the army she commanded were the notorious folk revival religious cult pulajanes. they would bathe in the blood of the slain japanese enemy and display their heads in paths. most of the pulajanes members were illiterate, maleducated, but they were masters of anatomy …
Guerilla commander Nieves Fernandez shows an American soldier how she used her knife to kill unsuspecting Japanese soldiers during their occupation of the Philippines, 1944.
speaking of pangitain, there were many suppositions revolving around the origin of yolanda, one being the legend of 'himurasak'. in the version of the locals of southern leyte, before yolanda’s devastation, first, there was 'himurasak'. weeks before its cataclysmic arrival …
imagine being handed with this and the rrl contains citations from chingbee, dimalanta, gracio, mookie lacuesta-katigbak, hozier, vuong, olzmann, shakespeare, sappho, browning, byron, carroll, plath, neruda, siken, carson, adunis …
imagine being criminally handsome that the gay boys, the enbies, the dolls, the lesbians, the bi girls, and even the straight men have actually found a common ground, unified more than ever like the parts of voltes V …
i’ve always fiercely believed that there is a reader in each and everyone of us, it just takes the right book to awaken it. it is our human nature to connect, to belong, to be seen — and if we don’t receive it from people, we always run to the arts.
May nakita ako kanina na nagbabasa sa NBS dito sa probinsya. May mga gusto pang magbasa, hindi lang talaga accessible ang panitikan para sa maraming tao.
see how magical and dreamy the streets are when blessed by beautiful trans folks instead of hypersexual f-words who fight for their fetishes to be celebrated publicly???
here’s an old fisherman wisdom. you cannot possibly swim against the sulog (ocean current) if you are swimming on the surface hence the most strategic trick is to dive deeper and swim beneath it. this isn’t the ocean (albeit there is sulog) but the big guy understands that well
100 years later since the last deluge of tacloban between the years 1900-1914, Yolanda came.
the women of tacloban were the real shit, i can’t help but think they really have gifts far beyond the understanding of a non-believer/an ordinary human.
the women of tacloban were really fucking cool. benedicta/la santa de leyte, self-proclaimed babaylan saved hundreds of her followers by taking them to the hilltop of mt. agani after she prophesied that tacloban would be followed by a great flood once every hundred years.
always dressed in all-black, barefoot, and carried charms/anting-anting. she was a school-teacher-turned-guerrilla-leader. she stood against them when the japs threatened to take her students from her, turn them into sex slaves before eventually killing all of them.
that particular killing blow is part of the pulajanes martial art called “derobio eskrima” and it’s done either using a bolo, long knife, or a scythe (sanggot), ensuring a silent kill during ambushes by quickly cutting the carotid artery. she was also described as ruthless …
these are names of sons, daughters, and wives. in the place i came from, when a man names his boat after you, it means you are deeply loved.
you are always with them wherever the sea, or fate takes them.
nothing captures the queer experience like CRJ singing “i’m not the type of girl for you, and i’m not going to pretend” with full resolve and utmost conviction, only to belt “BUT I’LL MAKE TIME FOR YOU” in the later part of the song.
oh to be made hypocrite by love yep yep
do you feel ill or extreme fatigue after performing hilot on another person?
what i learned about hilot from our elders is that it isn't about healing the physical material body — hilot, in fact is a gift (bulaan) given to only chosen few …
there was an overabudance of fish to a point the shores smelt of rot — too many fish caught that they had to be thrown away. A tambalan said that such blessing of the sea (grasya) shouldn't have been treated like that, and that the day of retribution will come any soon —
i stopped yearning for my ex when i actually started going out and exhaust my love, time, and energy to family and friends. omg y’all should really try building better relationships, and by better i mean relationships outside romance.
huhu taught my grade 11 students today about feminist theory in our DISS and asked them to write an essay about a woman they think is a feminist icon and one of my students made an example out of me for defending them against the tanod and the police last fiesta 😭😭😭
i could only imagine her in a ph myth-based series as burigadang pada sinaklang bulawan. note that the goddess is a notorious temptress, dressed in all gold, her skin is brown as the earth and glistens once exposed to the sun. SHE IS LITERALLY EVERY DESCRIPTION OF THE GODDESS 😩
see Vico??? HE DIDN'T BADMOUTH HIS PEOPLE, instead he acknowledged the causative agents to why people (especially the poor) are still forced to go out even at the heights of pandemic then found a solution to minimize that.
