifics.
#DOCTORJillBiden
I feel ridiculous even tweeting this bc I’m so privileged. Still, I don’t come from wealth. I’ve worked hard af to get here. Hard work is not enough. LA is a place of fading dreams. I arrived hopeful that I could build a stable life w my son. 2nd time denied a mortgage. Ugh!
8 Native women reported missing in E. Montana in last 3 days according to advocates on the ground. Several found alive & being trafficked. Several still missing. One found dead in Yellowstone River. She was my classmate. F* WE ARE STILL DYING! Native women deserve safety.
#MMIW
300 student mandatory in-person lecture 2x week starts Thurs. I tried to go hybrid. Not allowed. Students aren’t wearing masks anymore. This is such a f’d reality. I’m the sole care provider for my child. I have zero backup. So I’m giving extra credit to those who mask up 😩 🤷🏽♀️
Haven’t written a word of academic writing all summer! I’m told that if I want tenure I should be using my “free time” to work on pubs all summer. Instead, I’m choosing community, being a good relative, & dare I say rest. If that means I’m not a good academic then so be it.
It’s Indigenous Peoples Day for all the non-Indig folks out there. That’s everyday for Indig ppl. I’m not here to support the performative wearing of moccasins or beaded bling so we can be visible in our own lands. I’m here to dismantle the systems that keep trying to erase us.
Indigenous colleague got hired by
@ASU
as Asst Professor & can work remotely teaching & researching from their home community! I read this & cried. Yes! Why can’t this be an option at more unis? This would be a helluva game changer for recruiting/retaining Indigenous faculty!
I completed 2 PhDs in 6 years & had a kid in the middle basically as a single parent. I have no super powers. I had external fellowship money that allowed me to focus on my research so I could get done. Yes you need supportive faculty, but $ is the magic. Apply for EVERYTHING!
And it’s not just legal decisions; it’s 500+ years of colonization and white people fuckery weighing down on us every day. Institutions, systems, policies, people, all of it. Leave us alone already. We really are just trying to live.
The harms continue! Elizabeth Hoover
@UCBerkeley
admits she is white & lied about being Native for professional gain. She won
@NASEMFordFellow
Dissertation & Postdoc funding. She effectively stole tens of thousands of dollars meant for Black, Indigenous & People of Color! 1/
Riddle me this: if one is hired as part of an Indigenous diversity cluster & after it comes to light that you aren’t in fact an Indig person as you’ve claimed & you built a career on this lie, what happens? At a public land grant institution on tribal lands? This isn’t made up.
From Cheyenne Headstart to UCLA professor: dreams come true! Today, I started my first quarter teaching classes as an actual profe. This rez girl is teaching at the
#1
public univ in the USA! I may be the first Indigenous woman hired by UCLA Sociology, but I won’t be the last.
Voter suppression is no poll locations on Indian Reservations on election day in MT! This means ppl on my rez will have to drive 60 miles to vote at courthouse if not able to vote by mail. Reason 1 of many why mail voting can’t be the only way in rural MT: no home mail delivery!
Non-Indigenous researcher: Your research is really great. I want to do research like that. Can you connect me with a tribal community so I can do things?
Me: No.
Non-Indigenous researchers, don't do this. Like seriously wtf.
How are there still so many webinars, panels, lectures, special journal editions, etc. still happening in a pandemic? Do scholars really have that much bandwidth right now? I don't get it. Can people take a chill pill & can we shift to just trying to collectively survive?
A young Lakota man approached me in the dining hall tonight. We have the “where you from/who are your ppl” convo. Now he knows there’s a Native prof who lives near him & has his back. Indig representation in the academy matters! This makes everything it took to get here worth it.
Watch Prey on Hulu. I’ve never seen a Predator movie in my life bc not my genre! But wow! This one was incredible. Never underestimate an Indigenous woman and her rez dog! I let out my loudest lulu at the end. Indigenous Peoples are shining in TV and Film. It’s our fucking time!
