Gratuitous ' feel like 💩 about myself, my figure, how I dress ' been called ' mutton ' again as I'm almost 54 & shouldn't wear ripped jeans or cold shoulder tops ... aka the ' polyester ' brigade, yes I'm a size 14 & old but just no, be kind or be quiet 😕
#BeKindAlways
xx
I'm autistic, I pick snails up off the pavement to save them, I would literally and physically put myself in harms way to help someone else, and have done, many times, so off in the direction of fuck. Please.
#OnlyWomenHaveCervixes
This literally made me cry.
I had a radical hysterectomy & had my cervix removed plus reconstructive surgery, so since January 20th 2016, what am I ? No one told me this meant I was no longer a woman. Body parts alone don't equal gender.
#iamawoman
It's my ' balloon 🎈 ' day ... bittersweet, but ' woo hoo ' I made it to Level 54 ! Blimey ! I don't feel it ( or hopefully look it 👌😘😇🤣 ) ... at 14.20pm I celebrate being here ... I was twins, my mum lost my twin & I was born weighing 4lbs ( in 1970 was scary )
#birthday
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What a week ... now in A & E with eldest son, blue lighted in at 2am, finally asleep after enough medications to fell a buffalo, being a single parent is tough, especially at times like this, just venting, absolutely exhausted and worried, doesn't matter how old they are ... x
All I want is to be taken out on a date - I'm low maintenance - nice pub, countryside or coast, good company, conversation, flirting tactile, decent wine, ' nice top & jeans ' type evening, maybe some tapas, with the possibility of a second date, is that too much ?
#dating
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@Reeves194
Back in the day when my ex husband and I had a conservatory built, it was drinks all day, biscuits, cake etc and cooked lunch ( bacon and egg sandwiches etc ) ... they did long hours in the cold, treat others the way you want to be treated etc ... x
My favourite modern day male poet ...
@MichaelFaudet
... this is so concise, so succinct, so full of emotion ... and so very apt ... thank you for always putting into words the feelings and thoughts that I cannot express ... xx
#Thread
Am just completely overwhelmed with all the ' likes ' and comments on my post. I'm used to a dozen likes at most and I've been on here many years ! I started replying to everyone but when it took off I couldn't keep up so thank you to everyone who liked and commented 1/
@mummacat10
It's disgusting. In comparison, my daughter's partner is a plumber, he cleared £450 in one day this week, not saving lives or caring for the injured, scared and vulnerable, it's wrong ... not what he earns but the disparity ... x
If anyone wonders what ' completely broken, devastated & at the end of their tether ' looks like, it isn't the stereotypical vision, it's this. You could be standing next to someone whose life is crumbling like a house of cards and you would never know, so, be kind, always 💛 xx
So got back from being with my daughter and granddaughter all day, and straight into being the teenager's mum. Feeding & hydrating him, then we're off to rugby training ( him not me ! ) And will see eldest son there too, so all 3 children & granddaughter in 1 day ❤️
#family
xx
You never know how much of a fierce tiger mum you are until one of your children is ill, hurt, scared, in pain or all 4. Holding his hands for the lumbar puncture was just ... he was so incredibly brave, took 4 clinicians half an hour, my poor boy ... xx
Shamelessly looking for validation, having a tough time, especially mentally, took these at the weekend and actually felt quite OK about myself - I have put on over 2 stone in the past 2 years and feel awful about my body and how I look - I'm almost 54 & hate it ! Xx
#WorldSuicidePreventionDay
I tried to unalive myself 4 times. The last, almost fatal time, was 16th August 2009, medically induced coma, the hospital called people to say goodbye to me ... 15 years on I have this one who was born 11 months later. Things change. Have hope ... xx
Cooking up a storm, roast chicken, dauophinos potatoes, yorkshires, petits pois, chicken gravy, with help from
#notmycat
and a not very appreciative audience ( males huh ) .. but I enjoyed it and am wondering how on earth am I single ? ( said tongue in cheek)
#dinner
xx
Charity shop bargain this week ... hate my body being bigger but this is a brand new Shein summer dress, little button detail at the back, cost £4.50. I'm not usually a ' dress ' girl but am tired of leggings and jeans, life's too short ...
#SHEIN
#charity
#dress
xx
#DUND
#dund
#DressUPnotdown
#humpday
#thisis50
In comparison, no I'm not dressed up, BUT, getting showered, using self care, getting out of my pyjamas, into jeans & slouch top, for me, is dressed up .. the ' make up & posh frock / equivalent ' can wait awhile .. this will do ❤
Thank you everyone, have been in hospital since 2am, they suspect viral meningitis, he's very poorly, about to have a lumbar puncture, thank you for the support, really means a lot, it's worrying no matter how old your children are ( he's a strapping 24 year old police officer )x
I love this boy more than words could adequately explain, seeing him in so much pain & discomfort is heartbreaking, he deals with so much & is still loving & selfless & the kindest person I've ever known .....
