🐹🐰♡ • ‘95, she/her, aju bi • i held 2seokkook’s hands on 211121 • busy crying about my word count (while not at all contributing to it) • free palestine 🍉
i just found a tiktok account dedicated to waking up a pug named noodle and if he flops over it’s a “no bones” day and if he stays upright it’s a “bones” day AND PEOPLE CHECK THE BONES FORECAST LIKE IT’S A HOROSCOPE I AM CRYING
jinkook au where after 4 years together, jungkook leaves seokjin behind in LA for the life in new york he’s always dreamt of. feeling the guilt of holding the love of his life back, seokjin does his best to understand and gracefully let go.
second lead syndrome - jinkook au
💍one-shot
🌦️13.3K
jinkook agreed to marry if they’re still single by the time sj turns 30, but he’s almost there and still very much dating. jk’s solution? ruin every date he has to until he has a ring on his finger.
🌃 the city for us - jinkook au
🌃 9/9 || COMPLETE
“It took me too long to realize I don’t give a shit about any city. The only place that has ever really felt like home to me was with you.”
just one trick - jinkook au
🥣ch. 3
🥛19.8k, M
“Not that you’re my husband or anything! Obviously, you’re not my husband, you’re nobody’s husband and I don’t have a husband—oh my god, stop saying husband,” he whispers the last part to himself.
just one trick - jinkook au
🥣 4/4 || COMPLETE
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“Do you know what today is?”
“One year!” Ryujin shouts. “One year since appa, eomma, and I came into your life!”
“Exactly,” Jungkook smiles, bringing her into a hug. “The best day of my life.”
“the city for us” was plagiarized & redone to be a different ship. the author already reposted this after it was taken down but ofc is anon so i can’t reach them. ao3 is also no longer accepting any reports on this. pls just RT to let people know this is MY work WORD FOR WORD :/
it’s been one year since i posted the city for us on ao3 🥹
i was preparing something for today but i took a writing break so it’s not quite ready, BUT to remedy that, i do have some things to share about my beloved universe 💓
a christmas outing - jinkook au
chapter 1
All Jungkook had to do was go to the grocery store and get his sister tampons. Instead, he managed to fuck up his entire Christmas break in the span of 30 minutes.
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🐶mature
just one trick - jinkook au
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@BTSDILFFEST
🥣ch. 1
🥛7.7k, M
jk spent most of college in love with his very straight best friend. years of estrangement & one child later, they’re reunited, & he’s realizing sj is not the same man. not by a long shot.
even if minimalist/lowkey stan merch were my style (they aren’t), “monochrome” and “mncr” mean absolutely nothing to me as an army at this point in time. they could’ve at least slapped tannie initials on there in their lil sans serif font before calling it a day idk
juicy jays - jinkook booksmart au
🍃ch 1-2, 17k
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as he prepares to graduate and move to the other side of the country, sj is roped into attending a party with his roommate. the last thing he expects to find there is a reason to want to stay.
the city for us - jinkook au
prologue/ch. 1
the worst experience of seokjin’s life was losing jungkook to NY. now the two are in the same city again, thousands of miles from where they first met, and his ex’s smile is as gorgeous as ever.
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🌃mature
ok but you know what would be depressing??? a ps i love you style jinkook au where jungkook leaves his boyfriend seokjin with a long playlist of recordings and songs designed to help him get over his death at the hands of a terminal illness.
🌃 the city for us - jinkook au
🌃 9/9 || COMPLETE
“It took me too long to realize I don’t give a shit about any city. The only place that has ever really felt like home to me was with you.”
angels in the darkest of skies
🔪4/4 chapters ✘ 43.6k
🔪purge au ✘ multi-ship
🔪mature ✘ READ TAGS
sj is outside during the purge for the first time in his life when he meets jk, a vigilante determined to help civilians just like him survive the night
the only thing that keeps me going is the thought of yoongi being in his lil office doing lil office things doing his lil stamps his lil photocopies all in -ㅅ-
a corporate carol - jinkook au
🎄 ch. 1-2
📱 17.5k
when the ghosts of christmas experience a shortage, each ghost is expected to take on a scrooge by themselves. to jk's surprise, his scrooge is already being haunted by a ghost of his own.
i love you. even on the days you think i couldn’t possibly love you, i do. and i hope if ever you feel sad or lonely or lost, you remember that someone in LA is thinking of you. stay safe, my love. i’m proud of you, and i love you. seokjinnie hyung ♡
- end -
still can’t wrap my head around the fact that on a day he should’ve been getting some well-deserved rest and doing absolutely nothing, he chose to record a new part of his song, rehearse for a show, and hug 1,000 army. idk how i can still get surprised by how much they love us 🥺
i got rid of this for a number of reasons so don’t think of it as part of the story (or do. i can’t control you lmao) but as promised, here is the scene of sj coming home and finding ryugoo on the couch! 🛋💤🥞
just one trick - jinkook au
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@BTSDILFFEST
🥣ch. 2
🥛14.9k, M
“And now you’re here.”
“Now I’m here.”
“Here and gay.”
SJ raises his eyebrows. “Yes. Here and gay.”
“And a dad.”
He snorts. “Yes… here, gay, and a father of one, that is correct.”
juicy jays - jinkook booksmart au
🍃4/4 COMPLETE
💨33k || E
as he prepares to graduate and move to the other side of the country, sj is roped into attending a party with his roommate. the last thing he expects to find there is a reason to want to stay.
imagining jungkook seeing his hyungs in the morning and being like “yo do you guys remember paradise and heartbeat?” and just being met with blank stares
the first time in over 18 months that a goodbye from seokjin didn’t fill me with dread. we’ll see him tomorrow and we’ll see him often 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹 will i ever stop crying idk 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹
just one trick - jinkook au
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@BTSDILFFEST
🥣ch. 2
🥛14.9k, M
“And now you’re here.”
