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physical changes i noticed in my body when i binged in a surplus almost daily for over a year, a thread for when you’re thinking of giving in “one last time” <3
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i am very much a scraping my bowl person. i have counted every stupid c4l0ries and i am going to eat every one of them!
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how i broke my b!nge / r3strict cycle and am now able to control my urges, a thread
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how do u guys do face reveals on here are you not scared of people irl finding you
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“1500 is like a binge” please leave. how many times do we have to say binges are about loss of control not intake🙏🏻 i have binged on 800 c4ls once and i have also binged on 4.5k. both were binges because i had a complete loss of control and was in a certain mental state!!
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people who have never been in a binge cycle will never understand how hard it is to stop. if you’re also in one, you’ll know that right after a binge you get the mindset of “i’m so disgusting im never doing that again” and then for some unknown reason, you do it again +
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things i noticed when i was bmi 28 that motivate me to keep losing… a small £dtwt thread 🧵
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“you should count your unsweetened almond milk cals” YOU SHOULD COUNT YOUR DAYS!
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embarrassing if nobody sees this LMFAO but would anyone be interested/ want to be tagged ?
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“how __ can make you gain weight” OHH MY GOD ENOUGH!!! the only way u will gain is through being in a c4l0ri3 surplus !!! god
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cheesecake and carrot cake best cakes Idc not accepting criticism
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little backstory:
my binge era was horrendous, it started i think as extreme hunger once i reached an underweight bmi, and it would always be “one last time” of eating genuinely upwards of 5k cals almost every day. “one last time” turned into many many months and +
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extreme weight gain!!! like i lost over 60lbs and then gained almost all of it back. i had never felt worse. it is not and never will be worth it. if anyone ever wants to dm me to talk more about it i’d be happy to bc i know how bad it sucks and it’s not as easy as +
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1. the bloating.
at first, when i hadn’t gained lots of actual fat, it went straight to my face. i looked so WEIRD, i had a normal looking body, my legs were still somewhat thin (lost the thigh gap tho :/) but my face literally looked like a ballon. i was like a bobble head +
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i don’t even post pictures of my meals in fear someone will recognise the background or what i ate??
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i wore a mask EVERYWHERE because of how much i hated how i looked, my face just ballooned and i could physically feel how stretched out i was. i weigh more now than i did then but my face was bigger back then because of how bloated i was + my stomach was HUGE.
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2. the sweat (sorry this is kinda gross LOL)
i sweat SO much. it was awful. my binge era started just before my gcses and i would sit on my blazer in the hall bc of how bad the sweat patches would be, i was so hot all the time but wouldn’t take my jumper off because +
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i hated how fat i felt my arms had got. even that autumn i was warm when everyone else was cold, and so i just pretended to be cold and suffered in warm layers. now that i’ve stopped binging i do not sweat for no reason and when i do i know it’s because i’m working out well
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3. random nausea.
not sure why this one happened but i haven’t thrown up since i was about 7/8? and there were two instances during my worst binge cycles were i would be gagging randomly in the evening and throwing up a small amount of liquid? not sure if it’s related but +
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4. horrific skin!
i’ve always had kind of bad skin? not bad but not clear, but oh my god when i was binging it was AWFUL. like spots everywhere (especially my cheeks) and my skin would be so oily so easily, it looked and felt awful and made me even more self conscious, +
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1. i sweat SO easily. i literally was always sweating, especially on warmer days it was disgusting. id always leave those sweat marks on chairs… it was awful
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thought i’d mention it bc it SUCKED. i’d also just get so nauseous so often because of how much physical stress i was putting my body under and how much shit i was stuffing in my stomach. horrific. when i’m nauseous now it’s the “restriction nausea” (which somehow feels +
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and full of self hatred whilst i was binging that i *hated* having a shower bc i couldn’t stand to look at my body. during school holidays (kinda gross but keeping it real!) i would hardly shower. i barely went out and saw my friends and only showered when i had to. it was +
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making gc because shit i need it and having to leave my own gc would be so embarrassing LOL
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comment / rt to join!
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3. sleeping was uncomfortable. just straight up. i could feel my f4t no matter the position i slept in. feeling your arm against your stomach f4t is just so disgusting it feels terrible. so much worse than your knees pressing together at a lower weight
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it’s literally not as easy as just stopping so. telling someone to stop is not gonna help them👍🏻
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@pleaseimcrying
yeah omg my mom cried all the way home from school after she found out i sh and i was just sat there like …
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6. of course, weight gain.
the worst one! i didn’t weigh myself much because i couldn’t bear to look at the scale but based on photos and everything i know for a fact i gained at least 50lbs. 50!!! in the space of less than a year. absolutely ridiculous, i’ll never forgive myself
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hi i’m lexie / lex , not new to edtwt but looking for some moots <3
- 5teen
- they/them
- 5’5”
- ugw: 90lbs
like/rt to be moots!