I cried today. I found out there's a Native student in the entering
@SociologyUcla
cohort! A new Native professor and a new Native grad student. That's a big deal when we're so used to being the ONLY ones.
Dear students: if you need a recommendation letter, please keep sending reminder emails. You aren't bothering me or being rude or buggy. These are difficult times for all of us. Getting to the top of the inbox is smart and I thank you for it. Writing letters like the wind today.
This is a big reason why it’s so hard out in these academic streets as an Indigenous scholar. Before reviewers get to the meat of my papers (which are decently written), they’ve already dismissed them because their own privilege inhibits the acknowledgement of basic truths.
Thinking of
@uarizona
Wildcat community. A place I called home for years. Thinking of Professor Tom Meixner who was murdered today doing his job as a PROFESSOR. WTF! Professor Meixner was an ally who supported Indig science & scientists. My heart breaks for his family. No words.
It’s solstice. I was taught it’s time to slow down. Like actually move slowly. Eat slowly. Enjoy the darkness. Be intentional. And choose rest like all our animal relatives in hibernation. We all wait for the light to come again. I hope you manifest the light you/we all need rn.
Assembling air purifying units. We distributed 100 of these all across the reservation. Nea’eše (thank you). The fires are more than 50% contained, but the smoke is terrible. These units will help many households cope w the smoke. Thankful for my little crew of Cheyenne youth 🙌🏽
My Māori fam are like wtf when they hear about white ppl pretending to be Native for professional gain. In Aotearoa, Māori would collectively come for you if you claimed a people & couldn't give whakapapa/ kinship. There would be questions! In the US, our systems of kinship...
We only have ~300 Cheyenne language speakers left. Most are 60+ years old. We lost dozens due to
#COVID19
. Many other tribes face the same reality. I'm embarking on a project researching the tremendous language loss in tribal communities due to
#COVID19
. So many tears. 1/
It’s Victory Day! Lulululu! June 25, 1876 the allied Cheyenne, Lakota, and Arapaho defeated Custer’s 7th Calvary in one of the last battles of the US-Indian wars. Cheyenne women like Buffalo Calf Road Woman fought alongside men. 1/
Happy Indigenous Peoples Day! A good reminder to the world we are still here. I’m gonna add this: Mexican people are Indigenous! In fact, nearly 1/3 of American Indian & Alaska Native ppl in the 2020 Census also identify as Latinx. Miss me w/ the exclusionary colonial border b.s.
Is it possible to have community impact (like saving lives impact) while in academia? Bc I know I'm alive for more than arguing w the IRB & publishing articles that only a few folks read. My loved ones keep dying. And it's getting harder to reconcile working in the Ivory Tower.
Believe your students, especially Natives, when they tell you they need to attend a funeral. I've lost 8 family members in grad school to suicide, murder, and preventable illness. Most were under 25. Natives, especially on reservations, die at alarming rates. It's not made up.
This yr, at least 7 Indig women will graduate from
@uarizona
with PhD’s. Some will be the first Indig person to ever graduate with a PhD in our depts. The uni is doing nothing to keep us here. No post docs, no faculty positions, no research opps. But they’ll sure take our photo.
“I am a white person who has incorrectly identified as Native my whole life…”
Professor Hoover’s entire career was built on lies. She knew better. She got caught. Now there’s “deep regret & sorry.” You can miss me with these white women tears.
White folks in academia fraudulently living as Indigenous Ppls do damage to us all. And they do the most damage to actual Indig students & others who are seeking meaningful & respectful reconnection to their tribal communities due to colonial disconnect that is not their fault!
P.S. I'm a residential school survivor. My mother is a survivor. My grandmother is a survivor. My aunt is leading the team using ground penetrating radar to find our little relatives in unmarked graves. Goodnight Twitter. Find someone else to drag cuz it ain't me.
