dealt with too much harassment, bullying, slander/libel, rumors, ostracization, and got doxxed. both lolicons and antis are annoying af and life is too short
"It is a hard lesson for a hard world and you had better learn it... Villainy wears many masks. None so dangerous as the mask of virtue." Ichabod Crane, Sleepy Hollow (1999 film)
Final post on this account. This account will serve as an archive of what happened to me, while I will be active on a private account (the website link). Thank you all who have supported me through all the struggles; it's time now to be safe, happy and make new memories 🩷
why is it ok for people to make gay ships when it's not canon but people can't make straight ships when it's not canon? people need to grow tf up and stop obsessing over fictional characters. ship who you want
boo morning! also, fuck anyone who supports or glorifies doxxing, harassment, bullying, follow policing, ostracization, etc over fictional interests. you are the problem and i hope you get karma ten-fold
graduation announcement: i will not be streaming nor watching streams anymore. i will not hold a final stream either. feel free to unfollow or unsub to my twitch. i'm sick of the harassment, bullying, doxxing, petty drama, toxic jealousy, stalking/simps, etc that i've put up with
Despite all I've gone through I still maintain my defending stance on lolisho. I have a past of being sexually abused as a minor but am still rational enough not to blame fiction for what a real person did to me. I greatly sympathize with those being harassed over fiction
@matsrusty
@EnigmaRedLight
ok, as someone who doesn't consume nsfw content and prefers moe, i feel the same way. fiction is purely for entertainment; equating real crimes to nsfw art/anime porn is beyond bizarre
i'm tired of being lied to. i just want to be part of the newer community i joined since it being pro-fiction means i'll never get hate and people will ban antis who act toxic and spread hateful lies. i regret opening up to the past when i prefer the future
i'm glad i played hogwarts legacy! ^^ this year went from painful and confusing to me becoming comfortable in my own skin with my views/opinions on things. kinda wish i were open back when i started streaming; would've missed a lot of immature bs but it worked out well in the end
i wish cyberbullying had serious consequences, especially when it's on a big scale. i will never understand why platforms reward the bullies and punish those who speak out about getting bullied. i hope one day platforms do better so it's safer for everyone
moving today =D special ghost arrived to take me and junko to new home! will be offline for a few days due to all the driving/spending time with them. i'm so excited, AAAAA! 😍
i appreciate many friends in my community. i'd list people but don't want to forget names or possibly offend anyone if they didn't get on a list i'd make. i'm sad to see some people dunking on others for being sad not to be in lists when you could say nothing at all. it's normal
i hate seeing more and more people doxxed over petty drama in their community. why are people so reckless and toxic that they even think doing this is ok? i'm glad i keep a distance now and only stream as a hobby and keep a low profile. crazy monsters out there ruin it for all
i made a pact with an unnamed entity and was given a guide named Desmos. my blood is carved on a stone they carry and i am bound by a promise to only cast revenge that is just and never abuse my powers for selfish nor unnecessary reasons. i will guide those who are lost to light
best news ever! going to go home in a few months since everything is coming together nicely ^^ i'm so excited! i have so many new hobbies and goals for new year and i can't wait to get home, work and get back into the swing of things!
midnight lolita outfit! it's still incomplete but revealed it tonight anyway XP (may have forgotten eyebrows and fixed it live on stream, but don't tell any boo). i also ran out of cookies
i'm home! =D was a long drive of some days but we did it! Junko loves her new home and can run around a lot. i'm honestly more grateful to people with driving jobs =O how do they do it all the time?
for years now. i'm equally disgusted with people who enable, support or make excuses for these bad actors. i'm finally home and can live my best life and want to after nearly 6 years being stuck in a foreign country. streaming is clearly not for me. while i cut out the bad
not sure when my next stream will be but i'm very happy i can get my life on track now after so many years 😭 i can't wait to get a job, learn how to play violin, go out more and try many new things 😄
even if you're bullied for eight months or more, it's never ok to dox someone or even joke/share private info on someone. i wish i was never shown that info because it made me feel so dark when what i truly want is to move on. i don't want to be sunk down by another person again
happy new year's eve! i'm drinking tea and watching horror movies all day to relax ^^ i hope next year i can share a lot of horror games with you all and have a great time!
as promised =D i will get my revenge by being happy and leave all the bad, toxic friends behind and focus on healing from the bullying, backstabbing, etc. thank you for everyone who listened to my side and others' experiences. i'm glad my community is safer now for us all.
Despite all I've gone through I also maintain my defending stance on Hogwarts Legacy. Sadly all the hate has done for me is make me fearful, disgusted and distrustful of trans and LGBT activists (namely online). Before I didn't think negatively of the party nor the activists.
never stop doing what you love 😄 you will always have jealous haters no matter what you do. just be as happy as you can and focus on all the good you have going on. life is too short to let others bring you down with them 🩷
@mofumofukani
i'm so tired of people spreading lies and trying to tear others down like this. i'm sorry you both are dealing with all this toxicity and unnecessary hate. i wish people just blocked, banned and moved on and didn't lash out to be so terminally petty
we beat fatal frame 4! was very quick fight for such a build up but we did it! started mundaun after and it's a very interesting game so far! curious to see where the story goes =D thank you all for supporting me!
some days i miss streaming and other days i feel i never want to stream again. i'm so tired of people in communities who dox, harass, spread rumors about others, bring others down, e-beg, nag others to watch them, complain about numbers/not getting payout, etc but flat out get
it's wild because i've checked who all is in every stream i go to avoid the bullies yet they somehow learned of my new account. all i can think is they were tipped off or were spying around. i do not trust the old community i was in. these people are crazy
others didn't since they cared more about growth and that just isn't ok with me. i refuse to pretend everything is fine and i always cut out dangerous individuals no matter how much money, energy, etc they gave me. only way to get away from this all is to quit and it's about time
It's disgusting seeing people support the person who doxxed their friend to me. There really are no consequences online for people. I'll be blocking all people who support that person for peace of mind
i think i have to cancel stream today. the alivers have many loud children over -_- i hate sharing a house. one even tried to blow bubbles on and chased after Junko (rabbit). i can't wait til i can haunt an empty apartment/house.
