i turn twenty two tomorrow, & im proud of myself for surviving this year as up until a few months ago i had a full suicide plan mapped out.
i saved myself this year, and thats more important to me than any struggle ive ever faced.
i have no words for how sick i am of men pretending to be my friend when in reality they just want my ass.
i have so much more to offer this world than just my body.
my mother was the biggest mental health ally I knew. I will not let her legacy of wellness and recovery end. My mother’s workplace put this out because my mother truly has touched SO many lives. She is missed by so many. An amazing woman.
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i completely relapsed in my ed after my mother died & im finally willing to admit openly that i nearly killed myself in that alone.
i am still in the process of recovery, but i am proud of both the weight & the mental strength ive gained thus far.
🦋
sometimes u just have to let someone view you as the bad guy. sometimes defending who you are is more emotionally tolling than its worth, and as long as you know who you are you do not have to waste any time proving it to somebody else.
i....just got hired in at a dog boarding/ day care center doing my absolute DREAM JOB with amazing pay???
i dont know whether to cry or sing or dance but i wanna do all three because i am STOKED !!!!!!
one time my mom was crying bc she saw a deer and she thought it was her own mother’s way of visiting her from the dead, and i remember thinking she was bonkers. the other day there was a deer staring at me in a field for a very long time & just
i get it now
being “rich” is not something i desire in order to be content. i just want to be financially stable enough to eliminate money as one of my daily stressors. it makes me sad more people don’t feel this way. :/
after going nearly a full year without any medical treatment or medications for my messy brain i can FINALLY begin receiving treatment again because i FINALLY have HEALTH INSURANCE !!!! this is such a huge weight off my shoulders n i wanna cry.
better days are coming.
happy coming out day i only made a facebook post about being gay so my homophobic family members would finally delete me from their page & their lives
i dont actually owe them an explanation for my sexuality
jumping on the bandwagon bc this was me in the beginning of the year when i straight up couldnt see any kind of hope for myself or being alive in general...n this is me now. i dont have everything figured out, but i am so much healthier and happier and i will continue to grow <3
had a nasty, entitled old couple in front of us at subway so instinctively:
i hiked my shorts up to show my ass cheeks and blake started talking about loving cock
my mom died in a car accident two years ago tomorrow and i feel....fine.
im so proud of myself & my growth.
i will forever feel her absence but it no longer keeps me from living my own life. 💛
it doesnt matter we had to celebrate in a hospital room, and it doesnt matter that this holiday season was filled with painful setbacks.. because we will always find a way to celebrate joy together. I feel so loved. ❤️
merry xmas :,)
ive spent over a month grieving the loss of what i thought my future was going to look like & it been..really sad. & thats exactly what its needed to be. ive been so damn depressed & im PROUD of myself for that. allowing myself to feel the weight of my emotions this time.
i was unpacking my suitcase & gunner gently pulled some of my dad’s old beanies out of my hands and hasnt stopped snuggling them.
animals understand a lot more than we give them credit for.
just logging on to say that dust is bullshit. you mean i have to clean stuff just because its been sitting there? how fucked is that?
i cant be the only one with this rage.
a customer was judging me for “eating a hot dog in less than 3 minutes”
1. why are you timing me
2. i only get 15 mins for a break i gotta scarf it baby
3. I threw the hot dog up right away because I did, indeed, eat the hot dog too fast.
my mother died a year ago today on her way to pick up some groceries. we had had a three hour phone call a few days prior to this where i encouraged her to try and get out of the house more, and she WAS TRYING. but life didn’t wait for her to recover. i love you momma. 💛