I want to advertise again my first solo authored pub and my first furry pub! Featured in Queer Studies in Media and Popular Culture, my goal was to focus on furs of color and how important furry is to our everyday life!
coming soon:
my dissertation on queer and trans of color furry art and performance! this project has been in the works for over four years and I'm so excited for it to be out soon! a readable PDF will be out and I hope to make it as accessible as possible!
DM for questions!
go to furry cons even if you're nervous, see friends who live far away or who you have lost touch with, start hrt if you are thinking about it, because time goes by so fast and you may regret waiting.
❗️Furry Dissertation Out❗️
i want to finally share the result of a three year study on queer and trans furries of color! fourteen furries were included in this study, so please be respectful of their participation. otherwise, i hope you all enjoy!
I rewatched I Saw the TV Glow last night and it was even more powerful the second time around. Towards the end I started to recall important memories from my life related to the years leading up to my medical transition. 1/10
this is so real, so much of my life is a haze, and looking back to whoever that was feels like looking at a stranger. i wasted so much time, but at least im here now.
thank you all for liking my art! ❤️ it was so nice to wake up to such a positive response to my work! thanks for supporting and I'll be posting more soon!!
i really want another fursuit, i really want another fursuit, i really want another fursuit, i really want another fursuit, i really want another fursuit, i really want another fursuit, i really want another fursuit
long shot, but any queer indie game devs/writers/artists in the PNW want to come to my queer writing class in the fall to talk about their creative process? feel free to dm for more info!
ARE Y'ALL READY???
Because we have our full lineup and flyer for ADVENTURE CRU X IMPACT! and it is STACKED!
On the bangers stage, NONSTOPPUP, APOLLO, BVDGRRL, SOGGY DOGGY, JIMNI CRICKET, AND CHOMPER!
On the chill stage, CISCO, FANTASYLUV, RECCA, AND KLSLWSK!
🎫 👇 🎫 👇🎫 👇
It's been more than two years and I haven't had a panic attack at the level in which I experienced it before since. I knew hrt saved my life when my fear of death was no longer rooted in the possibility of regret, and I realized that again last night. 10/10
It wasn't until I started to talk with, and become more involved with, trans people in my local community that I felt like there was a way out. In expressing my feelings to those around me, many encouraged me to investigate my fears and interrogate my current lifestyle. 7/10
note: thank you to everyone involved in this process. all of you who call yourselves furries, you are all amazing and i love you. this study was for you!
I was not really scared of the possible physical pain that comes with dying, it was instead this fear that I was going to be missing out on something, that I wasn't living life yet, that there was something missing and if I died it would be too soon and a shame. 3/10
After pushing back against my body and my mind, both which feared change but were surprisingly comfortable with existing in this state of panic, I began to start my transition. Slowly over time my anxiety began to lift, and life began to feel not as urgent. 8/10
I remember that before I medically transitioned, for about 5 years, I was having an increasing number of panic attacks over time. They would continually get worse and worse where I was going to the ER almost monthly. I realized that my panic was rooted in a fear of dying. 2/10
After two years I realized that what I was missing out on was truly living as me, or living as me without having to create and become someone to hide behind. I now no longer fear the possibility of regret that comes with living as someone who I am not until it's too late. 9/10
At the time I was not sure what it was that I was missing out on, maybe it was something career related, but I kept on living as [deadname] while continually managing a building panic that at any moment life could end and I would regret not living. 4/10
I would tell the doctors, nurses, and social workers at the hospital how sorry I was, how much of an inconvenience I must have been, how silly it was for me to be here again over and over with the same feelings that never lifted. 6/10
The months leading up to me starting my medical transition the panic was getting worse and I was going to the ER almost weekly and calling friends terrified with feelings like I was going to die. At moments I almost wanted to die to end this horrible cycle. 5/10
@oxalisnebula
whaaa these types of conversations with other trans girls actually helped me come to terms with my own trans feelings before I started hrt!
@TaciturnDeer
We need more mean, I was living in Atlanta for 10 years before returning to PDX and I still get looks here for just talking too loud at a cafe lol but whatever ;3