I told a nurse my bmi was 15.9 and said "I don't look underweight tho do I haha" and he was all like "I'd say ur pretty healthy actually" like... EXCUSE ME?, so I shown him the bmi app thing and he said he'd consider my weight average. sir, I'm severely underweight wdym?
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It was literally just a comment I literally don't look underweight? How u gon get mad at me for being disordered when ur literally on a disordered subtype of twt get over urself ❤
My 1:1 nursing assistant in the hosptial just told me I should go into modeling bc I have the figure for it😭 I lit had to record (my face, her voice obviously) asking her "what did you say" (so shed repeat herself) to prove it bc she KNOWS I have an ed 😭
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Just an update for the moots who care, I've been struggling with extream hunger in this forced recovery and I'm dreading weighing in tomorrow becuase tomorrow is weigh day on the ward, its all so new and weird, I'm still struggling alot though :(
I've been abit inactive due to being on psych I've been really unwell with my other mental health issues but I plan to come back on here full time very soon as I am not in recovery, I'm going to do a wieiad later on too as I've lowered my intake again, stay safe yall❤️🩹
Todays omad 😁 not on any meal plans yet so I can do whtvr the fuck I want which makes me happy!
Grenade bar- 203c
Protien pudding- 158c
40g Banana- 36c
495 calories all together
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(I didn't count the cals of the Coffee bc I use calorie free sweetener/coffee creamer
Started my day with Porridge, strawberrys, protien pudding and coffee for breakfast! And then started a fast too! Let's see how this goes, wish me luck!
Got brought to psych this morning, waiting for a diatition so they'll be trying to force recov on me at any moment now and I'm just not gunna engage, I wanna go home :(,
On lighter note
Here's todays cray cray breakfast
Breakfast🍓on the general ward, they let me bring in all my safe foods 🥰 I'm under a five two section rn which is a hold to depend what happens next, I might be going back to psych on a section, they also said they're worried about my ed lollol
I'm fasting, I'm restricting, I'm doing everything but since I hit Low bmi 15s I havnt been able to lose anything :( how do I go about it from here? Do I up my intake and excerise more or do I lower it and excerise less bc I physically can't do both and it's frustrating me
Kinda contradicting myself by saying I was lowering my intake bc I suddenly decided I'm trying salad at dinner today (the wards salad) but I have food scales from home so I'll still be calorie counting ect, and I'm gunna try and make my intake max 400 in a day so we will see!
How do yall deal with constipation? I havnt been to the toilet in over a week, milk and magnesium isn't helping, I've just had 2 fibre 90 cal brownies and I'm about to jug some water but I really dk what to do
Does anyone else's heart suddenly feel weird and their chest gets super heavy and tight when they're falling asleep and you feel like ur about to vom while sinking deep into the bed, and like ur uncontrollably holding ur breath bc that's been happening alot recently :/
Being on 1:1 makes it hard to take my fluids off, get my shoes on and run😭 I've got an escape plan for the morning tho, not gunna give them the chance to put me back in that godawful psychward, they can do one
I'm really struggling with my fasts, I'm emetophobic so when I start feeling sick I'm having to break them, anyone got any tips on how I can get by without feeling so ill? Please lmk if you do! ♥︎
Tw// Having a super bad day with my psychosis so ended up binging, then purging for the first time in my life, I couldn't even get it all up which sucked, and staff threatened to put hands on (restraints) if I didn't stop ;(
How do yall purge fr?
Oh so I did manage to run away this morning but got literally CARRIED by police back to my bed on the general ward, cuffed wrists with leg straps aswell as being restrained for 45 mins how fun!
Broke my fast with this breakfast this morning :) but I put the wrong grenade bar in the pic, I ended up having the caramel chows one instead my bad lol
Tried a new yogurt today that my partner recommended, told my sister to get it for me as I'm locked in the loony bin, she got me the wrong one but it was Low in cals anyway so it didn't really matter,
anyhow here's today's OMAD 💖
496cals♥︎
I'm rather good at my ed or pregnant bc I havnt had a period in 2 months now, I did a test like 2 weeks ago and it was negative, might do another one today, pray for me
What I had for tea, there was sso much and I'm so full but I'm really trying, I don't want to get better but I have too, I'll do it for the people around me, so here is my dinner