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@love2killmyself
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HOW I LOST 100 LBS AS A 5 FEET TALL PERSON My Ed story❤️🪽 ~ 👒 I’ll tell u guys about What I did, my story, what I ate, how I felt at different weights, and before and after pics!! THIS IS A VERY VERY LONG THREAD 🧵 🪡 TL;DR AT THE BOTTOM 💘🎧🎑😁! RT+❤️
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@love2killmyself
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It’s crazy how dream reached his ugw before face revealing
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@slensquared cant believe he just dropped this one
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@love2killmyself
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this was so hard to watch simply bc I remember being treated exactly like this by my “friends” when I was fat lmao
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Wait bc this just gave me flashbacks 🤕
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@love2killmyself
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@love2killmyself
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How I broke my 22h fast
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@love2killmyself
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6 months
What genre of human is this
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@love2killmyself
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tw bc Guys how do I look😍 this is me fr
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@love2killmyself
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This video just pissed me off so bad
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@love2killmyself
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put me in one of these after 6pm and I’d reach my ugw in 90 days
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In 2013, a Turkish man named Ibrahim Yücel locked his head in a cage to stop smoking, so that he wouldn't die from lung cancer like his father.
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@love2killmyself
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Me at age 12 listening to Melanie Martinez sing “No one will love you if you’re unattractive”
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@love2killmyself
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8 months
Laughed and then remembered my bmi… yeah ain’t shit funny
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@love2killmyself
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Do u guys like my napkin art? What do u see in it
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@love2killmyself
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6 months
I cant believe I used to be real life fat like omg girl
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@love2killmyself
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7 months
my max and ruby cake I made for my sister ❤️❤️❤️❤️ I love her so much I worked so hard on it
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@love2killmyself
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5 months
Like why is he acting like that, omg what is with the look of disgust on his face bruh she deserves sm better and those tacos look amazing
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@love2killmyself
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@love2killmyself
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Just found out I won’t get skinny if I eat nothing but chips and chocolate for every meal
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@love2killmyself
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11 months
How in the hell.. these grapes are MASSIVE
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@love2killmyself
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10 months
WAIT STOP STOP I HAVE OFFICIALLY LOST 100 LBS I HAVE REACHED THE 100 LBS DOWN MARK EVERYONE CHEER
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@love2killmyself
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@love2killmyself
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Me if calories didn’t exist for a whole day
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@love2killmyself
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11 months
Your one childhood friend that had a house that looked like this
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@love2killmyself
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6 months
me gasping at the scale on tomodachi life is so funny
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@love2killmyself
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11 months
Another 20h fast another meal 🥱
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@love2killmyself
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1 year
how i felt waking up in the 130s (been fat my whole Life)
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@love2killmyself
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2 years
low effort meme
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@love2killmyself
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@fleurorexic don’t come on my page being intentionally dense
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@love2killmyself
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2 years
the urge to delete all my socials except for twt and dedicate all my time to SKINNY
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@love2killmyself
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8 months
U know she had to live at her grandmas !
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@love2killmyself
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6 months
y’all are so sensitive and dramatic goodbye that was fucking funny
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the ableism oh
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@love2killmyself
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Have u guys ever had this brand of chocolate before ugh I’d sell my fucking soul to eat them every day n not gain
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@love2killmyself
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8 months
I have to confess something… when I was fat I didn’t make my bitmoji fat because idk it’s embarrassing
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@love2killmyself
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9 months
British ppl snapped when they invented the chips sandwich cuz this is amazing asf i 290 cals
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@love2killmyself
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10 months
Bmi 43(?) to bmi 23 (5’0 / 152cm) This shi kinda crazy sorry about the piss poor quality /editing /angles lol
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@love2killmyself
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8 months
I know people say shit like being fat is a choice and that’s true to some degree, but I didn’t choose childhood obesity you feel me and now I have all this stretch marks and loose saggy skin like I didn’t fucking choose that okay
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@love2killmyself
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Looking at thjnspo of a 5’11 woman while being 5’0 just feels so redundant like that will never ever be me so why am I even trying to attain that
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@love2killmyself
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9 months
What non disordered people think happens when you show disordered people pictures of food:
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@love2killmyself
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Would you eat this for $1million
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@love2killmyself
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How i feel cuz I’ve really let myself go these past few days
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@love2killmyself
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@THINPIXI FRRRR can’t tell if it’s a “i did that” post or a “dont binge guys…” post ☠️☠️☠️
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@love2killmyself
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@4everf4iling me after reaching a new lw
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@love2killmyself
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5 months
“You have to eat 3500 OVER your maintenance to gain 1lb of fat, it’s just water weight!!” You don’t know me bruh
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@love2killmyself
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5 months
but when we tweet this shit .. nvm
@jenni__tolls
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We didn’t have ‘Ozempic.’ Back in my day we did it the old fashioned way (abusing the myfitnesspal app until you eventually develop bulimia)
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@love2killmyself
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⚠️ 🔑🔑🔑 I will say that consistent high res (900-1200) and exercising/10k steps daily is the way. You MUST BE PATIENT!! Trust the process! PATIENCE and CONSISTENCY are the true KEYS 🔑 to achieving your goals. It will not happen overnight and it will not be a linear process.