matig'a an ulo, bangin? bangin liwat matapobre la kam
really enraging that there are lawyers/law students who care so much more about the law, an abstract (and often biased, self-serving, and parasitic) concept than actual PEOPLE, LITERAL CHILDREN.
lawyers really are one of the vilest groups of people that walk this world
one time i was so hungry i went to jollibee and immediately sat on the table with a leftover chicken and bilang baklang buraot kinain ko sya thinking it was really a leftover ... until the owner came back from the CR--
bigla akong nilagnat
@laiixxiv
i grew up from a very small island sandwiched between mainland samar and masbate, and on season of himurasak, we don’t sell the excess fish to the villagers, we give it to them freely through “panhukbit” where the villagers will go to the shore to harvest as many as they could
there is something so sinister in 🧂 gays dragging trans women comfortably in conversations that aren’t even centered about them
like WHY INVOLVE TRANS WOMEN TO MAKE A POINT ABOUT YOUR PSEUDO-EXISTENT OPPRESSION???
This is no different for trans who don’t wanna be called sir/kuya/mr/etc and you fully support them by how they feel abt it.
Let us not invalidate other ppl’s preference just bec it’s not the same as yours.
this is why i will never ever consider being with a man again because they are only ever capable of expressing everything through anger and the language of violence
rest in power sister. may he never get a good sleep in his remaining lifetime
when you grew up in a household that barely allowed you to speak your thoughts (when you did, you were made to feel "ungrateful" "know-it-all" "too demanding") tendency is, in your adulthood, even something as telling someone how you should be loved feels so much like a crime
@magmartsa
and the fact that the choreography has its paganistic roots. the sinulog dance follows the movement of sulog, or the ebb and flow of the tide — which i believe has long existed since the precolonial settlers of cebu. catholics shouldnt have a monopoly on its sancity tbh
this is the first, real poem i wrote when i dared to release a book. i remember writing this in a dark alleyway back in 2019, all while drinking ginbulag with friends, hiding desperately from the curfew patrol 💀💀💀
on loving a son of manila, in waray
actually, what happened was my students were mistaken to have instigated a riot last fiesta and the police had to intervene. of course, i’m not forsaking my students knowing full fucking well what the police is capable of. my allegiance will always be with my students tbh
@laiixxiv
we are deeply superstitious and we dont take the idea of gaba lightly. we fear divine retribution of wasting grasya hence we remember to be a little generous, and find ways to preserve excess fish by making bulad, ginamos, dayok, and budo (excessively salted fish) out of them.
i just saw the trailer of maine and carlo's movie at putang ina just when??? just when did maine become that good at acting????????? ang lala!!!!!! 😭😭😭
Until the old, “established” poets consider having a little less hubris, local literature will continue to struggle in its need to take space. Local literature is dying, poetry being treated like a luxury rather than a necessity it’s almost a shame to be a poet these days.
meaning, even emotions like grief could be transferred to manghihilot and they are bound to carry it until that grief leaves.
so be careful who you try to heal, you might end up having a fair share of what you once try to take away from them.
i genuinely despise all of you bitches whose everything that runs in your rotten brain is sex sex sex. the man i am with last night was my cousin, my LITERAL COUSIN and it’s fcking nauseating that you insist that the man i am with is a “booking”. deranged, satanic, neurotic
the old testament speaks so much of the Father’s cruelty, and the new testament somehow, speaks of the Son’s ever-loving and ever-forgiving nature. i’d like to think that Jesus, the Only Begotten Son, was given to the world by the Father as His ultimately apology to mankind.
ok now Im crying because Jesus was human. and not just in the way that God became human to save us . like he had dirt under his finger nails and could feel embarrassed
nothing more heartbreaking than that kikay “one of the girls” gay teenage boy growing up into a masc4masc thirst trapper who occasionally tweets the letter “h” like im so sorry society failed u 😢
that’s my distant nephew. he stopped going to school at a tender age of 15. he said reading isn’t his habit but he couldn’t put down the book maqueda (nap arcilla III).
he says it reminds him of the sea, his childhood, and that it’s such a good book. the book makes him remember.
and it's both the artform and the ability to soothe the soul or "kalag". but like many gifts, hilot isn't really free — once you 'hilot' someone's sickness away, in return, you become sick as they heal. in other words …
apparently, one of the men in that metroscene mag list of young filipino poets defining local poetry chuchu looks like this.
