Hi everyone! On this account you can find me venting about my ed, discussing food, calories, fasting, steps, b/p. Tw for weight &numbers, some mentions of sh. I mostly high restrict &maintain with a focus on harm reduction. I don't post bodychecks or interact with thinspo.
Where is baby anorexic me that had energy and could exist off 500 cals of cookies because I'm litterly averaging 1600-1700 cals, eating veg and processed food. Protein, fats, fiber, carbs, and can't even walk straight.
Eating disorders *pic of a scale with 30kg on it* are v deadly disorders *pic of someones spine* &we r here 2 educate u *pic apple on the floor* on how to help ur loved one with an eating disorder *blue nails* in this informative article that isnt triggering at all *tape measure*
The longer u have an ed the more likely u are to start purging or compensating in some way once the honeymoon faze is over. No one can restrict like crazy forever. Just like u shouldnt compare yourself to others u shouldnt compare yourself to yourself bc u will still nvr match up
A thread acknowledging the ways I gaslight or manipulate people because of my eating disorder since it's an uncomfortable thing no one likes to talk about
Reminder that avoiding people for disordered reasons makes them think you are upset with them and that's how you ruin relationships with an eating disorder.
You won't lose weight from raiding your mother's spice cabinet and making disgusting drinks. Whatever weight you do lose that would be the eating disorder
Binge prevention tip if you are trying to prevent binges, proactively make yourself aware of what triggers urges and practice uncomfortably sitting with those urges even when it's hard instead of solely relying on proana tip
#985
paint your nails because that will never work.
One type of hunger makes me euphoric, another type makes me feel miserable, another type makes me want to binge and non disordered ppl have no idea this multifaceted hunger scale even exists
Im a fully recovered anorexic. Just a normal dieter now bc even though my bmi is 16 and i think ab food all day, b/p, hate my body, refuse to gain weight, & track all my calories and weigh & measure everything, i eat more then 1200 cals & thats what constitutes an eating disorder
@mirubunnie
The thermic affect of food is a part of your tdee. You burn the most cals digesting protein and the least amount of cals digesting fat. Carbs are in the middle. Complex carbs with fiber takes more energy to break down then simple sugars.
Tell us about your rock bottom with your ed if you feel comfortable! It doesnt have to have been at your lw or struggling w anorexia. Lets de-glamourise all eds including orthorexia, bed, arfid, bulimia, pica and more. Your stories are worth telling.
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@mirubunnie
I know you don't have bad intentions but a lot of comments under this post are so disheartening because it hurts to read & interpret- she would be so pretty without her eating disorder. When we should all be focusing on better reasons for recovery then looks. Eugenia & all of us
Restricting is an ed behavior that is hard to fight your thoughts on. Purging is an ed behavior that is hard to fight your thoughts on. Binging is an ed behavior that is hard to fight your thoughts on. Read that all again.
@killingcaIs
Yeah but a man with more fat reserves that doesnt have a history of starving himself and depriving himself of nutritents will have an easier time fasting for longer then people with eating disorders.
Being a skinny kid 100% contributed to me developing an ed like I always had to show people how skinny I could be, and I started seeing myself as never small enough.
I'm so guilty of putting myself in unsafe situations especially if I need space to cool off. Upset or triggered? Flight response &steps. I'm mostly a indoor pacer but I've done my fair share of 2am walks. Its easy to rationlize its safe bc ive done it before but its so dangerous.
When "everyone" has disordered eating it feels like it takes away from our struggles and i get that. Its annoying when these ppl feel they have the power to speak over us on ed topics while getting only a fraction of our pain. They have the right to vent and have support though.
You binged had honey and lost weight? Did that have anything to do with your digestive system finally had a substantial amount of food to help escort out a bowel movement?
We all know hangry but whats the word for when your brain is mush from the ed and you get overwhelmed and start crying over miniscule things in the corner while pretending everything is okay.
@caloriminos
The real tips are weight bearing exercises, calcium, vitamin d to absorb calcium, balance exercises to minimize trip/falling, work on flexibility. Overall harm reduction to keep your period, no a birth control period is not a real period.
