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not relapsed, not recovered, but a secret third thing °•° 17, she/her °•° ana-r

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lilli 🌷
11 months
🎃 OCTOBER ACCOUNTABILITY THREAD 🎃
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@lillislosing
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junkorexics are edtwts strongest soldiers, like wdym you broke a 48 hour fast with 3 oreo cookies
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when the scale goes up and I can't tell if it's bc of water weight, constipation, gas, undigested food, hormones, inaccurate scale, or if I gained
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hey, had a talk with doctors and my mom and I've decided to do recovery!! :) will be inactive until further notice, love all of you and remember you're all valid!!
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11 months
i don't count anything that's 5 calories or under as breaking my fast
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10 months
"don't starve yourself guys your metabolism will slow down and you'll gain on 1000 cals- 🥺🥺"
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11 months
> #edtwt intro! < -> been lurking for a few months, but now joining! ~ name's lilli! ~ BMI: 19.5 ~ 5'2 (more like 5'1.5 but shhh) ~ 17 ~ she/her _____ ~ sw: 143 lbs ~ cw: 106.6 lbs ~ pro-recovery! like + retweet to be moots!
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11 months
who needs fatspo when you can just look at photos of yourself at your hw? like I'd rather starve then look like THAT again
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"I'll be valid at BMI 19" "I'll be valid at BMI 18" "I'll be valid at BMI 17" "I'll be valid at BMI 16" "I'll be valid at-
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when I'm underweight I'll be happy when I'm underweight I'll be happy when I'm underweight I'll be happy when I'm underweight I'll be happy
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11 months
me if it was illegal to say that I gained fat knowing damn well I only ate 300 cals the day before
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me rushing to say "metabolism day!" the moment I go over my calorie limit
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my eating disorder running away the moment my mom makes food for me
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how the most unhealthy, greasy, oil filled, calorie dense food in the fridge looks at me at 3:52 AM
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11 months
I love going to school because it's easier to restrict and burn cals
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@robin_eeee im gonna be honest.. I omad a protein bar with a tiny portion of fruit on some days 💀
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@lillislosing
lilli 🌷
11 months
I'm the worlds worst anorexic
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@lillislosing
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11 months
protein bars are NOT an overrated ed food!! like YES those bitches are small but they're the only thing that keeps me from collapsing when doing low intake
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11 months
I think we need to make every single fruit 0 calories actually!!
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me if saying I'll up my intake when I hit a certain BMI knowing I'll probably lower it further was illegal
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@lillislosing
lilli 🌷
11 months
I GOT A 91% ON MY AP MATH TEST WHILE DOING LOW INTAKE WHO CHEERED??
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@lillislosing
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11 months
I starved all day just to be two pounds heavier when I got home
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bestfriEND boyfriEND girlfriEND it all ends. you know what doesn't end? constipation rt if u cried 💔💔😭😭
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@lillislosing
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11 months
I just realized I'm 7 BMI points down holy shit- I've been too focused on getting down to the 18's that I didn't even notice 😭
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11 months
main motivation to lose weight is to post the most INSANE weight loss transformation photos
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I drop .7lbs overnight and wake up BMI 19 I drop .7lbs overnight and wake up BMI 19 I drop .7lbs overnight and wake up BMI 19 I drop .7lbs overnight and wake up BMI 19
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my body watching me eat food just to exercise purge it off an hour later
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@lillislosing
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11 months
I remember when I used to try and be proud of my obese legs 💀 "I have thunder thighs!" no bitch you got them sausage link legs 😭
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I just need to get worse I just need to get worse I just need to get worse I just need to get worse I just need to get worse I just need to get worse I just need to get worse
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i wish I could disappear until I'm in the BMI 17's
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@lillislosing
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how it feels to weigh yourself after school
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@lillislosing
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11 months
I'm addicted to using this bmi comparison website I think I actually need mental help 😭
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11 months
THIS like I have an "ugw" but this all still feels so unreal. I was overweight/obese my ENTIRE life and now I'm considered skinny, it feels too good to be true
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10 months
guys...am I best ana? 🥹
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11 months
you guys NEED to get this sugar free syrup, 5 cals for 2 tablespoons and it DOESN'T taste like ana and makes EVERYTHING taste better!!
