It’s so embarrassing at this big age telling people that I have a crush on someone when they’re in the process of getting engaged, getting married, starting a family etc. never in a million years did I think I was this undesirable that no one would consider me a serious option.
Bro I’m really depressed. I have no desire to keep on keeping on anymore. I’ve lost my drive. I’m lonely. I spend every day in the same four walls. I’ve not even had enough. I don’t even feel that strongly anymore. Nothing matters at this point.
As I get older, the hardest battle I’m facing is never really meaning anything to anyone. I’m never the one, always one of. I’m easily replaced. I’m easily forgotten about. It hurts.
Moving home was literally the hardest thing I’ve had to accept. It’s really hard being around a parent all the time, when you don’t have a partner or a friend who’s house you can chill at when it all gets too much
whenever I meet someone, I’m never the one, I’m always one of and they never pick me. And constantly being told that I’m not good enough for someone is hard.
I find it really difficult to hold conversations with people who are at a lower level of education than me. And I don’t mean to be a cunt, but, if I’m having to explain everything out to you, I will lose interest. I feel like I’m then babysitting.
Feel like a mug, man. Helped someone out with money as they had a child and I felt bad. Only for them to completely ghost me afterwards. What a scumbag.
That’s twice now I’ve had annual leave and I’ve really felt like it’s been a waste. I don’t do anything. I don’t go anywhere. I haven’t left the country in nearly 5 years now. I’m bored. I’m fed up. I need a change.
Was gonna go on a rant about how I’ve still never, to this day, had flowers, not even when I went through a big life event like graduating. But then I remembered only my mum showed up to my graduation. No one else could make it for me.
Honestly can’t believe that in the last 3 years, absolutely no one that I’ve been involved with has taken me seriously and not fucked off with someone else at some point. It makes me so sad.
Might just turn my instagram into one big art piece with themes and shit because I don’t want to be a hot girl on the internet anymore, I wanna be a weirdo, true to myself
This mentality of needing a side hustle to bring in more income is a narrative pushed at you to distract you from the fact your career doesn’t pay you enough and we should be putting energy into that to ensure we’re paid better. Not off opening a second business. Open your eyes.
Just finished breaking bad again. I know think the story is themed less around Walt making money for his family, and themed more around the manipulation of Jesse who Walt sees as the lower class and therefore beneath him, making him impressionable as he is vulnerable.
I actually want to cry at how bad my nhs pay is. I have a degree in order to work my job. And the boys who cut grass for the council take home more than me.