🩵🩷🤍 Transbian (Pre Everything) | 43 | She/They | Sapphic | Sub | Exploring My Gender | Making Friends | 18+ Only | Mentally Unstable at Times | Love Hard
@thenicestbirdy
Holy hell, I don't even know how to respond to this. I literally feel seen/ called out. This has been my life. I just accepted I'm probably trans this year after so long. It's exciting, freeing, and terrifying at the same time. I'm still learning what to do with this info.
@Torificallytori
Tori, I'm so sorry. Just know we are here for you to share in your joys. I know it doesn't compare. Losing my best friend and biggest supporter, I can relate somewhat. Though it is different in many ways. You are ❤️ and are an amazing girl! I'm glad to call you a friend.
6yrs total, 5 married. 2 children. How TF can you decide in 3 days you need to end the marriage? Especially after how close we had gotten earlier this year?!?!? Like Monday, it was all we need more time together, I love you. Thursday, I need peace and to leave.
Well, after a final attempt to regain some form of communication that wasn't toxic with her, she has told me she does not care about me at all, basically. There is nothing more to talk about as far as she is concerned. So, I will be filing for the divorce and moving on.
After about a month of constant crying and sadness and self abandoning because I want to hold on to what I thought was my future. Today, I came to the realization that it will all be ok. I am a good person with a lot to offer and love to give. I'm going to be ok!
I know I'm healing because it doesn't really bother me anymore. I still get sad for what I believe I had, but in reality, it was just something I created and was never really real. We were never on the same page. It was a creation I was made to believe was authentic.
@Faerynnistired
Guys, stop. All of you are making too much sense, and it's scarring me. I don't want to look at my marriage and pending divorce logically yet. 😩
Though I desperately want to be the one to fix the trauma you have endured, it isn't my cross to bear. It is yours. I wanted to be there to support you through it, but that wasn't your desire. I'll sit this one out and take care of everything else till you figure it out.
Trying to make things work as friends with someone you loved with all your heart and soul and was also your best friend at one point has to be like one of the hardest things to do. Like, you haven't talked to me about anything more than surface level for a month.
@sleepyangeldom
I know this hurt. I gave unfettered access to you with my body and mind. You told me I was your best partner. Anything you asked of me I was at your command. Then you threw me away like I was nothing.
@Torificallytori
Oh, Tori. You are amazing and have accomplished more than I already have. Just keep going. I'm sure it will continue to improve. I can relate to a lot of this, but I'm on my own journey, though we share some pain. 💜🫂💜
With the divorce pending now, idk where to even begin to look for another partner. How do people meet these days? I'm not into going out to bars or anything. Maybe I'll just be alone for a while.
1/ In retrospect, the signs were always there. Constant being told what I should do diffrent when I meet somone else. Or how I should be more open with information with the next person. I was always confused as to why I was given that information.
The worst part about this situation is that she will always be in my life since we have 2 beautiful children. She just won't be mine anymore. I'm not ready to see her move on in any way. This is going to be one of the hardest things I'm ever going to face.
2/ For me, there was never going to be anyone else. I didn't understand why that was their way of thinking. We just laughed about it and moved on. I thought it was just quirky. In reality, they were never fully committed as I was.
Reflecting on my childhood and things that may have been clues, I was trans in my early years. I remember once asking a friend if a man and a woman both get exchanges and get married if they would go to heaven. 😆 My Christian up bring had me scared of hell back then.
It's painful when the person that means the most to you in life is just in another part of your house. Yet you can't even speak to them because they have given up on you.
I need my best friend back. It's so lonely without them. 💔😢