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@love2killmyself
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Do u ever get sad because u love food so much and u wish u could just eat what u want and not gain weight and then u see non-disordered people eating whatever they want and not gaining weight and being naturally skinny with fast metabolism and then u think about killing urself
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@love2killmyself
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10 months
Would yall be interested in a thread about my 100 lb weight loss at 5 feet tall
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@love2killmyself
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@malyshka444 I know I feel for her so hard, I wish I could give her a hug fr
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@love2killmyself
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How old were u the first time u smoked a cigarette I was 12 lol
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@love2killmyself
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@da1ntyfa1ry4 this literally reads like it’s not even real, like a fucking soap opera script
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@love2killmyself
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Rest in peace
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@love2killmyself
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Also I listen to subliminals and am a firm believer in LOA so if you wanna know more about that I can make a thread about it too. I seriously believe LOA+Subs has helped TREMENDOUSLY!! 1st pic 2020 2nd pic 2018 3+4th pic, 2023 ⚠️ these images are edited/filtered
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@love2killmyself
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The facial fat loss is crazy, ALSO I LOST MY BOOBS. I used to have boobs and I don’t anymore. My chest is very flat now my boobs basically deflated 2018 ➡️2023
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@love2killmyself
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@ACelosies Ok first of all I don’t allow mouth breathers on my page second of all the plate is clearly meant to be shared so I don’t know why he’s not eating with her and just sitting there judging. That’s what I was referring to but anyways
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@love2killmyself
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Cake I made a month ago vs today.. I fell off hard
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@love2killmyself
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@fleursworld omg why did i think u literally got amputated was like bae omg
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@love2killmyself
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It’s crazy how binge eating really does fill the void for a few minutes
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@love2killmyself
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God this is me I have a fucking hummus problem
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me when dinner
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@love2killmyself
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Edtwt be like: “ewwww watch this super hot sexy chick dance for the camera and her thang thangin too ewww so gross eww”
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@love2killmyself
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@woodvvale honestly you might be onto something, his fans did create a certain image of him and held him to a rly high standard , thatd be crazy lmaoa
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@love2killmyself
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@B0NGBONES my recent favs
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@love2killmyself
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hi i’m bored af so i’m looking for new moots - edtwt - 21 y/o, she/her - i like cats and reading books and making mood boards and rhythm games - i don’t fb -16 like n rt
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@love2killmyself
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10 months
I was around 130-140lbs at this time. I could not get out of this range for the life of me. Some of these pics are heavily posed btw.
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@love2killmyself
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UHH IM DEADASS NOT LYING BTW PLEASE IGNORE MY LEGS BUT WTF THAT WAS SO SCARY IT TRIED COMING THROUGH TJE CAT DOOR☠️☠️☠️
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@love2killmyself
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Whoever has my voodoo doll can you please take some stuffing out of the stomach and thighs area please
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@love2killmyself
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Me waiting for the first responders to pull out the jaws of life and remove the dead bodies from the tragic accident so i can pull my lukewarm Wendys 4 for 4 from the backseat
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DoorDash option to get the order yourself if your driver is in a crash
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@love2killmyself
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It took me a couple months to get back on my grind. Just keep believing in yourself. I also dont use trackers/do diets because life is very unpredictable. Once I learned to portion control and adapt easily to situations, I felt I had gained control back and started losing again.