“Now I’m here.”
“Here and gay.”
SJ raises his eyebrows. “Yes. Here and gay.”
“And a dad.”
He snorts. “Yes… here, gay, and a father of one, that is correct.”
a christmas outing - jinkook au
5/5 || COMPLETE
“Thanks for waiting for me.”
“I told you at that grocery store that there were a lot of things I’d do to be able to date you, didn’t I?”
Jungkook is so glad he kept his word.
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🐶mature
in the end, seokjin doesn’t watch the car pull away, doesn’t wait to see if jungkook looks back to wave. he figures he has a week—no, four YEARS—full of memories that he’d rather remember jungkook by instead of this last one of him leaving.
just one trick - jinkook au
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@BTSDILFFEST
🥣ch. 1
🥛7.7k, M
jk spent most of college in love with his very straight best friend. years of estrangement & one child later, they’re reunited, & he’s realizing sj is not the same man. not by a long shot.
most of all, i just hope the time i’ve spent in your life has made a positive impact—one that can be seen in whoever you become. i know that whoever i become post-jungkook will be all the more amazing because you were there.
remember when hobi called us fucking crazy and told all of chicago they could call him jay it’s been over a year and i’m still in danger of throwing up at any moment bc of it
i don’t want us to harbor any resentment, so i promise you i won’t. i hope you’ll do the same. jungkook-ah, i love you so much. i don’t think that will ever change. even when years have passed and we inevitably lose touch, parts of me will always be reserved just for you.
i will think about koreatown, poktanju, and noraebang, and how we loved each other so much, we couldn’t scream along to the love songs loud enough. what will you think of? will it be nice? will it be romantic? i hope whatever it is, it helps you keep the memories of us pure.
so many thoughts run through seokjin’s mind, most of them curses at jungkook for doing this to him. he’s already asked so much of seokjin. please be okay with me leaving. please be okay with pretending everything is normal this last week. please don’t hate me.
i hope new york gives you everything you’ve dreamt of and even more. hope new york holds you like i do. i hope koreatown over there has even better food and alcohol and noraebang. i hope you find friends who make the city feel like home.
maybe if i didn’t fool myself into thinking you were magic, maybe if i didn’t let myself get sucked into the whirlwind that was jeon jungkook, i wouldn’t have been so inclined to let the relationship go wherever it pleased until it ran itself right into the ground.
“someday,” he starts, mustering up the last energy he has left to be strong for jungkook, “i’ll be happy for you. i’ll see your adventures in new york and feel nothing but happy for you even if i’m not part of that.”
jungkook’s face betrays his sadness.
but i loved you. i loved you so hard in that moment, and every other one. even when things got bad, i loved you more than i could comprehend. i still can’t really make sense of it now. when did you wiggle your way in? what happened? do you know?
A/N: i just need you to know i was pretty much sobbing the entire time i wrote this LOL. hope you enjoyed it. again, this is basically just a prologue of a longer story i hope to write in the future. it WILL be a happy ending so 🥰
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seokjin is simple. he didn’t love his job but it paid enough to allow him to do the things he likes and live in a neighborhood he adores. as long as he was waking up next to him, he felt like he had it all. it never occurred to seokjin that that wasn’t enough for jungkook.
you keep bugging me to start our first date of this ridiculous week where we have to continue to pretend to be boyfriends so i’ll wrap this up. make the most of it, jungkook-ah. don’t let me or my sadness or yours hold you back. i’m so excited to see what you do and where you go.
i don’t. not really. i feel like i’ve been caught in a whirlwind the last four years, jungkook-ah. i feel like you crashed into my life and everything you touched turned into gold, and i didn’t have control of anything anymore. i just loved you.
he doesn’t want to regret the last week because he knows years from now, when he no longer feels like the light in his heart has gone out, he’ll be able to look at the relationship fondly and with so much love, which is all he wants. but god, they made this so hard for themselves
“i-i can’t b-believe this,” seokjin sobs, his entire frame shaking. jungkook holds his hands tightly and lets him cry, his own eyes becoming glassy. “i c-can’t believe th-this is hap-happening to us.”
jungkook takes a shaky breath. “you’ll be okay.”
seokjin WISHES he hated jungkook so he could capitalize on his sadness and hesitation and convince him to stay. but he loves him. he loves him more than anyone or anything he’s ever loved, and he’s right. he’ll spend his entire life with regret if he stays here.
and he knows jungkook has nothing to be sorry for. it breaks his fucking heart to know he’s not enough to keep him here, but jungkook never stopped talking about new york since the moment they met. this really is him doing what he needs to for himself.
one of the little joys in life is having friends who know you’ll absolutely lose your fucking mind over a picture and proceed to spam said picture on every platform you exist on until you wake up
after weeks of fighting and begging and promising and sex so lonely, seokjin swears he’s already lost jungkook, they have breakfast one morning, eating their favorites. they sit in comfortable silence and somehow, he knows it’s over. it’s hard for seokjin to believe jungkook+
“don’t be, jungkookie.” seokjin can’t bring himself to speak above a whisper at the risk of letting the floodgates open. maybe if they stay quiet, their heartbreak will follow their lead. “i love you.”
jungkook squeezes his hand. “you’ll always have me.”
he takes a swig of wine
but i know i can’t think like this. i know i’ll drive the both of us crazy asking about the what ifs and whys. so i’ll just ask you as you read this from the plane, from your new place in new york, from central park, from wherever: what will you think of when you think of us?