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@lillislosing
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11 months
NEVER BACK DOWN NEVER WHAT? NEVER GIVE UP 💪💪
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11 months
no you don't understand I NEED to be a very specific weight on a very specific date or I'll d1e
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11 months
I took an ex-lax which means my scale will finally go down after days of constipation but that also means I'll know my actual weight
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11 months
if I'm not 106.3 pounds or below when I wake up tomorrow I'm going to go INSANE
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11 months
I've been panicking all day on where I am between 5'1.5 and 5'2 bc of how it affects my BMI 💀 ana brain is GETTING TO ME HELP
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how I look trying to convince the scale to give me a lower weight
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11 months
my mom took away my scale but I don't have to deal with weight fluctuation stress
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I'm SO MAD at my old self for being overweight I COULD'VE BEEN SO MUCH THINNER BY NOW 😭😭
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I haven't been on the scale for weeks and I'm estimating my weight based on my tdee and calorie intake...what if I'm like 5 pounds fatter then i think. like I can see major physical change but what if
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11 months
OH MY GOD?
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⭐ UNPINNING AT BMI 19! ⭐
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me waiting for the lax to kick in
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my mom keeps saying that I'm getting "scarily skinny" and that she'll take me to the hospital like I'm not BMI 19.5 💀
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it's me, my withering belt, and pants that are 3 sizes too big against the world 🫡
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how do I both hate and miss who I was before my disorder got BAD
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@lillislosing
lilli 🌷
11 months
would u guys hate me if I tracked my weight by my caloric deficit for that day since I don't have a scale to use consistently
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@lillislosing
lilli 🌷
11 months
having ibs or digestive issues and an eating disorder is NOT for the weak
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@lillislosing
lilli 🌷
11 months
i weighed in at .8lbs more than expected instead
@lillislosing
lilli 🌷
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I drop .7lbs overnight and wake up BMI 19 I drop .7lbs overnight and wake up BMI 19 I drop .7lbs overnight and wake up BMI 19 I drop .7lbs overnight and wake up BMI 19
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just remembered I won't see a change in the scale until the miralax works and until then I have NO IDEA how much weight I'm truly losing
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@lillislosing
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is letting people joke about your weight and acting like you didn't mind for validation even though it HURT a canon event for girls who were overweight
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pro-recovery for everybody but me because I'm FAT and don't deserve to get better yet
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getting accidentally triggered to ⭐rve harder by an irl hits DIFFERENT
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me when I'm finally getting romantic attention after loosing weight but then realizing most dates revolve around food
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11 months
being american is CRAZY bc wdym I'm skinnier then about 90% of girls my age when I'm LITERALLY BMI 19.5 😭😭
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lilli 🌷
11 months
I'm so jealous of girls who can repost "when I stop eating again 🥺" videos then eat normally the next day
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@lillislosing
lilli 🌷
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@namrexic how it feels eating strawberries with sugar free syrup at 10:32PM
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@lillislosing
lilli 🌷
11 months
be brutally honest but how noticable do you think going from bmi 19.5 to bmi 18.5 in two weeks would be
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lilli 🌷
11 months
like ik a logical estimation of my weight from my tracked calorie deficit and previous weight loss experience but I NEED TO KNOWWWWW 😭
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just remembered I won't see a change in the scale until the miralax works and until then I have NO IDEA how much weight I'm truly losing
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lilli 🌷
11 months
🎃 DAY 9 🎃 CALS CONSUMED = 108 CALS BURNED = 416 NET INTAKE = -308 best ana who? but tbh today was rough mentally but at least it was good restriction wise! starting sport tomorrow so nervous on how I'll have to adjust my intake but I'll just have to see 😭😭
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10 months
I hate how no matter how much weight I lose it'll NEVER be enough.