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5. greasy hair.
pretty much my entire body just started producing more sweat and grease- including my hair! no matter how much i washed it it would get greasy way quicker than it does now and truly damaged my self esteem- especially because i became so miserable +
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7. stretch marks!
this one isn’t as bad bc i know it doesn’t bother some people and it shouldn’t!! but i HATE them on me. and bc of the rapid weight gain the backs of my knees, my stomach, and my arms are covered (ESPECIALLY backs of my legs???? weird) i hate it. +
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noticeably different and i know i’m not gonna actually throw up) - it once got so bad from how often i binged on bread that the most recent time i ate bread was when i threw up a little bc i guess i just could not handle it anymore !
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my skin has cleared up more now, it’s still not good but i don’t have any pimples at the moment and i used to be COVERED. also (this one links to the sweating and probs the rapid weight gain lol) i would have acne over my body, like (kinda tmi lol) under my b00bs +
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disgusting, but i hated myself so much that all i wanted to do was hide in baggy clothes and, because my brain is fucked, i would just keep eating! when i stopped binging, my hair got healthier (yes it is falling out LMAO but it takes longer to get greasy!) and i just +
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DISCLAIMERS:
- i am now one month b!nge free, but i do not recommend this thread if you are only struggling with binge eating and not r3stricting as that was what my issue came from!
- this is what worked for me, everyone is different <3
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finally broke my binge cycle oh my fucking GOD! took a while but we got there!!
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that is all i can think of rn!!!! if anyone reading this is stuck in a binge cycle i promise u can get out of it. it’s such a lonely and terrifying feeling but you CAN break free from it!!! my dms are always open to anyone i love u all take care and drink water🩷
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5. people acted differently towards me. they never said anything directly rude, but my family would give me looks or just say i should exercise some more. especially my mum. which is ironic because now she tells me to eat more lmao
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6. everything was uncomfortable. my thighs rubbed together when i walked and would become red on the inside and so sore and painful. walking was literally painful because of it. it was hell, ESPECIALLY in summer.
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4. my hair got greasy quicker. idk if it’s because of weight loss or whatever but i used to not be able to go a DAY without washing it, i can go a few now and it looks fine. and even when it’s greasy, it doesn’t look as gross as it did at my hw
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and on my chest. this hasn’t happened since i stopped binging so i’m linking it to that!!!
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edtwt may i offer my list of reasons to keep going and not break my fast early / go over cal limit
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2. because of how warm i always was, i couldn’t sleep without a fan on. which was annoying, because it was loud and didn’t make sleeping *that* much easier.
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PORTION CONTROL
try and train your mind to understand that eating one small amount of whatever it is you were craving will be better that over indulging on other foods to avoid it. pick out a small plate and cute cutlery or bowl etc (1)
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11. overall, i just felt constantly judged, overly self aware, uncomfortable and in genuine physical pain because i wouldn’t stop fucking eating. and you know how i coped with feeling that disgusting? eating. it’s such a vicious cycle.
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before we start:
my hw was after i gained 30lbs, making me 163lbs, i was bmi 28 and deep in a binge cycle. it was so uncomfortable, i binged my way there and so i was aware of the changes in my body. here’s what i noticed lol
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7. my skin was way worse. this is more d!et related, but at my hw i was eating just straight junk and so much sugar, i now eat less and mostly fruit and my skin is so so much better and less oily
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i’m screaming and crying and throwing up on the floor. this kind of th1nsp0 is what does it for me.
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it makes me so self conscious and i will never ever EVER forgive myself for doing that to myself
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me saying “metab day!” knowing full well i’m still in a deficit but the deficit just doesn’t feel like one
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10. i was so jealous. it was a horrible mindset to be in. i loves going charity shopping with my friends and i’d always look through the clothes with them but there was nothing my size, and they’d walk out with a new cute jumper or something. i felt humiliated
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hey guys i’m back sorry was depressed here’s a recap:
- had a massive ugly painful terrifying binge i nearly threw up
- tried to *** (failed obvs and didn’t tell anyone just got up like damn okay
- didn’t eat for two days bc i was so miserable
- have now being doing omad since!