Also, every single paper I’ve had go through peer reviews comes back with pages and pages of comments. My responses to reviewers are anywhere from 10 to 20 pages. It’s insane. Who actually has time for this?
Thankful for this virtual community. I was able to buy 14 generators to help Cheyenne elders. The fires keep raging. Power will be out for days. I am still fundraising to make another run for more supplies. Pray for rain & trailer skills 🙌🏽
Venmo:Desi-SR
PayPal:desisr
@gmail
.com
Imagine an entire team of Indigenous faculty spread across the Indigenous world in their home communities connected through one institution delivering courses, leading research, creating life changing opportunities for students & communities! This is possible! Let us do it!
My
@CornellSoc
Race & Ethnicity students wanted to know what faculty diversity looked like in Sociology. These data are hard to find. So a team of them made a data set. This is the number of Native American, Latino, and Black faculty at USNWR Top 25
Non-Indig student from a diff univ who is smart & well-meaning sought my advice about blood quantum/tribal belonging diss project. My response will never change: DO NOT study this topic if you are not Indig and/or do not have an Indig advisor. The potential for harm is too great.
Academia is fraught w Indigenous identity fraud & we must demand accountability! Actual jobs & resources are being usurped by WHITE FOLKS. Lies give them access to knowledge & culture to which they have no right. The material & cultural damage is real. More later. I’m pissed.
"A nation is not defeated until the hearts of its women are on the ground"-Cheyenne Proverb. This is how incredible our Native girls are!
#indigenousfutures
Virtual PhD defenses due to
#COVID19
enable Indigenous students to defend from their homelands and to include the powerful presence of their communities. I cried as
@ladybirde09
's grandfather prayed in their language to open her defense this am.
#indigenousrising
#stillhere
I come from a long line of Indian cowboys and cowgirls. Today, one of our original cowboys rides away. My grandfather has taken his last ride on his best horse to the other side today. He wasn't well for a long time, but he died due to
#COVID19
. Please keep my family in prayer.
I’m sick & tired of people romanticizing reservation life. It’s usually those who were never born/raised on one. It’s a life where trauma & tragedy can keep knocking you down wave after wave and there is no coming up for air. I say this as I prepare for yet another funeral. 1/
White folks doing “diverse” research aka research on Indigenous Peoples, Black Peoples, Asian Peoples, Latinx Peoples should not be “diversity hires.” Just no! This is a hill I will die on.
My son had his first ballet class today. With his bestie. They were safe and full of joy! 😭 ♥️
The only two boys and they’re Native and Black!
Why can’t the world keep affirming their joy like this forever?! I’ll die trying to make it so.
Nea’eše/thank you
@diazstudiodance
What are your best practices to encourage and/or incentivize masking in class when the university no longer requires it? I’m talking about large multi-hundred student lecture classes. Thanks!
AND she went to her grave w/o any apology or reparations of any sort for the Crown's role in the establishment of Indian residential schools or the ongoing genocide of Indigenous Peoples all over the f'ing world for that matter. So yeah, I'll sleep just fine tonight. Peace!
In 2021, we FINALLY have a nat'l life expectancy for American Indians & Alaska Natives. It comes as no surprise to us: we have the lowest life expectancy in the US. Native men don't even make 70. These data points are our relatives. We deserve long lives.
It's 2023. If you're researching/writing about Indigenous Peoples, it's time you identify your positionality up front in your writing. Yes, it matters if you're a white person writing about us! Especially if you don't have any Native co-authors.
#nothingaboutuswithoutus
It’s ceremony season across Indian Country. That means giveaways. When we earn an honor/wish to honor someone, we don’t receive gifts. We give them away. Like thousands of $. It boggles non-Native folk. I’m proud to come from a gift-giving culture. It’s the highest honor to give.
Didn't realize this would cause such a stir. Stop sending me threats of violence! I saw the Reuters article. AND I actually don't care bc THOUSANDS of Indigenous children were killed at residential schools in Canada & the US. The queen knew. They all did. Power protects power.
