had someone raid me with 1 viewer tonight, say nothing, and then as soon as i shouted them out, they went live and instantly jumped to 27 viewers according to my mod. why are ppl like this :/ be careful, not everyone has good intentions.. </3
this is taking so much out of me rn but i just want to warn people about working with my ex rigger,
@Harulily_
. i’m not the type to go to twitter with drama, but i don’t want anyone to lose their hard earned money, thinking this dude will deliver ANYTHING he’s promised.
design reveal ✧˖*°࿐
hi, i'm kissy - the living dead girl 🫀
a vengeful spirit that's possessed the body of a porcelain doll
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#kissycore
▸ design: @/_lelysz
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#VtuberUprising
#ENVtuber
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⚠️BREAKING INSANE NEWS ⚠️
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if you are angered by or stop supporting ur fav streamer bc they get a bf.. then u are A very sTrange creature and i am scared of you
the fact that i’ve lost so many male friends or men that supported my streams bc they realized i’ll never date them hurts tbh. like do you only talk to me bc you see me as someone to fuck/date? my fault for thinking i could ever have a normal friendship with u..
@MrBGMurphy
it’s so embarrassing tbh 😭 but i guess they’re hustling / grinding ,, i went to their chat and saw them say “next victim” and start a new raid :((
Gonna be taking the next few days off stream to focus on my mental health and energy. This took a lot out of me.
Thank you to the girls who gave me the courage.
The support we received is overwhelming. Thank you for listening to us.
Now comes the healing process 🖤
❤️ KISSYU X UWU MARKET 🖤
my first merch drop ever!!! 🥹 i'm beyond excited to share my line with you guys ~ i hope you enjoy <3
﹂ clothing
﹂ keychains
﹂ room decor
dropping today @ 6pm ct!
@shopuwumarket
i don't know who's stronger.... me for becoming elden lord... or my chat for sitting through 50+ hours of me screaming, clapping, jumping around my room, cursing, and making monkey noises 💀
i commissioned him the first time to rig my model, and he kept pushing the delivery date back and back.. to the point i almost had to postpone my debut. that should’ve been where i drew the line. but i came back to get my second outfit rigged because it was more cost efficient
thank you all so much for 5k 🥹💖
to think most of my life, i felt like no one in this world would notice if i was gone. today, i understand i've touched five thousand people, and five thousand people have touched me back just the same. thank you for believing in me. i love you.
rather than just getting a new rigger altogether. i commissioned him may 2023 for the 2nd outfit. it was to be done within 4 weeks, according to his website (now taken down). he repeatedly ghosted me FOR MONTHS after paying for the service
finally, i opened up a paypal dispute in december after warning him i was going to do so. he then rushed to finish the rig, and delivered it with multiple errors.
while $600-$700 may not be a lot to some, as a part time college student, that is an ENTIRE two weeks paycheck for me. literally gone, and received “a product” i cannot use.. even though he knows the product is unusable.
constantly torn between wanting to be the kinda streamer that keeps her dms open in case her community needs anything… or closing them because i’m getting harassed daily by parasocial creeps.
this isn’t fair to me or the people who aren’t doing harm. </3
i understand i got a bit rude in the last message, but it was so frustrating! no messages from this dude in months, and then he tells me he’s going to finish the file in order to stop the refund from going through?
i’ve been undergoing a major redesign / rebrand in the last couple months, and tomorrow i finally get to share it with everyone 🥹 i’m so nervous but i hope y’all like her as much as i do <3
i wish i could stay mad at people who've hurt me. but the truth is, i hate hating people. i hate feeling angry. i hate feeling nasty in my heart. i love too much, i expect people to love as much as i do and i forgive before an apology has even been said. maybe that is where i go
he then tells me he will give me a refund anyways, but doesn’t. paypal closes the case, so i finally look at the file (i hadn’t even opened it prior to this)… and the rig is literally unusable. there are numerous errors with the mouth, teeth, neck, and toggles he left out.
