hi, my names Ava as most of you probably know. Although late, I want to make this post anyways.
September, suicide prevention month. Why is it so important?
TW/ mentions of sh and suicide attempts.
“Hey Colby wanna hang out tonight for your birthday?”
“Sure man”
“Can Johnnie come?”
“Of course he’s cool”
“Sweet I promise he’s not as weird as he is on camera”
The Johnnie in question:
hi. not many of you know but I lost my older brother to mental health 3 years ago. I wanted to share some pictures and some little details that made him special with you all because the world deserves to know his face.
This is Julian :) born August 21st 2002.
can we stop like tearing Johnnie apart for everything he does? Please? His humor is perfectly fine, so are his opinions, and especially his voice. His music may not be for everyone but that won’t ever degrade his actual talent.
let’s start a Johnnie appreciation thread 🤍🫶
Johnnie and Jake are like so unproblematic I don’t know how people manage to make it something it’s not 😭🙏 they’re pretty chill people and wouldn’t want any of the weird shit people do sometimes. And I don’t mean edits or art or funny edits etc. im sure you know what I mean by
Julian would have been 21 this year. His golden birthday.
Julian was bright and funny and so very talented. He loved guitar and was incredibly good with plants. I kill every plant I touch but this boy was magical with them. He especially loved cacti 🌵!
I mentioned Julian loved guitar. He was so talented. He taught himself how to play and write music all on his own.
His favorite music artists consisted of:
Red Hot Chili Peppers
Sublime
Bob Marley
Weezer
Pink floyd
AC/DC
The Beatles
+ much much more.
This is Julian’s dog, Harvey. He rescued him after hurricane harvey and named him after that. Julian didn’t ever really show the means or caring for a pet but his loved harv.
Julian was so so funny. Not everything was perfect with him but for the most part he was a great big brother. He did everything he could to shield me from the madness that was our parents and always tried to make me laugh and I wish I saw that sooner than later.
Julian struggled from schizoaffective disorder which is schizophrenia paired with mood disorders. He also had ocd, adhd, doctors suspected some form of borderline personality disorder, depression, severe anxiety and other possible diagnoses.
Julian turned to self medicating with drvgs at a young age before he received professional help. Starting out with only smoking it quickly turned much much more.
My family and I tried for years on end to get Julian help. Trying numerous therapy’s, inpatient and outpatient programs, allowing him to pursue hobbies and even moving all over the place but to no avail.