My 6 yo son tried sports & martial arts & just isn’t interested. Instead he wants piano & dance! So I enrolled him in both. Piano lights up his eyes in a way that makes me cry. Next week he starts ballet & tap. I will cultivate his joy even when the world tells him to harden up!
My aunt is a Cheyenne elder & PhD student in Earth Sciences. She takes her responsibility as a land steward seriously & has been caring for a berry patch along a county road for years. I’ve come along before & ppl have stopped to ask what we’re doing. But today was different.
My little Nota is the greatest gift from my time in grad school. He walked across the stage with me this weekend and I’ve never been more proud. He also absolutely knows how to work a stage lol
Nea’eše
@uarizona
and
@ua_sociology
I did my best to avoid the rona. I’m double vaxxed & boosted & N95 mask it. But I just tested pos. Cheers to science & UCLA’s re-entry testing! Thankfully, my son has been w his dad & no exposure. So far mild symptoms. Here’s to sleep, tv, & less anxiety. Do your best folks!
Native women are not dying of exposure, intoxication, drowning, etc. We are being MURDERED. I'm so f'ing angry. I'ma stay mad too. The b.s. wheels keep spinning. From police to coroners to media. Another classmate gone. Her babies lost their mother.
#justiceforarshanda
#MMIW
My 6 yo Cheyenne-Mexican son w braids wants to join cub scouts w friends. Boy Scouts is prob THE worst org in USA for Native Appropriation. The universe gots jokes! Well, we signed up bc I'm getting the last laugh. All these kids & their parents gonna learn some TRUTHS!
I’ll never understand why Natives are so quick to honor White folks when they simply acknowledge basic facts and throw us an “I’m sorry for that little thing called GENOCIDE.” Our ancestors demand more. Our babies deserve more. F* this whole papal apology. There, I said it.
Dolly Parton wrote a book, made a movie, released an album, cussed out white supremacists, & donated a million dollars to vaccine research during this pandemic. Can I come back as Dolly in my next life? All hail Queen Dolly. She’s phenomenal.
Indigenous Peoples have always been scientists
Indigenous Peoples have always been data experts
Indigenous Peoples have the answers
Western science/scientists don’t have to listen to us/believe us, just stay out of our way!
Woke up very proud to be an Indigenous scientist🔥 ♥️
Do not come?! Wtf?!! Never mind that a majority of Guatemalans seeking asylum/refuge are Indigenous Peoples! I mean they are literally included in the United States federal definition of American Indian!! See OMB Directive 15.
I got an American flag stashed somewhere. It’s gonna fly tonight. I come from a long line of Native veterans who fought & died for this country not because they are patriots, but because this is & always will be Indigenous lands!
This is professional misconduct. This is inexcusable!
@NASEMFordFellow
and
@UCBerkeley
now is the time to be walk your talk & exhibit the leadership needed to mitigate so much harm. Indigenous communities, tribes, & Native peoples have been exploited for too long. ENOUGH! 4/4
Like most academics, my email is a black hole. Still, I try to respond to all grad student emails regardless if they're at "my" univ or not. But if you email me to pick my brain on Indig research, I will first ask: do you or any of your PhD advisors identify as Indigenous? 1/
Huge win today with a manuscript acceptance after 3 rounds of revisions that brought me to tears. I'm going to soak this in. Data disaggregation beyond race for American Indians & Alaska Natives with scary words like tribal control & sovereignty is getting published! 🙌🏽
Has anyone plotted average house price with average assistant professor salary across the country? Where can I find that data? Where can any of us afford a home? Asking for me. And my kid who would like a yard. 😩
@SocialistPharmD
Absolutely 110% off the table. I will leave this hellacious city before I lose years of my life in LA traffic. Call me whatever you’d like. It’s the truth.