anyway, is this a safe space? i have things to say
manghihilot/parapanhilot heals the sick by actually owning the illness.
the manghihilot then feels a feeling of extreme fatigue or symptoms of flu thereafter. ancient visayans believe that when the material body is sick, the person's kalag is also sick and in order to cure them,
my wildest dream for my hometown is to have a better rate of literacy, so they could be informed by the world better, could tell their stories better, so they could vote for themselves, so they could go to places without having to leave home, and mostly, so they could dream
if you want to start reading poetry, i strongly suggest these poems as kickstarters. i just discovered (and rediscovered) them lately, and like a certain itching, they’ve never left my brain since 🫶
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warsan shire
to put it, hilot is an empath's gift. the people who I know that are good at the art of "hilot" also tend to be the most intuitive, and also tend to have a tendency to carry other people's emotional baggages — pain, grief, guilt — which explains why …
like there is literally an entire poem dedicated to moreno men in my book because i find them so beautiful 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
(this poem being about my first childhood crush, a beautiful, cheeky, island boy)
@laiixxiv
it’s not regionalist i think, in fact we take pride on being people of myths, stories, superstitions, and folklore as it makes us people with great respect to nature and the things beyond our mortal grasp. our kindness to nature and each other is somehow rooted from them :)
pakisabi naman kay migz na binigyan ako ng taning ng doctor, mga isang linggo na lang akong mabubuhay sana man lang makatulog ako sa braso niya bago ako mamatay please
my boyfriend is trapped along with his homophobic family because of ECQ and has been suffering from anxiety attacks more frequently this past few weeks. beyond thankful to sir
@JerryGracio
for his wisdom, your words were a tight warm hug in his tonight's battle 😭😭😭 ty sir
well, here’s me being a proud mom to my hometown’s children for being such keen learners. this was the 6th week of our reading sessions, 2 of them were non-readers. i legit broke down in tears after witnessing their progress 🫠🫠🫠
we should start teaching filipino men to talk with the same cadence, class, and confidence instead of glorifying them saying the n-word and their caricature of aave
these are names of sons, daughters, and wives. in the place i came from, when a man names his boat after you, it means you are deeply loved.
you are always with them wherever the sea, or fate takes them.
simply, its transmisogyny
you could think of it in an althusserian way how ppl are hailed by labels via interpellation and constituted into subject(ivity)
+ internalized homophobia, its their way of putting trans women in their place/making sure trans women know their place
many of legit manghihilot refuses to perform the artform on non-family members mostly when the sick just had a loved one die because there are instances that it's not only the illness (flu, cold, etc) that is transferred, even the sick's "dala-dala".
because half of us are no longer writing anyway and have forgotten what it’s like to be literate literally we just sleep, eat, and work we have forgotten how to be writers and just have accepted being slaves to capitalism 🥳🥳🥳
this is the first, real poem i wrote when i dared to release a book. i remember writing this in a dark alleyway back in 2019, all while drinking ginbulag with friends, hiding desperately from the curfew patrol 💀💀💀
on loving a son of manila, in waray
'Tala' by the Filipino pop icon Sarah Geronimo is a lyrically-exquisite composition that utilizes our unblemished pre-Hispanic, animistic/pagan heritage by acknowledging the Tagalog goddess of the stars ‘Tala’’, used ethnic-inspired beats and choreography to complement the song
i do regret being hypersexual at such a young age. i’ve risked my life and lost so many meaningful relationships due to it. if i get to advice young queer people, i always tell them to have as much fun, but that fun shouldn’t cost them to anchor their worth on sexual desirability
he was actually a non-reader even after graduating from elementary. he was one of my earliest students when i taught non-reader children from the island to read. now he asks for tagalog books from me from time to time.
the kalag should be healed first before the material body — hence the rituals such as suna, which involves whispering or citing incantations on the sick in order to purge the dark elements out of the patient’s body.
couldn’t afford a new phone at a time hence the poor quality of the video 😬
i came from a family of illiterates, in fact, i am a first generation college graduate. until today, too many children including teenagers do not know how to read from my hometown.
this. i hate how this self-help/motivational pages downplay anger being an ugly part of our range of emotions, how it is deterrent to people's growth etc forgetting that, kindness, more than often, takes the form of anger.