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HYDE'S (@/eekyrat) MEMORIAL TRIP HAS BEEN FUNDED!! MY TICKET IS PURCHASED AND ILL BE ATTENDING HIS RE-HOSTED MEMORIAL!!!
Thank you all so so so much for supporting us through thick and thin and continuing to be here for her even in death
was given a very very very special gift at this memorial trip will say its just nice to have a piece of Hyde with me now... also the fact we were the same size and all, very honored and thankful to continue our sock loving fashion
ppl think being dissociative is some intense horror game disorder but reality of it its more like existing in the silent hill fog not really knowing where you are or whats going on at times, sometimes u walk up to clearings of it/find ppl in it but like its just there-
My dog was recently diagnosed with a UTI and needed X-rays to confirm if she had stones or not (thankfully no!). But she does have crystals which can lead to them. I was hospitalized recently as well so I'm in a really rough spot and could use your help!
sorry its messy and rambly it's just we're still in the midst of grief there is a new memorial being held for Hyde soon to make up for disrespect at his fucking first one bc we couldn't even escape that I just don't get the parasocial rship ppl have w him esp now that hes passed
lrt I can't count how many ppl assign me as some mystical/noble/stoic savage its exhausting I just wanna be human to u all and still express the mixed cultures I grew up in
My dog was recently diagnosed with a UTI and needed X-rays to confirm if she had stones or not (thankfully no!). But she does have crystals which can lead to them. I was hospitalized recently as well so I'm in a really rough spot and could use your help!
it's surreal that it's gonna be a year soon since his passing, it still doesn't really feel real even with the memorial services but coming together to be able to heal and grieve is probably the most cathartic thing and I thank you all for giving me the privilege to
took down my thread abt Hyde n how ppl treating his passing cuz will admit wus very emotional + the fact right after ppl where passing comm info on the post announcing his death, going to prolly write a document or something with gathered thoughts abt it 1/2
#rattober
- day 4&5 "unseen rat" "rock rat"
while late on both of these combined them for ease meaning to get them done yesterday
presenting you the endangered Laotian Rock Rat!
simple paint/sketch study
when ur kinda in it, idrk wut ive been doing or wut ive been up to besides wuts logged and saved on this pc/texts leftover etc the amnesia is more of like this thing that follows you like an onion skin with your memories atleast-
4 any1 else grieving:
the pressure to "move on" going to functioning the "same" way b4 the loss is strong,
but it's okay to accept grief can be significant enough to become lifelong, u just learn to cope + live with it in a means where you live for yourself n those lost
it's wild what items can have such value essentially being priceless even some pairs of socks to papers with notes written by them
Cherish those you love and all that makes them themselves you don't know when it'll be ripped away from you so suddenly
ik if he was here he would be screaming and flipping out in joy at everyone and excited for it all to happen and know that she thanks every one of you for the contribution/making sure these trips happen
cant wait to log it and actually be able to post it once there!!
WE MADE RENT!! thank you all so much again in these times its rough when you're forced to confront your health being sick + disabled but you all help to keep us safe even when i'm unable to physically keep up
everyone is falling into catastrophizing mindsets and disbanding the moment some propaganda is strong enough and it's rough to see
esp when it directly affects u and ur loved ones in the end negatively
cuz it really does feel like smth that at least needs to be talked about a little bit etc but at the same time theres just a fear to come out abt it even if it's like just being honest abt ur emotions u kno, thank you all so much for the support tho and understanding 2/2