I am awesome wrapped in epic and sprinkled with amazing. Robyn/30/she/her. Loves anything Middle Earth/Tolkien, music, food, and the idea of having plants
Wrote 800 words for
#NaNoWriMo21
and now I just feel like crying and my head hurts and I feel broken. This is not what I planned for today. And no, it’s not related to what I wrote.
Got massively triggered last night, and it looks like that’s just kicked off my PTSD cycle early (usually starts around October), sooooo today’s a self care day. Which means I get Dairy Queen.
Despite my best efforts, Im in a mood where I just want to cry and I’m pushing myself to finish today’s kinktober prompt purely because I don’t want to fall behind, even if I think it sucks.
Anniversary of
@opeitskaty
's passing, and I apparently used all my energy for work, so now I just want to sleep the rest of the night. I got ice cream instead.
Alright! Got 4213 words down. Not quite what I needed to get to be caught up but I certainly closed the gap, and hopefully writing before work tomorrow will be easier.
#NaNoWriMo
PSA TO ANYONE WHO IS FRIENDS WITH A THERAPIST: don’t use them for free therapy, especially if you don’t talk that often. It makes them feel like shit and used.
Pro tip to anyone that has employees: don’t email them in the middle of the night with ‘constructive criticism.’ You have now triggered their anxiety and prevented sleep.
That feeling when you go to leave a nice and rare comment for your favorite YouTuber and editer (shout out
@devdevnumnums
and
@potatokinggamin
) and realize your username matches NONE of your other handles they know you as so you won’t be recognized. 😩
This is also the friend that has not mentioned my best friend once since she died. So. Yeah, I’m feeling a bit used while they rant about people having differing opinions
Today was oddly productive! I wrote four pages! Read fifty pages of Tolkien lore! Ranked up in
#DeadbyDaylight
! It’s been a good day to ignore my problems!
#unfinishedtales
It’s
@opeitskaty
’s birthday and I really miss her. That’s not going to go away but I’m sure she’d be highly amused that I’m attempting to moderate that feeling with alcohol and writing smut. I think she’d be pretty proud, actually.
@NaNoWordSprints
1200 words! This is one of the last lines I wrote: "It made Bilbo laugh, and Thorin tried to stuff his worry down, to mask it with more jokes and words of love as they went to the boats. Next was Dale, and then battle." (Yes, I'm writing Hobbit fanfic)
Dad pointed out, accurately, that the scene with Pippin’s song is hard for me because the song is SO GOOD but I can’t watch because it’s interspersed with Denethor eating
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I don’t usually cry, but
@unorthodox_pod
’s latest episode on Conversion had me tearing up. The stories were beautiful and made me look forward to my own trip to the mikvah.
I’m gonna watch the Hobbit: AUJ extended edition toniiiight and I’m so excited. Fun fact, despite writing fic for it for months, I haven’t seen them since they came out seven years ago >.>
a hobbit, a wizard, thirteen dwarves, a quest, and a minibus of questionable origins. middle earth shall tremble. 😉
#Bagginshield
#TRSB21
my art for the
@TolkienRSB
event - please look forward to the amazing fic
@hufflpuffhobbit
wrote based on it - On The Road (to Erebor)
@saltandketchup
@ParkdaleHaunt
I can completely understand that 😂 my office has plenty of sunlight during the day but every odd noise I heard made me go like 😳
Things to look forward to: This month will be my biggest check so far, and I’m getting a new phone tonight. Gotta keep this shit in mind when I’m having a bad week
So I guess I maybe should’ve predicted this a bit more, or maybe not deluded myself into thinking I could do it in one sitting, but for those who don’t know: writing a eulogy is really fucking hard.
Exhausted from work, so I’m giving myself tonight off. I’ve ordered my husband to MAKE me write tomorrow when I get home though, no matter how tired I am 😂😩
Protip: when looking for references of how Bears dress, specify to google that you want gay bears, or else you'll get results of how to field dress a bear, which is... really not what I wanted.
Suddenly have a three hour break before my last client. I don’t have my notes for the next bit of my story for
#NaNoWriMo
so I’m just skipping ahead to write a battle!
@potatokinggamin
As a therapist, that’s a really crappy cancellation policy. Most that I know, myself included, have a 24 hour policy :( I’m sorry! Also, see if they’ll waive the fee the next time you have to cancel, since they cancelled on you. Your time is just as important.
French actor Gaspard Ulliel (“It’s Only the End of the World”), who stars in Marvel’s upcoming “Moon Knight” series, has died following a ski accident in the Alps on Wednesday, according to news agency AFP. He was 37.
Other way to read this: I wrote about Thorin being on bottom and immediately got hate for it. So I got snarky and am continuing EXCLUSIVELY reading bottom!Thorin fics