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10 months
I've been sick all day and only been able to get below 100 steps in but I've only eaten like 10 cals so far today
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lilli 🌷
11 months
IT ONLY PARTIALLY WORKED I'M GONNA KMS 😭 at least my weight went down but IT'S STILL NOT FULLY ACCURATE ☹️☹️
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11 months
I took an ex-lax which means my scale will finally go down after days of constipation but that also means I'll know my actual weight
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11 months
💀 DAY 2 💀 CALS CONSUMED= 380 CALS BURNED= 169 NET INTAKE = 211 too lazy to put in the food I ate but I had 33g of protein so we vibin 💪💪
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11 months
☕ DAY 3 ☕ CALS CONSUMED = 252 CALS BURNED = 136 NET INTAKE = 116 restricted more today but still feel awful bc the scale won't go down, hope the lax kicks in soon enough and that I actually lost a good amount of weight that matches up with my deficit or I'll cry 🙏
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lilli 🌷
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only good thing about having autism with an ed is that the MOMENT you find a new safe food that's low cal restriction becomes like 10x easier
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lilli 🌷
11 months
🎃 DAY 6 🎃 CALS CONSUMED = 230 CALS BURNED = 176 NET INTAKE = 54 ik it's water weight bc I drank a TON of water today but I'm still nervous about my weight being 2lbs up :( I'll wake up tomorrow and weigh myself but I'm so nervous even tho I know it's ana brain being dumb
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@lillislosing
lilli 🌷
11 months
NEVER GIVE UPPPPP 🫡🫡
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NEVER BACK DOWN NEVER WHAT? NEVER GIVE UP 💪💪
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11 months
I hate weight fluctuation SO MUCH like ik that I'm still losing fat but why am I 107.5 pounds when I should be like 106.2 according to my deficit 😭😭
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lilli 🌷
11 months
💀 DAY 11 💀 CALS CONSUMED = 419 CALS BURNED = 167 NET INTAKE = 252 rip to my streak of under 100 net cals 🫡 mom made food that was SCRUMPTIOUS it was worth the calories even if ana brain says it wasn't
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11 months
🎃 DAY 4 🎃 CALS CONSUMED = 268 CALS BURNED = 231 NET INTAKE = 37 today was a good day restriction wise, and the lax I got should work tomorrow 🙏🙏 scared for the weekend tho bc school makes restricting so much easier and I'm gonna miss that
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MY MOM SAID SHE'D TAKE AWAY MY SCALE AND SHE HASN'T (yet)
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11 months
🎃 DAY 5 🎃 CALS CONSUMED = 95 CALS BURNED = 66 NET INTAKE = 29 didn't get as many steps in today as I would've liked bc I decided to go to school later, but at least my intakes low :) hoping the laxatives fully work the next time i take them 🤞
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11 months
💀 DAY 1 💀 NET INTAKE ≈ 273 CALS Fasted for most of the day, then decided to OMAD a slice of cheese pizza my parents got me. Feel guilty bc I don't know the exact calories but I'm estimating somewhere near 250 cals. gonna restrict harder during the school week 💪💪
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11 months
🎃 DAY 13 🎃 CALS CONSUMED = 215 CALS BURNED = 276 NET INTAKE = -61 today sucked but NEGATIVE NET CALS YUHHHHHH, sad tho bc it's gonna probs rain all day saturday so it's gonna be hard to burn extra cals 💔💔
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🎃 DAY 10 🎃 CALS CONSUMED = 239 CALS BURNED ≈ 341 NET INTAKE ≈ -102 delayed bc of personal stuff but still did good! calories burned may be overestimated or off bc I can't track my sport on my phone ☹️ no scale now so im nervous but I'll track my weight by deficit ig 😓
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🎃 DAY 16 🎃 CALS CONSUMED = 417 CALS BURNED = 342 NET INTAKE = 75
