edtwt was right recovery is bad. now my ass and tits are too voluptuous and everyone wants to fuck me all the time ☹️

i’ve eaten so much this afternoon i feel very guilty

i tell myself i was never sick enough to recover yet just today i wouldn’t let myself have an oat milk latte… i need to get better i want to enjoy life again. i’m going to go buy some unhealthy snacks and watch my comfort streamer

i ate 2 pieces of avocado toast i’m still hungry and feel so guilty. but if i want to be normal i have to actually work on getting better

i’ve still been restricting heavily and i just want to recover i have to commit but it’s so so hard and scary :/ but i can’t live like this forever i can’t so im going to try again

now that i’ve started relapsing i can’t stop because im too scared to gain weight again

i can already feel the extreme hunger and i wasn’t even relapsing for that long

i’m going to let myself eat dinner tonight

hi guys.. i’ve been relapsing really hard and i want to keep losing weight but unfortunately worst ana symptom just happened to me while i was out walking… perhaps this is a sign to go back to recovery

i have been doing well with recovery except for the fact that i’m completely avoiding looking at my body and also still secretly tryna to estimate my calories. i’m not scared of any foods but i can’t tell if im genuinely trying to make healthy choices or if it’s ed brain

so this lasted exactly one week and now i am triggered as hell and want to relapse so incredibly badly

happy new years everyone. 2024 was absolutely rough and my mental health has taken so many devastating hits. i was relapsing but im going to keep recovering. i’m going to work on becoming better, and happier

oh i wana die so bad i hate eating

i am depressed again. and unfortunately i decided i am allowed to eat whatever i want the last few days and now the guilt is so horrible that i want to die

@bejeweledrecov ugh i wish im too drunk to smoke. you’ll be fine tho. if u get 2 high and anxious then fr just play taylor and lie down that’s what i did first time i smoked and it got me through

they told me just eat something and go to sleep. i can’t man that’s why i called

it’s so bad i just had to call the alcohol helpline

please help me i drank way too much i don’t know nah to dk

goodnight sorry for sad posting

@bejeweledrecov hurry up then

@bejeweledrecov mine does too and i hate her lets kill then all