Having taken the time to reflect, I apologise for using the wording I used for what Vulpixsi did to me. While it does fall under the definition of doxxing, I have come to understand that it does not fall under twitch guidelines as doxxing and therefore different wording should
paid my new rigger last night 🥹🩷 so happy and thankful to be able to move forward with my redebut after what happened with my other rigger… i didn’t think i could financially recover from it 😭
having a community is so beautiful. someone in my community just graduated boot camp. i’ve seen people get married, have children, get a new job, graduate college. and i love being updated about the big, small, and every victory they accomplish. i’m so proud of them 🥹❤️
i’ve been hurt by so many people i’ve trusted wholly, but i will never let what has happened to me turn me into a bad person. i still have a good heart. i thought it was a weakness for the longest time, but it’s my greatest strength; to forgive and love again. i will always
i need him to be begging, whimpering, stalking, coming to my house, feining, hungry, ravenous, crying, miserable, tormented, insane, psychotic, on his knees, pleading, sobbing, groaning, whining, weeping
An Open Letter To Myself,
I can feel a chapter of my life closing and a new one opening. Moving to a new place, leaving a job I’ve been at for almost three years, about to transfer to my final year of undergrad, people walking out and new ones coming in.
I’m taking one of my
for the first time in years, i’m choosing me. i’m protecting my peace and my happiness 🩷 not everyone deserves to be in your life, even if you want them there. i’m no longer accepting the love i think i deserve… i deserve better and i know that ☺️🌸✨🦋
hate when i tell someone i’m korean and they go “which one 😳‼️” and act all scared until i go “…south?” and then they’re like “phew 😅”
….like do u think i’m gonna pull a missile out of my ass crack or?
do y’all prefer hot or iced coffee? personally i miss my life before i was on discord/twitch bc i don’t really have any irl friends anymore and a part of me is afraid this is all life will ever be for me and i’ll never actually meet my friends irl. but yeah i prefer iced
my patience for bullshit has depleted dramatically in the last year. maybe i'm getting older, or maybe that girl that let people abuse her is gone. i don't know, but what i do know is it feels so fucking good.
i love streaming and i love my friends and i love everyday and i love my life and my pets and everything i have. and im just so grateful for it all. my heart is so full right now
i just want you all to know life is so much more than this. life is family, life is friends, life is love and adventure. there’s so much more that life has to offer than this. i know things like online drama and numbers seem crushing, but none of this stuff really matters.
being a girl on valorant is like being hit on non stop bc ur voice one game…. then getting told to kys and “only speak when spoken to” for giving comms the next game 😐
i have been quite vocal about this to friends and on stream, even on twitter, but i’ve refrained from using his name due to not wanting to start drama… but i know i must. i don’t want anyone else’s model to be ghosted and/or rushed/errored to such a careless person.
good morning 🌷 i spent the last couple days resting and hanging around good ppl & eating good food. feeling rly refreshed. thank you to everyone who reached out to me <3 hope everyone has a good day 🤍
the toggles i was charged for, which weren’t even included. i’ve contacted him letting him know the model is unusable and asking if he can fix it, and there has been no reply.
oky i’m srry to brag here, but im in my last math class of my college career and math is SO HARD FOR ME!!! like i’m actually a dumbass and have always been almost failing math in hs and stuff but i’ve been locking in this semester and BRUUU im doing so well on the exams 😭🥹🩷🩷
friendly reminder ples stop calling me my real name on twitch n discord tyvm !!!
i do this for security reasons cuz someone literally found out where i lived abt 6 months ago and my irl facebook and it was a wake up call that i’ve been too open on the internet.
SO EXCITED to announce that i'm officially partnered w
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i absolutely adore these products and the support i have received from their team >.< for the next 5 days, use code KISS30 for 30% off your order ~ (/^▽^)/
today on stream i will be giving away 2 starter
due to be vocal about this behind closed doors, i have had a few people reach out to me with the same issues. i’m not the only one hes ghosting currently.
first evr 24 hr stream happening rn ->
i'll be chatting, playing variety games n watchin movies with chat all day ♡ if you can hang even for just a moment, come keep me company ^.^
discord down? i was literally in the middle of having the roughest, wettest esex with my little pookie pookums poo bear >.< ermmm what the flip!!
@discord
this isn’t very pog of u.,,,
hi just want to let u all know i didn’t quit streaming. i’m just really sick and have been in and out of hospitals most of this month. i have a super bad case of pneumonia and trouble breathing on my own. been getting x-rays and on treatments, so i hope the end is near. i will be
i feel like this world is erasing me. i try so hard to forgive everyone.. believe everyone has good in them. but lately it’s becoming harder and harder to convince myself that. i don’t know if that’s a part of growing up or if i’m seeing the world for what it is.