In
@UCLA
lecture of 300 students, I asked if any had an Indigenous/Native American teacher at any point in their schooling. Silence. Blank stares. 1 hand went up. My response was: well everyone can raise their hand after today! Representation freaking matters!
#wearestillhere
& accountability are so broken. Broken by colonizers. Broken by genocide. Broken by residential schools. Broken by forced adoption. Broken by gens of assimilated Natives. This brokenness provides cover for white people to keep taking. Taking from the brokenness they've created.
Some of us secure funding elsewhere. Some of us work multiple jobs through grad school. Some of us leave & never finish bc the financial strain is too hard, espec w families. Elizabeth Hoover stole fellowship $ that should have went to an actual Native scholar. Period! 3/
A first & totally paraphrasing.
Student: Professor Desi, can I have a midterm extension because I am in labor?
Me: !OMG what, of course, go have your baby, get off email, take care of yourself, OMG!
Also me: Who is making students do shit while in labor?! Hold my earrings.
These esteemed fellowships “seek to increase the diversity of the nation’s college & university faculties.” Every Native scholar I know applies to be a
@NASEMFordFellow
! Acceptance rate is so low 4-5%. Most of us never become Ford Fellows. 2/
I've been asked to teach/talk about Thanksgiving stuff and Natives and erasure and blah blah in different contexts. Listen, my answer will ALWAYS be: NO. I'm not your token Indian. And unless you're my students or my son's classmates, I will never have time to educate you.
For the Cheyenne, the Sand Creek Massacre marks time. 156 yrs ago, a camp of women & children was massacred. Soldiers paraded through Denver w vaginas & breasts of Cheyenne women hanging from saddles. My grandmother’s grandmother was there. It’s not history; it’s our reality.
Faculty: is there a person/org that helped you navigate wtf to do the first few years. Are there coaches I can pay? How about systems that create ease? I’m not thriving in academia. I’m hardly surviving. Covid made everything, incl “mentoring” weird. Any advice is appreciated.
Brilliant data warrior & social scientist
@native4data
smashed her PhD oral exam. Articulate, fierce, compassionate - she made the ancestors proud. 2 PhDs in 2 continents, a baby, a book, a global pandemic, many tangi, protests & submissions - Dr Dr Desi, you did it!
I’m over this Indigenous resilience narrative. How about relentless? As in relentlessly strong. Relentlessly beautiful. Relentlessly loving. Relentlessly still here. As in always continuing.
A year ago, I gave my dream job talk. Indigenous sociology made its way into the halls of UCLA Sociology. I did my absolute best to make the ancestors proud. I got the job. I had big plans. Then the world stopped. Life got unimaginably hard. Still, I’m thankful for this life.
The
#ICWA
case in
#SCOTUS
has me rage crying. See
@rebeccanagle
&
@yunpovi
for brilliant analysis. Listen, taking children has always been a tool of war & genocide. When you take children, you take a nation's future. Tribes are NATIONS. This is happening NOW in the USA in 2022!
Today, I'm giving one of the most important speeches of my life as my nation inaugurates all women leadership to serve our people. I'm honored & nervous. The ancestors are with us. "A nation is not defeated until the hearts of its women are on the ground." -Cheyenne Proverb.
Here's how stark the
#COVID19
testing gap is in Indian Country: my local Indian Health Service has FIFTEEN (15) tests to serve our entire reservation population of nearly 5,000! How can we devise an emergency response plan with no testing?!?
My son has long hair. He's constantly getting called a girl. I'm cool with that. We're Cheyenne & long hair is about strength and tradition, not toxic Western gender norms. I also bought him a pink bike bc @ a yard sale. I'm cheap, my kid has rad hair, and f* your gender norms.
I'm sick of shit being called nice things so colonizers feel better! Settler colonialism isn't complex. My undergrads get it. It requires the forced/ongoing displacement, surveillance & erasure of Indigenous Peoples. You know how it happens/is sustained? Violence!
#FreePalestine