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🎃 DAY 8 🎃 CALS CONSUMED = 365 CALS BURNED = 438 NET INTAKE = -73 felt horrible about how much I ate but walked for two hours and a half and burned it off! feel great as well bc of the exercise and actually getting some food. might try to get an even lower net tomorrow 🤞
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lilli 🌷
11 months
the scale said 107 pounds BUT that's .4 pounds down from yesterday morning so it's okay (considering d3ath)
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if I'm not 106.3 pounds or below when I wake up tomorrow I'm going to go INSANE
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🎃 DAY 15 🎃 CALS CONSUMED = 240 CALS BURNED = 518 NET INTAKE = -278
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lilli 🌷
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@girlexpired if an irl ever comes up to me and says the words "are u on edtwt?" I'm actually ending it
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11 months
☕ DAY 12 ☕ CALS CONSUMED ≈ 460 CALS BURNED ≈ 266 NET INTAKE ≈ 194 sucks not knowing the exact amount of cals in my exercise and food but CLOSE ENOUGH 🤞 could've ate so many more cals today but I didn't so WE MOVE 💪💪 feel so bloated and full rn tho :(
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🎃 DAY 18 🎃 CALS CONSUMED = 352 CALS BURNED = 308 NET INTAKE = 44
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🎃 DAY 31 🎃 CALS CONSUMED = 175 CALS BURNED = 289 NET INTAKE = -114 THIS IS LIKE A WEEK LATE 😭😭 felt too lazy to finish this thread 💀 fun fact I had this piece of candy and felt like SHIT afterwards it was HORRID, at least this thread is DONE 🙏🙏
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🎃 DAY 27 🎃 CALS CONSUMED = 134 CALS BURNED ≈ 340 NET INTAKE = -206 saw the FNAF movie on this day it was SO GOOD! easier not to eat at the movie theater when the food prices are SO FUCKING HIGH JESUS
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☕ DAY 21 ☕ CALS CONSUMED ≈ 579 CALS BURNED = 426 NET INTAKE ≈ 153 went out with mom so my intakes higher today, but was able to burn a lot of the cals off :)
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@autmncountzcalz I'm having one everyday and I should run out once I reach my cgw 💪
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@rubyisspooky just had the pumpkin pie flavor it was SCRUMPTIOUS 😋
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11 months
🎃 DAY 7 🎃 CALS CONSUMED = 153 CALS BURNED = 175 NET INTAKE = -22 went on a walk today and burned some cals! proud of myself since I tend to stay home and eat more on the weekends. the food I also did have was some chicken breast so PROTEINNN 💪💪
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10 months
🎃 DAY 22 🎃 CALS CONSUMED = 101 CALS BURNED = 556 NET INTAKE = -455 managed to get around 20k steps this day and have very low intake! :)
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10 months
🎃 DAY 14 🎃 CALS CONSUMED = 344 CALS BURNED = 257 NET INTAKE = 87 forgot to post this! nearly had a much higher net intake day but managed to burn off some cals even tho it was raining like all day 🥳🥳
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10 months
🎃 DAY 19 🎃 CALS CONSUMED = 161 CALS BURNED = 348 NET INTAKE = -187 gonna try to post to this thread on a more consistent basis!! (lying) intakes been consistently low for a while so that's AWESOME! sucks not having a scale but I should be somewhere near BMI 18.2 so YUH
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@ghoulstarve FOOD JOB?? 😭😭
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11 months
@iceandlace I HOPE SO 🤞
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lilli 🌷
10 months
🎃 DAY 20 🎃 CALS CONSUMED = 159 CALS BURNED = 310 NET INTAKE = -151 SO CLOSE to some of my weight goals but I can feel the exhaustion getting to me 🥹 I'll be underweight soon JUST A LIL LONGER 💪💪
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