@cherryis_living
my limit is 1300cal on a bad day, but usually i stay around 700-900cal :)
i also try to walk everywhere i possibly can and do ab workouts if i have time
➷my hispanic side of my family called me thin instead of healthy
➷instead of constantly saying i’m pretty out of pity, people say “you look like a pinterest girl” or “your vibe seems like a girl from paris” or “i could see you as a ballerina”
when i gained 12kg:
➷ when i was 65kg, i didn’t actually think i was big at all. since i gained from an ed, i thought “since i’m disordered i can loose it later” but over months it definitely added up.
@DieRather
that’s my biggest issue while studying stem in uni 💔 if i do have brain fog though or need to go to a lab i make a wrap with low calorie tortillas and tuna as a boost :)
➷people who i used to be friends with distanced from me, it was like i was a ghost. all i remember was wondering what i did wrong.
➷people used to tell me i was “pretty” excessively, but it was out of pity, i could see it on their faces.
when i lost 18kg:
➷as soon as i came back to school my friend immediately went to pick me up and call me light
➷people started making plans with me and admitting they wanted to be close friends with me
➷guys replay my snaps and some guys get nervous around me now, also other guys say hi to me in the hallways
➷people come to me for comfort instead of getting angry at me for little things
➷my family doesn’t argue with me anymore or try to convince me not to eat what i want, instead they try to feed me the food they cut out of my diet forcibly
➷my friends like to talk to me in conversations now, before they used to cut me out before i could finish a sentence
➷the guys that once used to like me and call me cute, didn’t even look at me. i felt disgusting.
➷one of my boyfriends poked at my fat
➷my friends used to say “you stretched out my clothes” when i wore them
➷since one half of my non related family is asian, i would get comments from my aunties and grandmas constantly about my weight. when i gained they didn’t even need to say it out loud, their looks said it clearly.
➷all my friends got their bellybuttons pierced without me
➷whenever i set foot into class people always compliment me saying “you look so good today” even if i slept in yesterday’s makeup
➷friends actually offer me their clothes
➷my friends want to take pictures with me now
➷my “friends” didn’t invite me anywhere and they made friend groups around me. they were all skinny.
➷one of the comments i used to get was “oh but you’ve got a fat ass”, or “some guys like a little bit of meat on the bones”
➷my family used to warn me about my health such as diabetes constantly, when i was at my highest it was the worst. constantly argued with me and told me to exercise/get fit
➷people got aggravated with me quickly