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8. i got out of breath so quickly, literally just running one room of the house to another would have me breathing heavily. it was so embarrassing and not to mention pe class at school :/ awful
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@pastailuvyou
no because i’m convinced my friends would hang out with me more and like me more if i was really thin and part of me knows that’s just not true because they’re so lovely and really don’t care but i just can’t stop
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feel so much better, the knock on effects of any physical symptoms caused by excessive binge eating is actually insane
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@stellarexia
this is so😐 like leave us alone! my own mother asked if i’m on £dtwt probably because of this🤬😡👎🏻
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(3)
when you’ve finished, tell yourself that it’s gone now, you’ve enjoyed it, and you do not crave it anymore (even if you do)
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(3)
slowly, i realised that every time i would b!nge i would do it on “safe” foods (rice cakes, low cal spreads, fibre bars, even apples) which helped me understand these binges were to avoid a “bad” food, for me, this was peanut butter as i knew i was craving it
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9. i was so miserable. i am now, yes, but it’s so much worse when you’re in a f4t body that’s backed up by having a high bmi. i feel terrible now, but at least i know it’s not as bad as i think because i’m at a lower bmi.
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i am so glad i lost those 30lbs and more. i never ever want to get back to that point again.
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(3)
for example, saying things such as “this is not me, i do not want to do this. i do not give in to these urges, this does not define me as a person”
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why do people debate whether fruit c4ls count like why wouldn’t they they’re still c4ls if u eat over ur tdee from fruit ur gonna gain just like u would any other food ?
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@minsbkg
:/ is like disappointed or like “oh :/“ you know but 😐 is like “um.😐” like? yknow???
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you need to understand why you’re binging, sometimes it may just be overeating from a long period of r3striction but i know that was not the case for me,
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HIGH RES
note that you should absolutely not fast or do low res after a binge, seriously, this is one of my biggest mistakes. do high res and see if it works for you with controlling hunger, especially if you’re a night binger (like me)
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“GIVING IN”
if, like me, you binge to avoid a “bad” or fear food, it may be best to allow yourself some of it in moderation. practice portion control.
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anyway. my account is always gonna be a safe space for people who binge, yes even if your binges are huge and painful and messy i love you and i’m here if you ever need me🫂
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IDENTIFY THE ISSUE:
back in march all the way to around july i was heavily struggling with this and so falling back into this cycle in october was TERRIFYING as i knew it could get worse so quickly (1)
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me vs putting “?” next to an answer i know is 100% wrong on a test so maybe my teacher will pity me and still give me a mark
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if i lived alone oh my god i would be losing sm quicker. kid u not i would be surviving on apples and protein bars and that is it.
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hello i’m gonna make an ed gc!!
- no fatspo !
- don’t have to send weigh ins or body checks if uncomfy
- ages 13-17
- we will do fasts together (if you’re able to i know it may be tough if living with family)
- become close !!
rt or reply to join :D
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after realising this, it became so much easier to break out of the cycle.
in my head i convinced myself that by eating these safe foods i was consuming fewer cals than just eating the pb. spoiler alert it was far more (portion control, guys)
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“i hate myself i’ve gained so much in so gross i never want to eat again” i say, and then i wake up the next morning and Eat. A lot.
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make your food look nice !! this way, you will want to appreciate it more and will be less likely to criticise yourself for “giving in” to this “bad” food. eat it slowly if you can and remember the taste.
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a little reminder to hopefully help anyone here with gym anxiety: everyone is focused on themselves. i went for 2 and a half hours yesterday and can’t remember anything about the other people there. i barely looked at anyone, i was focused on my workout and my form etc! 🫶🏻🫶🏻
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oh this does look incredible. mango orange watermelon strawberries grapes dragonfruit apple kiwi blueberries + mint and lime
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i literally don’t care. i’m honestly not embarrassed to talk about my binges on here anymore. they happened. they were massive and ugly and painful. my d!s0rder is still valid though and i deserve to be kind to myself as much as i did before i binged.
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i literally cannot stop crying over this email from my teacher who spoke to me about my eating yesterday. oh my god :((
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@cinnrollkcal
i think my main thing i did was vocalising my urges and sitting in a different room to seperate myself, like i’d say out loud the urge i was feeling and say how i know it won’t benefit me, it will only make me feel worse, i have never felt better after etc- i also
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@staycspo
sw after a hugeee binge cycle which i called “recovery” was 163lbs and i am now around 107!!
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(4)
another way of resisting the urge is planning out my meals for the next day, i don’t know why but it keeps me entertained and keeps my mind off of the binge
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@MATCHAURA
this like it’s fine every now and then we all do it but when it’s literally all they do it’s so exhausting listening to
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