I've turned the corner and what seemed like a hopeless situation is now a massive opportunity for me. It has taken a lot of work and will take a ton more but I can finally see a small, bright light at the end of the tunnel.
I discovered that I am tethered to outcomes instead of to processes. Have to completely re-wire my brain and it’s really hard. Going to take a couple of months at least.
I discovered that I have developed a personal paradigm of a victim mindset. This mind virus has slowly seeped in over the last few years and has damaged many relationships.
The important thing now is that I understand it and can reprogram my subconscious. It will take months