and he is ——— oh, well﹗ he is just himself, and i miss him, and miss him, and miss him. the whole world seems empty and aching. i hate the moonlight because it's beautiful and he isn't here to see it with me.
i love you like a rotten dog. i love you like my canines are falling out of my gums, like a monster, like a beast, like something not worth loving back.
and he is——— oh, well ! he is just himself, and i miss him, and i miss him, and i miss him. the whole world seems empty and aching. i hate the moonlight because it's beautiful and he isn't here to see it with me.
he traces maps of veins on my skin, talks about how hungry i make him, that he'd eat me if he could. i wordlessly offer him my arm. he gives it only a soft——mouthed bite, but i'd probably let him tear me apart. i'd let him do anything.
my abuse isn't poetic. it was not justice or necessary. the earth left me to die and there is no such thing as karma. the gods watched by idly as i was killed in that house and not a damn person tried to help me.
she was the most beautiful thing i'd ever seen. if only she would open her eyes, smile at me. but she couldn't. there was a neat hole cut into her chest and beneath it ——— her heart was missing.
i want to feel holy again i want to feel holy again i want to feel holy again i want to feel holy again i want to feel holy again i want to feel holy again i want to feel holy again i want to feel holy again
i could recognize him by touch alone, by smell ﹔ i would know him blind, by the way his breaths came and his feet struck the earth. i would know him in death, at the end of the world.
" deny it then, " i yell. " deny me ! "
he cannot, of course, so he does not. i remember what it was to hate him with the whole of my heart, but i've remembered too late.
please tell her, that when the sun goes down i think of her. please tell her, that i will never forget the sound of her voice calling my name. and please, let her know that she lives in my heart, and that everywhere i see her face.
i am a demanding creature. i am selfish and cruel, and extremely unreasonable. but i am your servant. i crawl at your feet ﹔ i am debased. for you alone i will be weak.
stop looking at me like that, with pity in your glassy eyes. all i am to you is a tragedy, right ? stop it. stop fucking looking at me like that. do you hear me ? i will break you with my bloodstained teeth.
i will be wild. i will be brutal. i will encircle you and conquer you. i will be more powerful than your wars and your swords and your bloodlust. i will be inevitable.