All of the harm I went through were from people I once called "friend". So please be very careful with whom you befriend and don't share phone photos, private info, etc because it can put you and your family in danger and it's beyond violating and terrifying.
just going to be blunt: if you support Falter or Rich in any way despite how much they've harmed me and others, what the fuck are you doing following me/liking my posts? they spread heinous lies and dox people over petty shit and people could get hurt
it's too easy for crybullies to abuse platforms and false report victims speaking out seeking help for being bullied. i've seen this way too many time over the years
so happy i've improved over time in art. arisu was an interesting arc where i learned a lot of good and bad about streaming and vtubing. trying to be a cookie cutter vtuber just was never for me but it taught me a lot about others and myself
Thankfully I had 2 friends present to confirm what happened. Everything after that was slander after slander, lie after lie about me and my community trying to paint me in a horrid light. I can only guess why someone with so few real friends would hurt a friend like this
i was offered sensitive info on one of the bullies who hurt me and i never would have guessed that would happen or the temptation that came with it. i deleted the info and want to move on and stay away from the bullies or anyone tied to them in any way. i'm exhausted.
tonight we beat fran bow and started the cat lady ^^ we love some disturbing and dark games! we raided
@StarAwoof
they are cute and do amazing art, please check them out!🩷
it's time to put away that "soft" image i tried to maintain for some years now. i want to just be myself and not feel ashamed or like i have to fit a mold other vtubers adhere to. i love dark and horror things and I'm pro-fiction and i want to attract like-minded people.
just like hogwarts legacy all over again. why do people care so much what media other people consume on their own time? if you cut everything out that is related in any way to people with views you don't like you'll have nothing left.
To all my content creators and streamers, DO NOT PLAY THIS GAME. Please share this where you can:
-Creator is heavily racist and transphobic
-Direct plagiarism of characters and story
-AI artwork used
-creators previous work features a real 9-1-1 sexual assault call.
Hell. No.
practically living online for so many years makes me feel free in a way i haven't in a long time. i want to try socializing more, financially contributing more, and stop putting off all the things i had for so long XP i'll find a good balance of streaming and living life!
to feel a connection with someone who may not value you at the same level. i just want to see my friends and their communities thrive rather than some people act immature over lists and devalue others simply for being smaller streamers. it's dum
don't treat someone like shit and then a month later expect a favor from them. i'm tired of people online virtue-signaling and treating others like garbage over a huge, wrong assumption. if you don't give me a chance, why should i give you one? you reap what you sow
lately i haven't made any free art for friends because last month i had a friend lie that i charged them $75 for an emote i made them for free as a gift about year prior. they insisted on paying me and gave me $30 for the emote and recently weaponized it out of petty anger
was the main developer/boss of omori a shotacon/pro loli/shotacon? if so based. makes the bully group i dealt with in the past even more hypocritical too if it's true.
i'm honestly sick of seeing so much bullying over video games and fiction. what is wrong with people? 2023 has just kept being the year of antis going to the extreme over fiction and i'm guessing it will only get worse next year. i hate people
and "i'll be quick" refers to the full address they looked up and posted (for about 5 seconds) with the site they used and i could not report that to discord. all they left was the 2 images that weren't a dox but just personal info. it's dumb they are backtracking when it's clear
The only person who knew of the doxxing was someone who had warned me about them many times and had shared dms of that person lying about me and spreading negative things concerning me. Yet the person warning me about that person also turned on me over the dumbest reason.
one of my worst nightmares about being a streamer. part of why i never wanna show my face online. stalkers are a real problem and i don't feel police or platforms care enough to help a lot of the time
some days i wonder what would've happened if i never streamed hogwarts legacy nor defended ships and lolicon. would i still be surrounded by people that would've hurt me later over something else? i know defending these things will automatically make people discard or cut me out
Despite someone privately doxxing their ex-friend to me I didn't reveal who it was to the public but instead cut them out of my streams, dms and twitter. Due to another's actions this person revealed what they had done and tried to paint me as a villain for what they did.
3 mazapan in one day 😍i feel so spoiled! merry christmas! eat yummy food, treats, dessert! i drink my ponche and eat my 2 extra mazapan while i watch more spy x family 🩷
it's ok to not fit a "safe" cookie cutter mold in the vtuber community. you shouldn't have to avoid things you like out of fear of how people will receive you. just be you, unapologetically, and it will all fall into place nicely in time ^^
before ever giving me a chance to explain my reasoning. i also feel like an outlier since i'm vanilla and don't lewd things like most do. i feel like i kinda don't belong sometimes since i'm not aggressively defending it nor lewd myself. it feels like being neutral or prefering
by "deleted the info" i meant the 2 facebook images i was provided that i censored and used to prove that Rich had, in fact, doxxed their friend to me even though the 2 images themselves weren't the dox but what they used with a site to then get a full address