Almost no teen with an eating disorder will take recover while you are young seriously from someonewho is older. I get that. What I have to say instead is practice harm reduction. Limit most risky ed behaviors. Electrolytes. Take extra good care of ur teeth even if u don't purge
Yes I did finish the last bite of my protein bar at 11:59 pm last night and then immediately rinse my mouth out before the calorie monster could get me for eating at 12 am
You do not owe anyone your body checks. Anyone who says they can help you lose weight if you send them is lying. They are perverts & pedophiles. Block & report them. Speak up & let your ed friends know this message if you find out they are talking to a coach. Coaches are not real
Why is everyone drinking cinnamon water when you can make disordered atrocities with cinnamon on your food instead. Friday night I mixed cinnamon with erythritol and put it on canned baby corn.
If you are too comfortable with your heating pad and use it constantly without any issue ever please remember that it's a real genuine fire hazard and to always shut it off
@raesricecakes
Yes cut out every single food including diet soda and artificial sweetener. Satisfy all of your cravings with air and let me know how that works out.
Its not just purging that messes up ur teeth. Malnutrition, dry mouth from restricting/fasting, carbonated beverages, acidic staining coffee, going crazy w pickles & acv, reflux, chewing lots of gum are some of the many other ways. Ur eating disorder WILL affect ur teeth.
@tyokniii
Some people are trying to live with their eating disorder and have gotten comfortable allowing theirselves more calories then you have personally decided for them
The above is all sarcasm. Do you realise how dumb this sounds? Eating 1200+ calories while engaging in ed behaviors, having the mindset of someone with an ed, doesnt mean you no longer have an eating disorder
I shouldn't have been told about buying expired protein bars at a discount because these only were $20 including shipping and are my favorite discontinued flavor
Hey besties I can confirm that the Dr is not out to get you. I cried. I was open about medical trauma and distrust for providers. Refused to be weighed. Got a script for blood work and a dexa scan anyways. Don't avoid the Dr for too long it's not worth it.
Do you not understand people of all weights, with eating disorders suffer from health consequences from restricting their food, overeating food, purging food, doing anything but having a normal relationship with food.
Not eating because you are mad is not an ed power move if it means reactive eating later. Instead try eating the planned food at the planned time and being visibly upset in the corner to make everyone feel bad.
Fun fact of the day. You don't have to justify your ed to anyone. If it makes sense to you go for it because dis-orders are devoid of any normal logic and reasoning. Dont want to count apples? Go for it. Want to eat one and log it as if you ate 3 go for it. Who cares.
Saw a tweet that fat people have odor and bad hygiene but I have news for you if you think that being a critically low bmi will mean you have the energy to shower and wash your hair every day
Opening windows and cleaning up after people when they cook or eat so it becomes questionable if I ate or didn't. If there's no evidence my sister baked cookies 2 dozen cookies when she clearly did maybe I did actually eat after all and just buried wrappers.
@cr0nakgs
Everyone here is talking about every other eating disorder (bed, ednos, bulimia, arfid, etc) but missing the whole point you can still be eating way below your bodies needs &have anorexia with these numbers. Even if u are short but even more so if you are tall, active, a guy etc
Skinny privilege looking sick/frail is real some guy gave money when he saw me trying to hitchhike instead of walking 40 minutes home because I have no energy
Remember "send body checks" is a way to ask for nudes under a guise of "helping" you. Thats manipulation. Dont ever engage w coaches because thats what theyre after. You are never obligated 2 send anything2anyone esp not perverts/paedophiles who infiltrate vulnerable communities
@sheikah_kgs
Fr i know this is just supposed to be a funny joke but unplanned pregnancies are so common w eds for exactly this reason. Be careful. Resteiction b/p missed periods etc dont mean that you wont conceive. It means SOOO many of us falsly think this and get preg so stay safe
I look at kids playing in the park and see their energy and love for life and I'm like wow!! Then my thoughts get dark like which one of you are going to end up in my position when you are older.
Let me tell you that I had a mental breakdown in Costco bc someone took my empty wagon when I turned my back. I only needed 7 small items &had no energy to go all the way back to the front of the store so I tried to carry everything & dropped a bag of sweetener. It broke I cried
Thinspo is basically only young teens/women looking v glamorous. U dont see older women who have been suffering from an ed for 20+ yrs looking, aged, worn down &so fed up. The romanization drives me insane even though i can understand romanticism of pain can be a coping mechanism
Some ppl dont know that salt& tea are 0 cals so thats ur message of the day. Enjoy them! Water weight might be scary but i promise its temporary. Proper hydration is so important & u dont have 2 only drink plain water. Also hydration isnt just ab water but balancing electrolytes