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@love2killmyself
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bro I swear u just say shit just to say shit
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Nobody actually likes tuna, we’re all lying to ourselves
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@love2killmyself
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10 months
Part 3: honeymooning By this time I had found edtwt. How I got here is a story for another day. During my honeymoon era I was consistent with low-med res. I would do IF for 18-20 hours a day and omad dinner at night. I was around 190-180 then so I was burning a lot of cals.
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@love2killmyself
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@calriio LMFAO WHY IS THIS SO ACCURATE
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@love2killmyself
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Part 5: habits I am not crazy about my macros or my food being “healthy”. My mindset is that a calorie is a calorie and as long as I stay under a certain limit, there is no way I WONT lose weight. Things like fasting 18-22h a day, getting my steps in, and using
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@love2killmyself
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intermittent fasting, which then led me to see how long I could go without eating for. This was me around 200 lbs, late 2021-early 2022. I was obsessively consuming weight loss content online, which brought back memories of browsing pr0ana tumblr as a 12y/o.
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@love2killmyself
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This gotta be one of the most evil pics of all time they definitely knew what they were doing
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@love2killmyself
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Lost 1lb
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High asf rn this how I feel
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@love2killmyself
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I went from 190-170 in 4 months. At 175 lbs, I left to study abroad in EU and lost roughly 30-40 pounds in 3.5 months there. I was walking 10,000+ steps DAILY and if I wasn’t meeting my goal I was pacing to reach it. I was also consistently eating ~800-1200 cals a day. ~150lb
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@love2killmyself
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Part 1 - my backstory I was always a fat kid. The first time I noticed was bigger/felt insecure about my weight I was in first grade. I wasn’t able to perform like the other kids in gym class and I was bullied a lot for my weight. I was obese all the way into my adolescence.
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@love2killmyself
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⚠️DISCLAIMER⚠️ I will not be sharing explicit tips on how to purge, starve, etc. this is about my weight loss and Ed story. Please read at your own risk and I am not promoting this behavior. But I can’t force anyone to do/not do something so don’t hold me accountable thxbye
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@love2killmyself
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This lady’s content is so much funnier with the sound off her expressions lollllllllllll
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@love2killmyself
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TL;DR I was obese child and BMI 40+ as a teen. Went thru trauma, tried losing weight the normal way, developed an ED, spiraled. Mainly did 800-1200 (high res) and 10k steps daily. A calorie is a calorie. I don’t consider myself ana I consider myself EDNOS. -100lbs in 1.5 years
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@love2killmyself
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For reference, I was over 120lbs at around 9-10 years old. This was me during my junior year of HS. I was over 220+lbs at this point (BMI 40+) and I was absolutely miserable. I felt like I had solidified my role as the “fat friend” in my life.
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@love2killmyself
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i just rly can’t stand these types of foods my biggest fear foods like wtf is this
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@love2killmyself
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@brutalismus3003 Most triggering shit ever I swear Lmfaoo he was so evil for this
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@love2killmyself
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I remember back then I was so in denial about how big I was. My family told me “it’s just baby fat, you’ll grow out of it” but if I wasn’t being ignored I was basically treated like shit. Of course this wears down on your soul as a person so I knew I had to make a change.
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@love2killmyself
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A lot of triggering things happened during that relationship. For example, he tried to pick me up once and failed. 😭 This among other moments had affected me so much mentally that I started devoting all my time and energy to weight loss. I started doing
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@love2killmyself
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I got something huge to say and I’ll say it proudly
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WOULD
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@love2killmyself
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@teamazula this is so true but I love how u said “as a fat” I chuckleddd😭😭
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@lilitha011 fr like is she eating caviar everyday or sum shit
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@love2killmyself
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Me at age 12 when Melanie Martinez said “mom, please wake up, dads with a slut and your son is smoking cannabis”
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@love2killmyself
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@SwimmingBirdss Exactly bruh like even if it’s a skit it’s still fucked up idk it’s not funny at all
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@love2killmyself
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2-3 months? And I had only lost around… 10 pounds. Which makes sense, but I remember feeling very defeated.. like, that’s it? Some months later, I broke up with my ex at the time and this heartbreak is what I consider *the* triggering event that led to me developing an ed.
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My cursor hair clip
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@love2killmyself
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❤️ Also please don’t judge any of my outfits/makeup/hair in these pics I went through a lot of different phases ok love u guys xoxoxoxo
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