#unconditionallove
#myworld
#son
#getbettersoon
Friday in brief, always in the jeans ( feel hideous in shorts ), daisies, dandelion clocks - make a wish - ... saw my Dad 😍, did some charity shop shopping, about to cook up a storm & crack open the vino plonko, sorry guys, nothing titillating ...
#middleaged
#FridayFeeling
xx
#DUND
#Wednesdayvibe
#Wednesday
It's 27° & I'm a week shy off my 51st birthday so
#DressUPnotdown
is brought to you by heat rash, no sleep & hormones, gosh am such a catch ! Am feeling every one of my 50 years, have put on a lot of weight & am feeling sorry for myself ♥️
I had to go into A & E yesterday & my new boyfriend, who had plans, rearranged his whole day to take me in, waited in the vicinity, picked me up, got my script, drove me home & then looked after me, I'm not used to this, he's just incredible ...
#boyfriend
#New
#lucky
#love
This is the reality. YOU voted for Brexit and WE ALL suffer the consequences. Be careful what you wish for because this is what happens. You can spin it how you want but it's an absolute f**king disaster ...
#remain
#BrexitReality
#BrexitChaos
#European
This is the end of the argument.
Ironically, it is the absurd GB News having to endure this masterclass in simply articulated, balanced, fact-based, expertise.
If you believe any other version of events, good luck tying your shoelaces this morning.
#Throwback
to May 2010, 6 months, almost 7 months pregnant with Joshua, resorted to selfies as my ex husband wouldn't take pictures as he didn't want the baby. Just love this photo. Yes I was huge, put on 4 stone having him, was worth every second, he's my miracle baby
#family
xx
Love love LOVE sunnies weather, they hide a multitude of sins, and I feel better having a ' mask ' from the world ( typical ADHD, ASD ) ... so ( always resting bitch face )
#ThursdayMotivations
#oldbird
#adhd
#asd
xx
Gratuitous selfie as I start chapter 52 ... single mum, skint AF ( in my poundland glasses 😉 ) with more issues than Vogue, but I have my boys with me, incredible friends, have my driving licence back & am ready for this next year ...
#chapter52
#birthdayvibes
#oldbird
#sendwine
Autism awareness month. We are mums, grandparents, lovers, we love and feel and live like every else but we have to navigate the world which isn't built for our needs. So, if you've met one autistic person, that's it, you have met one, we are all unique ..
#AutismAwarenessMonth
Just sharing. I had a horrid 20 year marriage with a narcissist who abducted our youngest son & almost drove me to suicide. I swore never again. 5 years on from the divorce, I'm in love, ecstatically happy & would honestly marry him tomorrow ...
#love
❤️
He is so amazing, why doesn't his Dad bother with him ( or our other 2 gorgeous children ) ? As soon as he met his - now 3rd - wife, he slowly disappeared, breaks my heart on a daily basis. I'll delete later but I will never understand ... I'm the lucky one ..
#singlemom
#love
❤
Last day of being 52 ... gratuitous fishing
#selfie
... but if you're 'only as old as the man you feel' then I'm alright, J is 40 😉 ...
#thisis52
#Birthday
#old
❤️
I had a mishap on Friday evening ... fell up some gravel stairs ( no PIR light ) massively grazed leg, fingers, toes, banged my head a little, twisted my ankle, we are all clumsy, part of the ASD, bloody hurt though !
#asd
#ouch
xx
#dund
#DUND
#HumpDay
#HumpDaaaaaayyyy
Not officially dressed up, but, am in an office & it's very hot. This time last year I could barely get out of bed ! My best friend is letting me volunteer a little at her garage, so massive strides for me, I have THE best friends ❤❤❤
#Tuesday
... my Cruella Deville streak is emerging ( need a new box of dye, haven't been able to afford to go to a hairdresser's in years ), eyebrows need professional help, would like to get my nails done, just some pampering, just venting & feeling sorry for myself ... x
Exciting day for me ! Whoop woop, it's the sound of da police ! ( I told my son, this will be the state of the car when he does his ' nee naw ' training in a couple of weeks 😀
#Police
#family
xx
@Classicbritcom
My Dad ... Sound Supervisor at Thames, did hundreds of programmes, an eclectic mix from Rumpole, Rainbow, The Bill, Sweeney, Minder, The Avengers, Man about the house, was there until 1990 ... x
The look of love ... missed him SO much and (a) we were only away 3 days and (b) he isn't my cat ... he arrived the minute we returned home ... maybe 3 days is an infinite amount of time for a cat .. he's certainly been very chatty & attentive ..
#notmycat
#CatsOfTwitter
#family
In simpler times, when James was 4 and I could comfort him to sleep in my arms.
Unfortunately he has deteriorated again today, back on IV fluids, morphine & tramadol etc, horrid for him & a worry all round.
Thanks for everyone's messages and comments, this can be lonely.
#Grease
Every time, every single time, without fail, when she sings " But now, there's nowhere to hide, since you pushed my love aside ... " memories pour out my eyes.
Joshua's watching the film in disbelief & wondering why his 52 year old mum is crying at a lame film 🤣
So in amongst the shit show of a week ( yes I'll lose 1000 followers but idgaf ) I've had social services over, broken up with my boyfriend, turned 54, have a poorly Dad, poorly children and grandchild and feel like 💩 but I had Interflora today so a little beauty ...
#flowers
xx
#DUND
#DressUPnotdown
#dund
#Wednesday
Didn't dress up today so here's one I made earlier ... from summer, when I bothered with straighteners and two eyebrows instead of one 😉😇🤣
I bought new full length non ripped jeggings & I needed shorts ( haven't bought or worn any in a long time, maybe 3 years ) and these from ' Yours ' are so comfortable and I'm hoping not ' mutton ' at aged almost 54 ... but I love them ...
#shorts
#jeggings
#yours
#xx
Thanks for all the messages, comments, support & love. I got home late last night, James is in AAU, getting better slowly, still on morphine etc, it's a long road yet ... xx
Seeing 2021 in with my one & only, been a single mum since December 2017, have been broken, beaten, almost completely defeated, but, we will prevail, we have to ... thanks for all the love & support this year, I'm slightly inebriated so forgive the tipsy post ... xx
A bit late but this was my new year's, Joshua & Cookie cat, was quiet, films, food & bed before 11pm, love my son but maybe 2022 needs to be different, I need a life too, don't wish to be a lone wolf anymore, changes need to happen ...
#HAPPYNEWYEAR2022
#Saturday
#family
#change
I'm really worried, Cookie cat hasn't been seen since Friday, he comes to mine every day, at least a half dozen times, I'm distraught, just hoping he's on an adventure or shut in somewhere .... this was him on Thursday ... come back Cookie we love you ❤️
#CatsOfTwitter
#notmycat
Amazing charity shop find, a brand new, this season, H & M jacket ... drum roll please ... £9 at Age UK Frimley, what a bloody steal ... so so so chuffed. When you are at the stage of going into emergency accommodation, bargains like this are a life saver ...
#charity
#happy
xx
@TheofficialDund
#DUND
#DressUPnotdown
I'm dressed in clean clothes, my hoody matches the writing on my leggings, I'm spotty, 2 stone heavier, my roots are bad, but, I'm 50, a single mum, we both have MH issues & are autistic, home schooling, juggling life, it's hard.
Yesterday afternoon in a nutshell ... chronic pain, refillable fizzy, lunch with my best mate ... 3 hours of girly chat, putting the world to rights, pub grub, cheap as chips ( figuratively and literally ! ) and pub garden, lovely afternoon ...
#thursdayvibes
#Thursday
#friends
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So, as if life isn't hard enough, with all the stress, I managed to collapse unconscious on Monday & get blue lighted into hospital. Thanks to the ambulance crew, paramedics, ED staff, consultant, nurses etc, I was looked after with the utmost care, thank you
@FrimleyHealth
❤
I would like to go back to a Saturday afternoon in the 70's when there were the old fashioned school and church fetes. Sack race, egg & spoon race, winning an egg, sausage & slice of bacon from picking the whole egg in the sand box, buying bric a brac & glorious sunshine ... xx
I have lived in scruffs, no make up, not looked after myself for 4 years, post divorce from a narcissist, put on weight, zero confidence ensued & now I'm finding myself again, bought some girl clothes, and yes I'm 53 next month but I'm not ready for polyester slacks just yet ..
Yesterday I spent most of the day crying. Things are utterly crap to be blunt. So, I spelt out a little of my feelings at dinner time. They would have been worse if I had had the letters N & T too ... honestly, I would give up if I could but I'm a single mum so no choice ..
#FML
Look what I did this afternoon ... oh my goodness, it's been a fortnight and gosh, I missed them both. Chantelle was having a hair cut so I had a LOT of cuddles with this one, 4 hours in fact ... and she SMILED at me 🥰 ... she's 6 weeks already ... love her ❤️
#granddaughter
xx
I feel like poo, I'm off to the minor injuries clinic as my butterfly earring back has embedded itself firmly inside my ear lobe. I fear it will mean a procedure. Am ☹️ ... however, in better news, this one is now our permanent visitor as his mum moved today ...
#Friday
xx
@TheofficialDund
#dund
#DressUPnotdown
... was up with anxiety & panic attacks all night so leggings & my favourite NYPD hoodie today ( as usual ) ... however, I did put my pearl earrings in & tackled my eyebrows ... believe me this is progress .. xx
Gosh, now versus exactly 6 years ago ....I was 47, going through a horrendous divorce ( DV, ex kidnapped Joshua ) ... went down to 8 stone in 4 months ... now am 53, 3 stone heavier ( stress, meds, epilepsy etc ) but am determined to get fitter & stronger ...
#ThrowbackThursday
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